4 weeks

So when I got home after another very busy shift at work (both of my days we much busier then I thought they would be for christmas) I noticed that I had an e-mail from Jill.  Basically what it was is and invitation for the first 5 people to join a 4 week intense challenge.  This is exactly what I need.  4 weeks of being very accountable for what I eat and what I do for exercise.  It starts in January and I am really looking forward to starting.  I hope that this will help me have a jump start on getting myself back in shape.  I am going to do my best at making this a lifestyle change and not just a temp fix.  I must say that I do make healthy meals for myself but it is all the other stuff that I put in my body that I don't even need as I am not even hungry when I eat them.  Why put stuff that doesn't even taste that great into my body that actually stays on the body as fat and makes me feel miserable??

I am hoping to head out for a walk at some point today before going to work.  I would love it to be a run but to be honest after 2 days of eating crap I am not feeling up for a run.  Maybe tomorrow I will providing that I eat healthy today.

I am working at making a week long meal plan which is somewhat difficult.  I will plug away at it today.  I have enough food here to get me through the next 2 days at work (as long as no one eats it).  Menu planning and meal prep helped me before so I will do it again.  I so want to have this extra 50 lbs off by the summer and I know I can do it!!!!

10 weeks until we go see Garth and 14.5 weeks til we go to nashville.  These are little milestones that I will have some goals set for.  I know I won't be at my goal weight but I will have quite a bit off if I eat as clean as possible and fit regular workouts in my schedule.  I need to be patient and realize that it will take time to get the pounds back off.  It will be harder too as I am older!!!

well I must get back to meal planning.

Christmas Eve

I can't believe that tomorrow is christmas (well tonight is for us as I go back for 4 shifts starting tomorrow).  We will be having a green cmas  this year and I can't get over how mild it is today.  For whatever reason it does not feel like cmas to me.  I will do my best and try and make it a great christmas for the boys.  We will be heading out soon (the husband and I) to get a couple of more things and then we should be done.  he has to go out later this afternoon for a quick job and then should be home so we can enjoy the evening.  We will be having our traditional bbq steak for supper tonight and then we will open the presents after.  The kids will still get a "santa" present in the morning and their socks will be filled.  I will try and wake Matt up before I have to go to work tomorrow morning and see his reaction for his santa present.

i have had a workout with Jill 2x this week and it feels great (well my muscles hurt but in a good way). My resolution is to see her 2x/week and then 1x at home or the gym.  I want to run 4-5x/week too.  I sent around the bay an email and dropped down to the 5K race which I should easily be able to train for this winter.  I have been so unhappy lately and I know that part of the reason is because I am not leading a healthy lifestyle.  I really hate to say this but when I was eating clean and at a healthy weight I felt so  happy.  I want to get back to that point.

Well that is all for tonight.  Hope everyone has a merry christmas :)

day 3

Well I am going on my 3rd day of tracking and I feel pretty good and confident.  I thought I was going to get away with not eating out but an invitation just came up for lunch on friday so I will have to just make sure that I am perfect before and after and make the smartest choice possible on that day.

I have run 2/3 days now and it feels good (but very hard) to be doing it again.  I am going to go slow and try not to focus to much on how I used to be able to do it.  I didn't start off running like I did when I was at my peak and I know that it will take time to build up to that again (and it is hard to run with all this extra weight on….which I am working hard to get rid of).  I had a workout at Jill's today too which was great.  I was actually quite impressed with how I did at the group PT session.  I don't really know why I was so worried about doing it.

I just need to make sure I have enough food packed for my 3 nights at work.  I need to pace my snacks throughout the night.  I switched what I had planned on having for lunch and supper so my supper at work will be a little more fun ;)

I am hoping to get runs in tues/wed/thurs and then to Jill's on friday.  I think weather may be an issue but I guess really only if I make it an issue.  I can run in rain and snow.

well I should do the dishes from yesterday.  Still working on the goal of keeping my house organized.  Hard to do on my set of working.

counting points

18 more days til cams and 25 til the new year.  I will be counting points until the new year.  I am not starting the new year at this weight.  What I will do to help with the weight loss are:
1.  start running again (did a 4K walk/run this morning….hard but a good hard)
2.  see Jill 2x/week and maybe a home workout or gym workout
3.  menu plan and meal prep
4.  keep my house organized

Today I will prep my menu and buy groceries and cook a few dishes so they will be easy to take to work etc.  I have so many things going on next year that I do NOT want to struggle with what to wear and I want to feel my best when I go to them.

Here is to an on track rest of December!!