I need to be healthy

I have had such a hard time this last half of 2015.  I totally went of the healthy eating wagon and I can really feel it in my mindset, my joints, my mood, really everything.  I find I am short of breath and really the hips and one knee are so sore whenever I get up.  I am so over feeling this way and I am the only one that can change this.  I need to eat healthy and exercise daily.  Even if it is just going for a walk i need to do it.  I am going to start walking with my son when he gets home from school (whenever I am off work) so that he can get in better shape too.  I don't want him going through life feeling the way that I do cause it really sucks and he has so many other challenges in life that things that we have some control over we need to control it.

I am planning on trying to get to Jill's a few times during the month of december.  Starting in January I will hit up the gym on days I don't go to Jills and days that I am off.  I will try to do some cardio at least 4x/week but I really want to focus more on strength training.  I love the feeling of my muscles growing so between the 2 and clean eating I should get the weight off.

I need to make this a lifestyle change that will stick this time.  When I lost all that weight back in 2010 I felt amazing.  I need to not listen to what people were saying about me being too thin.  I need to do what makes me feel the best that I can be but also something that I can maintain.  What they don't understand is that I do have a food addiction so i need to eliminate certain foods from my diet.

those foods include:
chocolate
chips
cookeis
any type of sweet (unless clean)
cake/cupcakes
trail mix

Those are all the big trigger foods for me so I need to avoid them.  It triggers something in my brain when I have them and I can't stop eating.

Wish me luck and I will try to give weekly updates.

I can't believe it is just 16 more days til Christmas.  I still have shopping to do which is a bit stressful.  For my family down east I just have one niece left to buy for a to get my nephew a gift card to go with his other gift.

Well I am going to go shower now while the puppy is outside.