November...just around the corner

I have been giving this a lot of though and I think that in 2013 I am going to dedicate myself to eating clean.  I am getting a head start and will do my best to start that now.  I know that I won't be able to be perfect but there are many things that I can eliminate from my diet as they are not good fuel.  I need to remember not to put crap into my body that I don't need.

I started today off with a healthy breakfast.  It was just some cereal with bananas and milk.  I didn't go for a run  early this morning but I ended up going before lunch.  It was actually a pretty good run.  I am happy that I made that choice.

We are heading to vegas on thursday.  I know that there will be lots of eating out so all I can do is make the best choice that I can.  I will do my best the 3 days I have before we go away to be perfect.  We will see how that goes.

Day 2

I sure hope that in 5 days I will be able to type day 7 and that I will have stuck to my point range and made clean choices for my diet.  I wasn't going to run this morning because it was raining but I ended up doing 3K after dropping the kids off at school.  I got a little wet but not too bad.  After my run I came home and had some banana pancakes which were so yummy.  I was able to make 4 so I put 2 in the fridge and will have the other 2 on friday.  I topped them with a tbsp of maple syrup and 1 tbsp of walnuts.  I should have taken a picture but I didn't. 

I know that I won't make my original goal that I had hoped to be at for Vegas but as long as I eat healthy until I go will be a huge accomplishment for me.  I know that it will make for a much more pleasant trip if I eat clean and my mind will feel that way too.

I start back to work tomorrow so I am planning out my meals and doing some cooking.  i made a batch of spaghetti squash yeterday and will be making sauce for it soon.  I made a batch of tukey chili from one to tosca reno's books.  I know that in order for me to do well with eating I have to have a lot of my meals prepared so I don't stress about what I will have to eat.

Well I should head to the grocery store to pick up a couple of items that I need and get back to make my sphaghetti sauce before getting the kids from school...oh and to have some lunch too.

It's monday...a fresh start

What a beautiful day it is.  Sunny and possibly getting up to 18 degrees today, not bad for Oct 22nd.  I started off my morning, once my little man was at school, with a 4K run.  It actually went pretty good.  I need to remember I have at least 40 extra lbs on my body so I am not going to have the endurance that I had when I was at my lowest weight and I need to work on building it back up.  I am going to use today as my offical start date to get ready for the around the bay race in March.  I need to make sure I exercise smart and eat clean.  I want to have an awesome race and feel healthy when I am doing it...and of course look good too ;)

I am in the process of making a weekly menu and going to do my best to follow it.  I know that when I reached my goal weight 2 years ago that is part of what helped.  Tomorrow I am going to get up nice and early and head to bootcamp.  I know the more classes I get to the more comfortable I will be with this actual bootcamp.  I know that when my year is up I am going to join a gym in hamilton, most likely goodlife so that I can go whenever I want and make my own programs.  I think that i know enough exercises now and have enough exercise magazines and books that I can develop my own programs.  This won't be until next september.  So for now it will be bootcamp and running which is exactly what I was doing when I reached my goal weight before.

I am going to try and get my home more organized too which will make me feel more in control of my life.  Right now I feel like I am just coasting.  We are making our home beautiful so I need to do my part and keep in clean so it looks like a well organized home.

Now i must start with the cleaning process.  I don't want to be rushed next week and having to clean hardcore before my parents come.  I need to get as much done as possible the next 2 days before going back to work.

Here is to getting my life back on track!!!

Heading to WW tomorrow

This seriously has to be the last time i have a do over, a first day etc.  Tomorrow morning after taking my son to school I will go for an offical WI at weight watchers.  I need to make sure that I go weekly and be accountable.

I will get back into exercise like I was before.  I will track what I eat and make the cleanest choices as possible.  I am tried of feeling so unhealthy.

Here is do the beginning of a challenge that needs to be done!!

Breakdown

I am sure that due to my lack of blogging that one can tell I fell off the wagon.  I totally did a face plant and it took me a long time to get back up.  I was kicking and screaming all the way but then I realized I needed to get up.  I almost landed back on my face tonight but thankfully my husband walked in to the house which stopped me from eating what I was going too.

I did pretty good eating today.  I could have done a bit better but overall I am pleased with how I did.  I pretty much have my menu for the week made out.  It will involve some cooking on wednesday but being prepared with lunch foods really does help me stay on track.  I ran 3K today.  Tomorrow morning I need to drag my ass out of bed and try to do 5K.

Here is to eating clean again and to get back to my happy, healthy weight.

Feeling good

I had a great 2nd day and now we are getting towards the end of day 3 of being back on the healthy eating wagon.  I stuck with what I had planned to eat at work tonight and had nothing more.  That is a huge thing for me as I have been snacking so much on my night shifts.  I just need to come prepared and just fuel my body with what it needs not what my mind wants.

When I got up I was feeling sluggish and was debating on going for my run or not.  I laced up my sneakers and off I went for a pretty good 4K run.  I did have one walk break but I pushed myself to keep going to finish off at 4K which is what I had planned.  Tomorrow I need to get up at 7 and head in to the city to go to a bootcamp class at 8.  I am excited about going to my 2nd one.  I need to make sure that I go 2-3x/week. 

Mentally I am feeling awesome.  It is so crazy how much food affects my mood.  It makes sense though that I feel awful when I put crap food into my body.  I just need to remember this.

I really hope that I can keep this up and i know if I do that I will reach the mini goal I have before we go to Vegas :)

Day 1 completed...on to day 2

Well I had a great 1st day to my "recovery".  I did have Kashi bars as a trigger food to avoid but I have changed my mind on that.  I need to keep kashi bars and diet coke as a food I can have once/day.  I think that will help if I limit myself with these foods.  If I find that it is not working and too much of a temptation I will remove these from my diet.

I was able to sleep in today since my husband is taking a personal day.  We started out on a run together but he didn't make it all the way.  I did 3K which is what I am supposed to do according to my training.  I can't remember if I mentioned this yesterday but I signed up for a race in March.  Around the Bay which is 30K.  I did it last year and will do it again this year.  I am starting my training now so that I will feel ready for this race.  I was not ready for it last year at all.

I had a very good apple last night.  Honey Crisp.  I don't have them too often and it tasted so good.  I will have to buy myself a couple of them to have.  I need to make sure I have enough snacks tonight at work. 

I will try my best to stay on this road to recovery.  I want to make it work.

confession...and a new start

I was thinking of starting a new blog but I changed my mind and will just continue with this one.  I am sure that if anyone reads this blog they would know that I have many issues when it comes to food.  I am a binge eater.  I find that I eat even though I am not hungry.  I can eat large quantities of food and not even really taste what I am eating.  I tend to try and do this in privacy.  I even eat foods that are not a 10 in my mind when it comes to taste.  I need to change, and change now.

I really feel that it is an addiction that I have and I have not really been taking it seriously.  The last couple of days have been really bad.  I felt unwell both physically and mentally.  I had a breakdown yesterday and it made me realize that I need to change.

I know what my trigger foods are and i need to stay away from them:

Kashi bars - not that bad but when eaten in large quantitiees they are
trail mix
chips - any form of chips
popcorn
chocolate - any type of milk chocolate
candy
cookies- any type
any type of white bread, pasta, rice etc
muffins
popsicles
cake/cupcakes
I think that anything with sugar in it is a trigger food for me and I need to avoid it.  I know I won't be perfect with everything but really with the list of foods above I do not need them to sustain my life and will do my best to avoid them.

I am starting this journey today.  I will try to post daily about how I am doing daily.
Today I have started off well.  I went for a 4K run and then I came home and had some greek yogurt with strawberries, kiwi and slivered almonds.  For lunch I am going to have some trukey chili from the eat clean diet cookbook.  I am going to have to go and get some groceries today so that I will have lots of options for healthy snacks.

I am going to get back to my healthy, happy weight.

Tomorrow...

This has to be my last first day.  I am going to get myself back on track tomorrow.  I am feeling so gross and my energy is so depleted  I really want to get back to my happy weight and by me starting my first day every day and failing to stick to healthy eating is starting to affect me mentally. 

So starting tomorrow I will eat clean and start my daily exercise again.  I want to be in shape and I know that if I am good I will have the 15 lbs off before going to vegas!!

I WILL DO IT.