Struggles

I feel like I have totally fallen into the habits that I had last year and it is making me feel so awful both mentally and physically.  I need to pull up my socks and get back to eating healthy and exercising daily.  I know what I have to do I just need to be strong and do it.  I need to be done with putting it off.  If I keep putting it off all that hard work I did for a few months will my undone and I sure don't want that.  Today marks 8 weeks til we leave to go for boots and hearts and I so want to be in the 140's when we go away.  Tomorrow I am having a party for someone but that does not mean that I have to be totally off track.  I am sure there will be healthy choices and I need to make them.  Everyday I don't have things planned I need to be 100% on track and then when I have events 80% on track.  I do have a lot planned for the summer months so I need to be so careful.

I did go for a 3K run this morning which is a good start.  Tomorrow I need to get up early so I can try to get a 5-6K run in before the party.

Back to being healthy or I am worried I will have a miserable summer!!

June Challenge

Nothing like helping get back on track then a challenge :)  yesterday was a bit rough for me…adjusting to life with a new puppy but I am feeling much better today and am ready to kick ass with this challenge.

I am going to really focus on planning my menus and just eating what I have written down.  I always have enough food so why would I need extra food???  I am pretty sure it will take me a good 3 weeks to get rid of any cravings.  I feel like may was not a good month at all when it came to eating but I really want to work on getting the healthy focus back.

I went for a 4K run today and it felt great.  I had gone 3 days with no running and I really missed it and could tell by my mood that I hadn't exercised for a bit.  I ordered the body beast program from beach body and I am very curious to how it is.  It wasn't crazy expensive so I thought I would give it a try.  I love the muscle that I have built and want more.  I just need to make sure I follow my training for my half marathon too.  I may not be able to really do a 100% job on the body beast til the fall but we will see how it goes.  I think the workouts are only for 30 min which really is not that bad at all.

Well wish me luck for getting back on track and kicking some ass with this challenge.

Here I go….

I had all intentions of jumping back on the wagon yesterday but after supper I fell flat on my face mid jump.  Picking myself up and dusting off today.  I am trying a new approach which is the fact that in 16 weeks I will be doing my 8th half marathon and if I have any hopes of having a PR I need to eat healthy for the majority of those 16 weeks (few events will prevent me from eating at home but will try and make healthy choices).

I don't quite get why I am struggling again.  I was doing so well and then for the last couple of weeks it really has been a bit of a struggle.  I feel so off when I am not eating healthy so why would i want to make those choices???  Such an inner struggle and I feel like my little man is picking up on that.  I need to help him make better choices but try not to focus so much on what he eats or he will deal with the same disordered eating that I have and I wouldn't with that on anyone.

I went for a great walk today and will be making some meals for my 2 days at work.  I need to get back on track with planning my weekly menu's and doing meal prep.  I have said it so many times that it really is key for me to do that.

Well I am going to enjoy the rest of today and will stay on track.  Each day that I do the better I feel.

Getting Back on tracK...

I fell off the wagon hard the last couple of weeks but today I am dusting myself off and jumping right back on.  work has been stressful, not working out because I am so tired etc…all silly excuses and I am better then that and I am so glad that I went to Jills today.  I did the workout…all of it and it made me feel better.  I just need to get right back into the menu planning and meal prep and it will really help.  We have been having so much junk at work so I just need to avoid it.

I am hoping to get an 8k run done tomorrow but not sure how my tummy will do.  I am hoping that if I am on track today (which I totally plan on doing) I will feel much more optimistic about getting it done.  Tomorrow is officially my first day  of training for my half marathon in september.  I am pretty sure it is #8  which is awesome.  I want to stick to the training plan almost 100% and it would be so nice to have a PR for this race (I think 2hrs and 4 min is the best time I have had but will have to check that out to make sure).

Well I have a bunch of cleaning to do so I should get going.  Have a great weekend!

a bit of a set back

So I had my first set back since January and I am slowly getting over the mental affect it had on me and was 100% on track yesterday and today I feel so much better for it.  My set over mother's day weekend was so busy and on mother's day we ordered out.  I should have stuck to my guns and just ate the food that I had bought for myself but I caved and it led to a push off the healthy wagon.  I went crazy with the snacks that came to work.  We had a bistro the next night and again I lost all self control.
I am telling myself that it is in the past and just start eating healthy again (which I did yesterday and somewhat the day before).  I need to keep remembering how great I feel now that I have been back on track.

Today started off great with a 3K run and an awesome 75 min workout at Jills.  It felt so great to be back with the girls and having a kick ass workout.  I also am going to be doing an 8 week accountability challenge with Jill which will hopefully help me get the remaining lbs off and reach the weight I want to be at (or at least be really close to it).  I have planned my menu up until next wednesday and after my appt at 1230 I will head to the grocery store to pick up the necessary supplies.
I also went to hot yoga last night and had a great sweat session.  Tonight I will go again and another class on saturday (hope to do a 7-8K run tomorrow morning too).  Being active makes me feel great so I need to take the time out of my daily schedule and do what I have planned.

Well I must get ready for the day (take a much needed shower) and have some lunch before I head out.
Have a great long weekend everyone.

May Goals

May 1st, wow!!!!  I am excited that we are in May (really excited for today because a friend and I are going to the Luke Bryan concert tonight which will be amazing.  He puts on a great show!!).  The grass is turning a great shade of green, the trees are starting to bud, the weather is warmer etc.  

I am going to use this post as one to reflect on the past 4 months and how far I have come with my weight loss journey and kind of regroup to help get the remaining 20 lbs off my body.  

Back on Jan 1st when I started to get back on the healthy lifestyle wagon it seemed like it was going to be such a hard journey.  I had been struggling for a few years to get back on but to be honest something just clicked on Jan 1st and I jumped with both feet on the wagon and haven't looked back.  I am not saying that it has been all easy but I am so motivated which really helps.  

exercise:

I have been going out to Jills pretty consistently 2-3x/week and really working hard with the workouts that she provides for us.  Even when I had my back injury I still went and modified my workouts.  Now I am back to doing the ones she has provided.  When I have a lot of shifts on weekdays I tend to get up before work and head to the gym and do some workouts that I have from previous programs that she has provided for me.  I am feeling stronger and for sure can see some definition.  I have also started running again and will be starting officially training for my 8th half marathon which is in september.  Knowing that I have this race coming up + the weather being nicer = motivation to run again.  I am really hoping to have a good race and then my next big one will be the around the bay 30K.  I really want to do that one.  Maybe if I have all these races to train for it will help me stay on the healthy wagon (well that and plus how amazing I feel when I nourish my body with healthy choices).

food:

Menu planning and meal prep.  These 2 things have been so key in my success is getting the lbs off.  I take the time to think of fun things to eat and then more time to prepare them so they are basically at my finger tip and don't have to scrounge to think of something to eat and then make it.  

I have reached the point that I have roughly 20 lbs that I want to get off and just need to focus on planning the menu's and prep the meals and hope that the weight comes off.  I will keep doing everything that I have been doing and hope for the best.  I do like where my body is right now but I know it can be better and I am willing to do the work to get to that point.

Something I try to do is still go out and eat and enjoy the one meal out.  I don't get dessert and I don't go crazy with my choices but I haven't banned it completely from my life.  I just make sure that I get right back on track which is something I have always struggled with and really am working on this.  I will not let one meal derail me and I will not have a cheat day.  If I had a cheat day I would just feel gross and it isn't really worth it.  

Tonight is an example.  We will be going out for supper and of course I will be having a few drinks but I will get right back on track as soon as I get home.  I don't want to go too crazy cause I want to run 7K and go to yoga.  

Have a great weekend everyone.

Days off…a great thing

Well the last 2 weeks have been so busy.  Between the nashville trip, doing an OT shift, and then a pick up at the beginning of my set I can say that I am really looking forward to my days off.  I actually marked myself off in the schedule so I won't be called by work if they are looking for OT.

Exercise has been really good this week and mostly independent because of what I have been working.  Just not able to make it to Jills classes so I went to the gym instead and really feel like I had great workouts…especially yesterday because I had time to do some intervals on the treadmill after my strength training.

I had my weekly menu done for the week and meal prep done which made it very easy to gather my foods for my 5 shifts.  Tomorrow will be the day that I plan my menu for next week.  I only work 3/4 of my next shifts…took a v-day on friday for the LUKE BRYAN concert.  This will be the 4th time I have seen him and he does such an amazing job each time that I am so excited to see him on friday evening.  Tonight we are going to friends house and I will be having some wine.  I need to watch how much I consume.  I really want to be feeling ok to go and workout at Jills tomorrow.  I am hoping to get 4 workouts starting tomorrow out at her place.

I went for a 6K run when I got up this afternoon and it was my best time yet for the 6K.  I even had a few walk breaks in there when I felt I needed them which really helped me be able to run a bit faster in between the breaks.  I think I will try for 7K next saturday (so I will have to watch what I eat/drink at the concert).

My WI yesterday was amazing….I did have some stomach issues when I first got home from work so I am not sure if a lot of it was water weight but I am still going to go with that result.  I was down 4.6 lbs for a grand total of 42 lbs.  That is so crazy.  I tried some clothes on and even just in the last 2 weeks those clothes are much looser.  I actually asked the person in charge of the scrubs at work to put me down a size.  I am for some reason not quite ready to go to that size but I happen to have a pair at home with me so I will try them on and see what I think.   I have 17.2 lbs to go until I reach my goal weight.  Even if I went with the weight on the scale today I am still under 20 lbs to goal which is such an amazing feeling.  When I started this journey in January it seemed so far away and really I have done so well and am feeling so amazing.  I need to remember this and not fall off the wagon like i did last time.  I love exercising and feeling strong while doing it.  My big focus last time was on the running when I reached a good weight but I am determined this time to do strength training 3-4x/week and as many of Jills classes as my schedule allows.

On my days I will for sure have to do some major house cleaning.  Not much was done since getting back from Nashville.  Just too busy with work to do it.  I will work on a to do list today. (I really don't want to be hung over tomorrow!!!!)

I want to try and come up with some new meal ideas.  I made a tuna salad with tortilla strips and had some lettuce with it and it tasted amazing.  Tuna is one of those things that I like but if I eat it too often I get turned off.  I hadn't had it for ever and I think that is why it tasted so good.  That is what I am having again tomorrow for lunch.  Things like that are good for lunches in the summer.  I need to start writing my recipes in my book so I will have them at my fingertips and rotate through them.  Pinterest is such a great site for healthy recipes too.  I want to utilize everything possible to help my maintain this healthy lifestyle.

Well have a great weekend everyone :)