I think I am finally getting it....

The last couple of weeks I have done pretty good with the exercise and eating healthy.  I for sure have not been perfect but I am feeling so much better.  I have gone to bootcamp 3x already this week and have plans to go again on saturday.  I am hoping to get a run/walk or a walk in before going to work the next 2 days.  3 weeks today until our 5th year of going to a country festival and I want to be in better shape them I am at this moment.  I tried a couple of pair of jean shorts on just to see if they fit (which they did not a few weeks ago) and they do fit!!!!!  I want them to almost be a bit lose in 3 weeks and I know if I keep going at the rate I am they will be.  My goal for right now is to keep going like this for the next 17+ weeks and I should be happy with my weight/body for Jamaica.  I am hoping that I have finally learned my lesson and will keep myself at a healthy weight and not have those everyday struggles of feeling like crap and wondering what I will wear.  I want to be a good example for my son too and help him stop thinking about food all the time.

Speaking of the little boy he is currently in NB with my family.  This is a huge trip for him and I miss him like crazy.  We won't see him again until late on the 27th.  and then after spending 4+ days with him he will be coming back with his other set of grandparents and been with them while we are at boots and hearts.  I will take advantage of my days off and do things with him.  Not really sure if I will send him to a day camp.  I may only do that if he asks.  We do have a camping trip for a few days at the end of August which should be fun.  We did a lot of stuff together too when my sister and family were up which I know he really enjoyed.

I am slowly getting the house in order too.  I will do some more cleaning after I get my meals prepared for the days at work and then work on cleaning the kitchen/dinning room.  Keep it ready for those surprise droop in visitors.

Well I should get going...I have some yummy granola cooking in the oven right now.  Love that stuff...

Summer....

Wow time is flying by as usual.  We are almost into July and I am still playing on repeat...I need to get back on track...I need to stop that cycle and just move forward and get my act in gear.  Meal plan/prep and get the daily exercise in.  I am really tired of feeling like crap and wishing that I could be healthy.  It will not happen over night and I need to tell myself that each day that I am on track it is one day closer to reach my healthy/happy weight.

These will be my goals for July:

1.  despite all the plans I will make the healthiest choices when eating out
2.  daily exercise (really work on getting back into running)
3.  meal plan/prep
4.  keep house tidy/clean

I really want to make sure that I do not have to panic with what I am going to wear when we go on our trip in November.  It is so frustrating having those feelings and I am done with it.  Really what I have been putting in my mouth may taste good for that brief second but in the long run it makes me feel like crap.

My sister and her family are heading up in a few days to visit for almost a week.  I need to get working on organizing the house for when they arrive.  I will be working 2 more shifts and then I am away for 2 days so I really do not have much time at all to get ready.  I usually want a nap before working my first night but that won't be happening today...

well here's hoping for a productive day (which needs to include a walk!!)

Deposit is made...

Well we all have made our deposit for our trip to Jamaica.  I am not wishing time away as it is going so fast all on its own and I do wish it would slow down but 21 weeks (yesterday) till we leave.  What I have learned from my last mistakes is do not put off eating healthy.  For the past 2 weeks I have done about 60% healthy.  When I was sick with my cold I kind of went off the clean eating but I am right back on that train.  I have also started trying to run again.  The last 3 days I have done a 2 min run/1 min walk for 3K.  I want to slowly build up my running again and I think running 3 days in a row is a good start.  Now I just need to keep it up!!!!  I love running and am so mad at myself that I let myself get away from it but I am going to do my best to build up that endurance again.  With the combination of the exercise and clean eating I should be able to be at a healthier weight by the time we go on our trip.

I have to do a lot of cleaning on my days off as my sister, BIL and kids will be arriving July 2nd.  I want my house to look decent for their arrival (can only imagine what it will look like when they leave ;) )  I am hoping that we have amazing weather while they are here and that we get to do a lot of activities outside.

Well I should get going and tidy the kitchen so it will be decent for fathers day dinner.  Have a great sunday

on track week

Wow I can't believe that I am able to right this but I had a very good week, with just a couple of treats (trail mix 2 nights).  That is such a huge thing for me.  One time was after my 2nd day shift and then again last night (post drinks).  I am starting a new 4 week challenge at work so I need to try and do my best.  I have a couple of events during this month (jays game, Luke Bryan concert and then the big town party on June 30th).  I will bring healthy snacks to the ball game,  make the smartest choices when eating out for the concert and then the party will most likely just be drinks.  I am feeling a lot better since having a good week of eating healthy and exercising (I think that I went for a walk 5/7 days which is awesome for me).  I want to really work on daily exercise.

I have my meals all ready for work tomorrow and then tuesday I will do my best to meal prep for the rest of the week.

We bought a new dinning room table/chairs tonight and I am really excited about that.  I have had our current one since 1999 so a change will be nice.  The really great part is that we put it on the credit card and paid it right off.  We hopefully will be getting it this week.  My goal is to keep the clutter off this table.  I wish we had a desk in our living room but we don't so I need to find another spot for all my junk.  I think because my son and I spend so much time in the kitchen we think about food all the time.  We will have to work on that.

Well that is all for this week.  Hope to have an even better week this week with exercise and healthy eating.

wow it is June!!!!

I know I have been saying this a lot lately but the fact that it is already June is crazy and scary.  Time keeps going faster and faster each month.  I hope summer slows down a bit.

The last couple of days I have done pretty good with eating.  Last night I had something I probably shouldn't have but I threw out the extra so I wouldn't be tempted today.  Today I am committing to my health and wellness.  I am so over wishing to be healthy and will work hard to maintain it (oh and of course we are having a bistro at work...if I avoid it completely then I should be ok...except I can have some fruit).  I started my morning out good by going for a nice long walk.  I need to start going to bed earlier (no later then 10 pm) and cutting the caffeine out after supper so I won't have any issues falling asleep.  I am hoping the earlier to bed will make it easier for me to get up and workout in the mornings before work and when I am off tues and thursdays to get a walk/run in.  Before I start getting back into running I need to get some weight off so my knees won't get too sore from all his extra weight (even 10 lbs I think will make a difference).

I need to do weekly menu's and meal prep.  Like I always say it really helps and I haven't been sticking with this.  I need to follow my menu and not deviate from it  (unless eating out and even then I need to be smart about my choices).  I know my trigger foods and I need to avoid them.  This will be like rehab for me and I need to stop making excuses and get clean.

here is a list of my trigger foods that I need to stay away from:

candy
milk chocolate
chips
popcorn
trail mix
crackers
cookies
cake/cupcakes

basically I need to stay away from any processed foods.

I will do weekly weigh ins and hopefully I will see the scale moving in the right direction (actually over 2 days it has for sure been going down which is always nice to see).

2 more nights and then off for 5 days.  I so need to get work done around this house.  It is so messy!!!!!  Have a great day.

Pool is open

We finally have our pool open.  Not quite ready to swim in yet but we are getting there.  I wish I was bikini ready now but it is a work in progress.  Still having some struggles but am getting a bit better.  I think what will help a lot is if I focus on doing housework.  My house is such a disaster and I need to become better at keeping it clean and organized.   Like I have said before I want to be prepared if people just stop by for a visit.  I would love to go on a big purge but I really feel like we would need a garbage bin to achieve that.  I think I need to come up with a plan which would be to clean from top to bottom the day before going to work and then again when I finish my set (instead of sleeping all day get up at noon and clean the whole house again).  I am sure that if I did this I wouldn't feel so overwhelmed when it come to cleaning the house.

I have done 3 workouts at Jills so far this week and will hopefully be able to do 2 more (depending on how I feel after the concert tomorrow night).  I LOVE strength training and I really want to get back into running.  I am making monday my start date for that goal.  I will take it slow knowing that I will build up my mileage.

Well I should get going and do some more work around the house.  I think I will work on decluttering the kitchen right now.  I hate how much stuff I have on the counters and need to really work on that.

Have a great weekend.

I'm done....

This is just going to be a post of me being done making excuses and what I am going to do about it...

I am done having a dirty house...daily and weekly cleans will be happening.  I want my house to be in a state that if someone stops by for a surprise visit that I don't have to stress about it being a mess.  I also want the boys to feel like they live in a clean house

I am done thinking about losing weight and will do something about it.  this will involve eating clean and daily exercise (minus today as today's focus will be on organization of things I want to change)

I am done staying up late and not having the energy to get up and do the early morning workouts like I enjoy doing.  I want to get out early before too many people are on the streets and get my running restarted.  I am done making excuses not to go to Jills too.  I always feel amazing after so why  not do this as often as I want.

I am done wasting money.  daily trips to the grocery store and eating out are such a waste of money.

I am done living out of laundry baskets.   When I do laundry I want to make sure putting it away is part of the routine.

I am done not taking my puppy for a walk.  Between us all we need to get out daily if not 2x/day to walk her.  poor little girl being cooped up in the house.

Make grocery lists and meal plans to limit trips to the grocery store and to have healthier food options for my family

I want to have a happier and healthier family and I know if I take the lead it will be easier for my family to follow suit.  We will do this and time is going way to fast and I am done watching opportunities for us going by.