Well I made it through my first day at work since making the commitment to clean up my diet and eliminate the trigger foods that make me binge. I was met with some challenges though. We had cake, cupcakes and cookies for a girls last day of work to go on Mat leave and someone had brought in some of those mini eggs. I love those so much but I did not cave. I stuck with what I had brought to work.
I didn't get up and do my run this morning. I need to really try and do it tomorrow morning. I had such a hard time falling asleep last night even though I was so tired. Hopefully I have an easier time falling asleep tonight.
I have my lunch bag all packed with a couple of extras in there like I did today. I switched up my celery and hummus for grapes and almonds and I found having a banana after my supper worked well. I was hungry after my husband and I went on a short walk so I had an apple and PB.
Well I should try and settle and fall asleep.
Wednesday, September 30, 2015
Tuesday, September 29, 2015
Day 2
I am writing this entry as I am in bed and feel pretty good. I only had a couple of moments where i felt out of control mentally but overall it really was a good day. I feel somewhat in control and I need to keep telling myself that I am the one in control and I won't let my emotions ruin my quest to have a clean lifestyle (well almost clean…I will still enjoy my beverages…they are not the problem….certain foods are).
I ended up getting a 4K walk in after supper with the puppy. Until she gets better at walking I will try to do the longer walks with my husband. This was the longest walk I have done with her and overall she did not bad. We really need to figure out how to use the gentle leader.
Tomorrow will be interesting to see how everything goes. At work our breaks are usually all over the place but I need to focus on eating just what I have brought to work and nothing else. I will get a coffee or tea if a craving hits.
Well I need to try to get to sleep soon. I am hoping to get up extra early tomorrow and do my 3K route.
night
I ended up getting a 4K walk in after supper with the puppy. Until she gets better at walking I will try to do the longer walks with my husband. This was the longest walk I have done with her and overall she did not bad. We really need to figure out how to use the gentle leader.
Tomorrow will be interesting to see how everything goes. At work our breaks are usually all over the place but I need to focus on eating just what I have brought to work and nothing else. I will get a coffee or tea if a craving hits.
Well I need to try to get to sleep soon. I am hoping to get up extra early tomorrow and do my 3K route.
night
Day 1 complete
I know it seems silly to day day 1 complete but for me it is a huge accomplishment. Not only did I eat completely clean I avoided diet coke too which is a huge huge thing for me (and no headache yet…I am still having coffee so that is probably why no headache). I had the shakes, I feel miserable at points (which is usually when I would have just caved and binged on a few of my trigger foods). When I feel like I am losing my mind I just need to reflect on things and realize that there are a lot worse things that could be going on in my life and figure something out to do to take my mind of it. Like go for a walk or clean something (at one of my lows yesterday I cleaned the bathroom which made me feel good).
I have planned a menu for the week and hopefully I can stick with it. Work used to be so easy for me but lately I have just been going crazy at work. I need to make sure I have enough food with me so I have something to grab when I feel like I want a snack. Not having a pop too will be a big change so I may need to bring extra water. 3L instead of 2.5L should be enough.
I am going to give myself big monthly rewards too. I have to avoid the trigger foods though if I am going to get the reward. As a food addict I really do need to avoid these foods and not even give in. It will be interesting to see how I make out over thanksgiving while at my parents and being on the road for hours. I need to make sure I have lots of healthy snack options and gum!!!! My first reward which I will get if I complete October being completely clean will be a pair of hunter boots. I saw a pair yesterday when I was at the mall and I think I want a pair. They aren't the high ones but the lower ones which will be good for my massive calves I think!!!! With a pair of the socks that you can get with them they will be good for winter boots too.
I didn't do any exercise yesterday which could be part of the reason I was having a hard time with my mood so today since my husband was going to be working in town I was able to go for a run which was great. I really!!! need to make sure I get up the next 2 days really early so i can get a workout done before going to work. If I feel like it when I get home maybe we can take our puppy for a walk (like 5K) We need to really walk her more then we do!! I need to try and get some workouts done at Jills too since I will be gone for a few days. I may do friday, sunday and monday and run the rest of the days. I should try to do some type of strength exercises while down east if possible.
I found out that for my birthday I will be going to New Orleans!!!! Huge thing and it was on my bucket list. We are just going for a few days but I really don't want to struggle figuring out what I am going to wear because I am overweight. 9 weeks plus a couple of days before we go. hopefully clean eating will be my lifestyle at that points.
I have a few things I would like to get done today since I start back to work tomorrow. Clean the kitchen and my room (new bedroom furniture will be here this week I think). oh and I need to do some laundry too.
I have planned a menu for the week and hopefully I can stick with it. Work used to be so easy for me but lately I have just been going crazy at work. I need to make sure I have enough food with me so I have something to grab when I feel like I want a snack. Not having a pop too will be a big change so I may need to bring extra water. 3L instead of 2.5L should be enough.
I am going to give myself big monthly rewards too. I have to avoid the trigger foods though if I am going to get the reward. As a food addict I really do need to avoid these foods and not even give in. It will be interesting to see how I make out over thanksgiving while at my parents and being on the road for hours. I need to make sure I have lots of healthy snack options and gum!!!! My first reward which I will get if I complete October being completely clean will be a pair of hunter boots. I saw a pair yesterday when I was at the mall and I think I want a pair. They aren't the high ones but the lower ones which will be good for my massive calves I think!!!! With a pair of the socks that you can get with them they will be good for winter boots too.
I didn't do any exercise yesterday which could be part of the reason I was having a hard time with my mood so today since my husband was going to be working in town I was able to go for a run which was great. I really!!! need to make sure I get up the next 2 days really early so i can get a workout done before going to work. If I feel like it when I get home maybe we can take our puppy for a walk (like 5K) We need to really walk her more then we do!! I need to try and get some workouts done at Jills too since I will be gone for a few days. I may do friday, sunday and monday and run the rest of the days. I should try to do some type of strength exercises while down east if possible.
I found out that for my birthday I will be going to New Orleans!!!! Huge thing and it was on my bucket list. We are just going for a few days but I really don't want to struggle figuring out what I am going to wear because I am overweight. 9 weeks plus a couple of days before we go. hopefully clean eating will be my lifestyle at that points.
I have a few things I would like to get done today since I start back to work tomorrow. Clean the kitchen and my room (new bedroom furniture will be here this week I think). oh and I need to do some laundry too.
Monday, September 28, 2015
Food Addiction
So I just read a very interesting article on line and I recognized myself in the descriptions in the article. I have known for a while that I have an addiction to food but today I am going to beat this addiction. I have made a list of all the trigger foods and how they make me feel when I consume them. it isn't something I need to avoid temporarily, I need to avoid them forever. I can't give in and have even one bite. As soon as I do that it releases something in my brain and makes me crave it even more and then the binging happens and I want to stop this. I am miserable in so many ways when I give in to my addiction.
I know what to do it is just a matter of putting on my big girl pants and just doing it. I want to beat this addiction and reap the rewards of doing that. It is going to be hard when I go down east but it isn't something I can put on hold any longer. The weight keeps piling on and I keep feeling worse and worse (mentally and physically). Each day that I am successful with this the stronger I will get to avoid my trigger foods. It is such a huge step but I am jumping in with both feet and no looking back. I will take it each day at a time.
Instead of buying a journal I will document how I do on my blog. I will write my entry at the end of each day which will include what I ate, what I did and how I feel. I also need to avoid spending so much time on my computer :( that is a huge problem too.
Well I must go and get ready for my day…going to go to the mall and get a few things and maybe I will look for something to indicate how many days I have been "clean".
Here is to a rewarding journey :)
I know what to do it is just a matter of putting on my big girl pants and just doing it. I want to beat this addiction and reap the rewards of doing that. It is going to be hard when I go down east but it isn't something I can put on hold any longer. The weight keeps piling on and I keep feeling worse and worse (mentally and physically). Each day that I am successful with this the stronger I will get to avoid my trigger foods. It is such a huge step but I am jumping in with both feet and no looking back. I will take it each day at a time.
Instead of buying a journal I will document how I do on my blog. I will write my entry at the end of each day which will include what I ate, what I did and how I feel. I also need to avoid spending so much time on my computer :( that is a huge problem too.
Well I must go and get ready for my day…going to go to the mall and get a few things and maybe I will look for something to indicate how many days I have been "clean".
Here is to a rewarding journey :)
Saturday, September 26, 2015
Get Back on the Wagon
Wow, the first few months of the year were so good. I was eating healthy and getting a lot of physical activity and I was feeling great. Then I fell flat on my face and have not been able to get back up. Mind you I have tried but have not been able too. I know that it really hurts my family when I am not making healthy choices and after how I have felt the last couple of days I need to put a stop to the unhealthy choices. I need to get it through my head that it will take time and I just need to take it one day at a time. The rewards of having a healthy lifestyle are so numerous that I need to do this….for me and for my family.
I am now wishing I had gone to bootcamp today but 2/3 days won't be a bad thing. I will make sure sunday and monday I am there and work my butt off. I will be able to go on saturday too (just the way my schedule goes). I need to start running again too. When I am not doing bootcamp I need to work on getting my running back too. It will be tough at first but if I just stick it out I know it will become routine again. STOP MAKING EXCUSES!!!!!
Today I am going to be working on purging our room and getting it ready for the new furniture to come. I will be getting rid of some clothes and then packing away the clothes that I am not wearing right now. I will be throwing some stuff out too that I haven't been wearing in a long time. I know it will feel good when our room is finally done. It has been a long time coming.
Tomorrow will be meal prep day and I should really try and get all my meals done for the week. I want to feel productive on my days off. Time is just flying by and I need to stop wasting the precious time I have and use it to make myself a better person so I stop wishing for stuff and actually feel accomplished :)
Here is to a good and productive days off!!!!
I am now wishing I had gone to bootcamp today but 2/3 days won't be a bad thing. I will make sure sunday and monday I am there and work my butt off. I will be able to go on saturday too (just the way my schedule goes). I need to start running again too. When I am not doing bootcamp I need to work on getting my running back too. It will be tough at first but if I just stick it out I know it will become routine again. STOP MAKING EXCUSES!!!!!
Today I am going to be working on purging our room and getting it ready for the new furniture to come. I will be getting rid of some clothes and then packing away the clothes that I am not wearing right now. I will be throwing some stuff out too that I haven't been wearing in a long time. I know it will feel good when our room is finally done. It has been a long time coming.
Tomorrow will be meal prep day and I should really try and get all my meals done for the week. I want to feel productive on my days off. Time is just flying by and I need to stop wasting the precious time I have and use it to make myself a better person so I stop wishing for stuff and actually feel accomplished :)
Here is to a good and productive days off!!!!
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