Starting the healthy eating now

Well for the last half year I have totally fallen off the wagon both with healthy eating and with exercise and I am really feeling it.  I was feeling so good the first half of the early.  I had lost 40 lbs and felt amazing (and those 40 lbs are back on which is so awful and unhealthy).  Thankfully Jill will be doing a program in the new year....won't start till the kids are back in school so I am making the decision to hop back on the wagon and get a jump start to this program.  I refuse to start it at the weight I started it at last year.

I need to take it seriously.  all this yoyo dieting is so bad and I am getting older so I need to make the remainder of my life a healthy one so that I am happy!!!  I have lots of stuff coming up in the new year and I don't want to be doing the whole "if only i was smaller, if only I had lost some weight, what will I wear etc"  I am so over doing that stuff.

Since I keep saying that food is my addiction then I need to take it seriously.  I need to avoid the foods I feel trigger my unhealthy behaviour.  I will stop making excuses to not go and workout at Jills.  I bought 24 classes and I want to use them wisely.

Meal prep is key for me to have great success with healthy eating so I need to make sure I do that.  Weekly menu's and meal prep will become a healthy habit of mine.  Keeping a clean house to won't be a bad idea either.  I have 5 days off in a row and I need to stop wasting them.  The other area of my  life that I want to work on is saving money and paying down debts.

I have been marking myself off on my days off at work so that is why I need to be more careful with my money and budget more wisely.  I still enjoy doing things without all the OT so why bother doing it!!

I need to make a list of my trigger foods and do my best to avoid them:

Chips
Chocolate (unless dark)
trail mix
cake/cupcakes
candy

those are a few of my triggers I am sure there are more but these are the big ones.

Here is to a healthy and happy 2016!!!!

I need to be healthy

I have had such a hard time this last half of 2015.  I totally went of the healthy eating wagon and I can really feel it in my mindset, my joints, my mood, really everything.  I find I am short of breath and really the hips and one knee are so sore whenever I get up.  I am so over feeling this way and I am the only one that can change this.  I need to eat healthy and exercise daily.  Even if it is just going for a walk i need to do it.  I am going to start walking with my son when he gets home from school (whenever I am off work) so that he can get in better shape too.  I don't want him going through life feeling the way that I do cause it really sucks and he has so many other challenges in life that things that we have some control over we need to control it.

I am planning on trying to get to Jill's a few times during the month of december.  Starting in January I will hit up the gym on days I don't go to Jills and days that I am off.  I will try to do some cardio at least 4x/week but I really want to focus more on strength training.  I love the feeling of my muscles growing so between the 2 and clean eating I should get the weight off.

I need to make this a lifestyle change that will stick this time.  When I lost all that weight back in 2010 I felt amazing.  I need to not listen to what people were saying about me being too thin.  I need to do what makes me feel the best that I can be but also something that I can maintain.  What they don't understand is that I do have a food addiction so i need to eliminate certain foods from my diet.

those foods include:
chocolate
chips
cookeis
any type of sweet (unless clean)
cake/cupcakes
trail mix

Those are all the big trigger foods for me so I need to avoid them.  It triggers something in my brain when I have them and I can't stop eating.

Wish me luck and I will try to give weekly updates.

I can't believe it is just 16 more days til Christmas.  I still have shopping to do which is a bit stressful.  For my family down east I just have one niece left to buy for a to get my nephew a gift card to go with his other gift.

Well I am going to go shower now while the puppy is outside.

16 days

I have 16 days to do my best with clean eating and exercise before heading to New Orleans.  I want to feel good for my trip and I know that a healthy lifestyle will help me feel good.  I should be able to get 5 strength training classes in and the rest will be running/walking.  I am going to follow the couch to 5K program as I feel it would be my best bet to building up my endurance for running again (and I need to not let it slip again).  I am getting older and I so do not want to spend the rest of my life struggling  with begin unhealthy.  I really need to set a better example for my little man too.  I hear him and see him do so many things that I do and I don't want that for him!!!!

I have the tools and knowledge to lead a healthy lifestyle and I just need the will power.  I need to do this for myself!

The cleanse that I was doing (but didn't last the 4 weeks) did teach me a lot of things and I now know of yummy snacks to have which are healthy and actually filling (one of my fave's from the cleanse that I can see myself using more often is the 1/2 avocado with hemp hearts and pinch of sea salt on a rice cake….so good).

Meal planning and prep will be key in me having success with this and tracking what I eat.  I am hoping to be in a certain weight range come the new year so here we go!!

November

Well I fell of the cleanse wagon.  I had been doing so well and then boom, right on my face.  I have decided for the rest of the year I will just focus on clean eating and then maybe try the cleanse again in January.  I am determined to be in a certain weight range by the new year and can only do that with clean eating and exercise.  I need to get this under control.  I need to also get my house in order too.  I have 3 days off before heading back to work (finally feeling better…2 sick days).

Today I will focus on the Kitchen, make a grocery list, getting groceries and doing laundry.  I need to get better at this.  I can tell it is causing some strain on my poor husband and I need to use my time more wisely.  He has a big even coming up on saturday and will be stressed about it so I need to make sure to have food ready for him and the boys so he doesn't have to worry about that at all.

I am loving our new bedroom furniture so I need to make sure at some point this week I get out and find a paint colour that will look nice with the furniture.

Well I must get going and meal plan for the week.

Reflections on Week 1 of the cleanse

I was a little bit nervous heading into this cleanse because I thought I may not be able to eat the foods on the cleanse due to my fussiness but I was pleasantly surprised.  The food is amazing on the cleanse and I figured out that I can adapt things too as portion sizes are huge and with only me doing this it leads to tons of leftovers. I still have quite a few things leftover heading into week 2 so as I said before I will really have to sit down and think about my menu for week 2.  This has always been such a key for me to stay on the healthy eating bandwagon…menu planning and meal prep.  I really think that this cleanse will help me get my butt back in gear so get on the wagon again and just keep going and not look back.

On the exercise front I have done ok.  The runs/walks I did ok with but really want more strength training workouts.  I should be able to get 3 in next week (mon, fri and sunday).  The rest of the days I will use to run (saturday I have a 5K race which will be so hard but I am happy I am doing it),

The scale was un believable today when I got up.  I know a lot of it is due to the fact I have done a lot of night shifts this week and water weight but I was down 11.2 lbs…so crazy but I am so happy with those results.  This is the jump start I really needed to make me motivated to eat healthy.

Mentally I just feel clearer and have more patience then I do when I am not eating healthy which is another reason to keep this up.

Well I need to take advantage of the fact I didn't have to work my full night last night and get some work done around the house (mainly in our bedroom…we need to paint it before we bring in our new furniture).

Work and More Work

Not quite looking forward to this but I have to work friday and saturday night.  These are switches.  I will be so happy at 1930 on Nov 2 at 0730 when my crazy work schedule is over!!!!!  I know that switches that I have done really help me out but man it is so hard working that much in a row.  I have so much that I should get done around the house that I really need to take advantage of days off that I have.  Today does not really count as a day off as I had a horrible sleep and need to have a nap.

Things are still going well on the cleanse front.  still enjoying the foods and won't really have to make anything things weekend to eat as I have so much leftover from dishes I made earlier in the week.  I really need to look at stuff on sunday to see what I will eat next week so I can make a grocery list. I need to remember to take my weekly menu to work so I can make some photocopies of it (no ink at home).

I went to Jills today.  Had a great workout.  I just wish I could always go 3-4x/week.  I love the format of our workouts.  it is hard to go that often with my schedule.  I would love to go on sunday but it would be on my way home after nights but I should focus on a run instead as I have a 5K race on the 31st.  It will be a walk/run race for sure but it may give me the motivation I need to run more then I have been.

Well time to try and nap.  Have a great weekend.

mid week cleanse update

I can't get over how much I am enjoying this cleanse.  I am really liking the foods and I now know for next week to just pick and choose a few of the dishes and make those and have them through out the week since they make such big servings (will save some money doing it this way).   I feel like I am sleeping a lot better then normal.  There really isn't the time spent thinking about stuff which is awesome.  I go to sleep relatively quickly.

Exercise is going ok.  I have ran for 3 days now and tomorrow I get to go to bootcamp which is awesome.  It will be fun to see how everyone else is making out.  I probably will do my measurements when I go to class on monday.

I am not really missing the coffee and pop that much which is surprising.  Other then the 1 slip with 1/2 a bottle the other day I haven't touched any more pop.  I thought for sure I would have headaches for days but so far so good.  Just one day and I don't know if I can really blame it on the lack of caffeine.

I will probably take a look tonight at what is suggested for the menu for next week and make out my weeks worth of foods and make a grocery list.  I love having all these ideas for the meals on this cleanse.  It really makes it so much easier to get back on track.

The scale has been going down really fast but I am thinking it could be because of the time I weighed myself on the first day.  Oh well when I weigh myself on sunday I will use that total for week's 1 results.  I had eaten so bad over thanksgiving that I am not surprised that the weigh came off like it has. I know that it will slow down now.

off to make supper for the little man.