work out

Even though the workout today was hard for me it sure felt good to be back it after 2 weeks off.  Unless I am away I don't want to go that long without working out again.  the workout focused on my favourite area to work...my shoulders.  not quite sure why this area is one of my favourites but it just is.  I should be able to workout at Jills friday and saturday too.  Tomorrow morning I am really hoping to be able to get out for a run.  I am just going to start with my 3K route and hopefully it will just take a few weeks before I am feeling pretty good with my running again (as long as I get out 4-5x/week).  I still plan on getting as much strength training in too as my work schedule allows.  Love the classes I go too and I should try and get to the gym too if I can't make it to a class.  I want to get this body in great shape.

Last night I was just not feeling like eating something from the cleanse so I didn't but back on track again.  I need to program myself to not spiral out of control if I do have something not the best, but due to what I believe is an addiction it is so hard which is why I really need to work on avoiding the foods totally.

I need to take advantage of the next few days and get this house a bit cleaner.  Especially the kitchen. We never know when someone may stop by for a visit and I am tired of having a messy/dirty kitchen.  I will do my best to clean the mess up after I have my lunch.

Well that is all for day.

revising the "cleanse"

Since saturday I have been eating some of the foods from the cleanse which I am finding is bothering my stomach a little bit.  I am going to revamp things a bit and use a lot of the same concepts but come up with my own meal ideas when necessary.  I need to take a break from the power balls...those things are so addictive for me.  I need to wait and make another batch on friday.  I need to watch how many nuts I am having too.  When I eat too many it too makes my stomach upset.  I am not losing hope though.  I really want to get this weight off.  I am finding it so much harder but I know once I get a few weeks under my belt it will be a bit easier.  I just need to avoid trigger foods.  Treat this food addiction that I have a serious as it really is.

I am finally feeling better from the stupid cold I had so I am looking forward to getting a good workout in tomorrow!!!!  I need to start running too.  I may try that in the morning or wait till thursday morning.  All depends on how I sleep tonight (last nights sleep sucked!!).

not much else planned for today.  Will head out for a few groceries in a bit.  Maybe talk my husband in to going for a walk this evening with the puppy.

Spring Cleanse

So for 4 weeks I am going to try really hard to stick to the clean eating cleanse.  The first week looks like lots of yummy food so I think I will be able to do this.  I really need a jump start on things and I am hoping that this will be the help that I need.  The one thing that sucks though is that I have a chest cold so the work outs won't be happening for a bit.  I have actually taken my days off and probably will take my nights off too (not just because of the cold but I am wearing a heart rate monitor device too that I really think will distract me at work).  The group I am doing this with isn't officially starting until the 18th but I am pretty sure most of us are trying some of the recipes in advance and doing a lot of prep (this cleanse does require a lot of meal prep which is something that I thrive on...when I do it).  I will be making more foods today and again tomorrow and hopefully they will last me for a while.  When week 2 comes up I will have to check and see what foods I still have left (hopefully some of the things freeze ok).

My official WI day will be monday so I will have 3 days to try and get rid of the weight I probably put on in Nashville.  I had a great time down there but as always I was wishing I had the extra weight off.  I really need to be done saying those words.  I need to just do it and be healthy like I want to be so bad.  I am the only one getting in the way.  I have a few things coming up this summer and don't want to stress about what I am going to wear.  The big thing that I have is a trip in November with a big group of people to somewhere warm.  I want to be able to wear whatever I want and look great in what I am wearing.

In the exercise department I will really work on the toning and strength building by going to as many of Jill's classes that I can but next year I will be doing the around the bay 10K relay and I want to be well trained for that.  I feel like I will be starting right back at the beginning where running is concerned so I need to get on that ASAP.  spring/summer is the best time to start.  Time is flying by so I need to stop making excuses and just do it.

I will try and post daily updates on how the cleanse is going.

4 weeks till Nashville

I need to keep telling myself that and really focus on the clean eating and daily exercise.  I need to make sure I do some form of physical activity (well not today as I am just getting my thoughts etc together to take on these 4 weeks).

These past few months I have felt miserable, taking it out on other people etc and I need to be over that.  I am a better person then that.  I need to stop letting food take control of me and take control of my own life!!!!  I love eating healthy and exercising so I need to stop making excuses.  I want to stop wasting so much money buying food that makes me feel like crap.

I have long term goals in my head but I won't reach that goal if I don't take things one day at a time.  I waste so much time thinking about changing and none actually taking the steps to change.

wish me luck.

Happy Valentines Day

I am spending the day by myself (hockey tournament and I have to work the next 2 nights).  I went to a bootcamp class which I was not sure that I was going to go but I am so happy to go.  I had an amazing workout and I was telling the instructor how amazing I felt working out and I am sure it has to do with the fact that my nutrition was clean this week (well since wednesday....gave up junk for lent).  It was motivating to feel so amazing working out which I haven't felt that good in a long time.  I always feel great after a workout but this time it was different.  I hope that I am finding my grove.  One thing I learned from work yesterday is that I need to make sure that I have plenty of healthy snacks in my cooler.  I found that I was hungry and just did not have enough food so I had some things that I normally would not have had.  So for my next set at work I will make sure to pack extras just incase.

I am going to do my best to get out to the gym this week.  I want to really focus on building my running endurance up.  I would love to be able to do some 5-6K runs on my days off outside when the weather is nicer.  I have a lot of work to do but I know that I can do this.  I need to follow a program and start ASAP.  I will try to do strength training 5 days/week too.  I love it so much and I love how when I do ST it makes me feel so much stronger!!

I need to make sure I start menu planning and meal prepping too.  I know this is a huge part of my success with weight loss so I need to start doing it again.  I want to get this extra weight off and I know that I can do it.  I am in my 40's now and I am so over always feeling like I want to lose weight.  My goal this year is to get it off and then my goal will to maintain by living a healthy lifestyle.

Hope everyone has a great day.

Need to Buckle down!!

You know all those good intentions I had at the beginning of January...not really feeling it and need to get my shit together.  I am starting to feel bad physically and mentally so I need to start taking much better care of myself.  I am doing  pretty good about going to Jills but I don't really do anything in between.  I want to start running again so I need to follow a program and stick with it.  The eating has been going so bad.  I need to do much better menu planning/meal prep.  I know it works but just need to be consistent and do it.

Tomorrow is Feb 1st so a perfect day to start.  Today I will use it to menu plan and make a grocery list.  I also need to do some house work.  I feel like because of my trip to Florida and then working I haven't done anything for almost 2 weeks.  I have the rest of today and tomorrow to get things somewhat organized.

Ideally I would like to lose 60 lbs but 50 lbs is what I will set my goal for right now (how could I not feel better with that much weight off my body!!).   I have so many things coming up in the next few months and I don't want to be stressing about not having anything to wear.  It sucks feeling stressed about something I can actually control.  I need to finally put an end to this addiction I have with food.  I am almost tempted to discuss it with my family Dr.  Maybe when I go for my physical (so past due) I will mention it to him.  I will look on line too and see what they have for options.  I know that people do have food addictions but the help does not seem to be as out there as with other addictions.

well I need to get started with cleaning the kitchen.

Clean the House

I  have a love/hate relationship with this.  I love it when my house is nice and clean  (does not happen very often) but hate what it takes to get it that way.  I need to start focusing on daily chores, weekly chores and monthly chores so I don't feel overwhelmed.  My goal is to always keep my house clean/tidy so that I don't stress if we have people come over for a visit.  It is much harder now that we have a dog but to be honest I wasn't that clean before we got Charlie either.   Our house is really not that big but we have tons of stuff.  We need to at some point take some time and really work on decluttering the house.

In the spring I would love to paint all 3 bedrooms and have them organized.  We want to put wood flooring so I will have K price how much it would be to do all 3 plus the hallway.  He did some work at a house and they have awesome wood floors and he brought a piece home for me and I absolutely love it.  I know it will be expensive but I want something I love!!

I have worked out at Jills the last 3 days and man I am really feeling it in places I usually don't.  I love these workouts and need to take advantage of the days I can go.  My new thing too is taking Charlie for walks.  I love getting out and doing a full hour walk.  It is so much easier to walk her now that we figured out the gentle leader.  she may not like it but she walks so much better for me when I use it.

Well I have to work the next 5 days so I need to do a little meal prep.