A reward I want to have...

 

So last night after supper my husband and I were having a discussion. For whatever reason that I have been seriously lacking motivation was the topic of discussion and my wonderful husband came up with an idea that might help. Even though it may seem silly to some it is not to me as I have a serious love for country music and would love to go see this person again.

 

I love Tim McGraw.  He puts on an amazing show, he is a great singer and of course he is not to hard on the eyes either :)

So in order for me to go see him (provided we get tickets when they go on sale) I need to eat healthy and exercise a minimum of 3x/week.  I am usually pretty honest with my husband so he trusts me to be honest about this.  I am sure that if we get the tickets and I am not making healthy choices he would have no problem selling the tickets.  He even agreed to go with me.

I started out this challenge on a positive not by going for a 3K run.  Something I need to remember is that I am not at that place I was in 2010 when I was in great shape and at a healthy weight so it will take time for me to see changes both in my body and my endurance.  I just need to keep at it and then I will notice the change.  Once thing that I will notice change right away is my mood which is always a good thing.

To stay on track what I will need to do is plan weekly menus and prepare my food in advance.  This always makes things so much easier.  Last night I had leftovers from a meal I had earlier in the week.  It was so easy to heat up and get the fajitas prepared to eat. 

I am so pumped to do this and before I know it July 25th will be here and my wonderful husband and I will be on our way to see Tim :)

getting it together

I need to promise myself that I will use my days off wisely.  I have 3 full days that I should use to get things accomplished around the house and with exercise.  I am tried of living in what I see as shambles.  Life is to short for me to keep thinking about what I want and I need to actually do something about it.  Time is going by way to fast and it scares me.  I actually do have an amazing life and I need to stop feeling sorry for myself.  I need to be done with having my weight consume my life and start doing something about it!!!!!

I was feeling so irritable earlier today but then I went out for a 3K run and I felt so much better.  Exercise truly does make me feel better and being lazy and eating crap makes me feel horrible and makes the people around me suffer.  I really do need to be a better influence for my son and I know it will take time but i want him to start eating healthier.  I just hope we haven't already instilled such bad eating habits in his life that he will keep eating that way.  He is still young and I can control what he eats. 

Today will be spent making a grocery list and menu and lists etc and the next 3 days will be spent doing. 

Here is to a productive 3.5 days left of my days off.

Up on the wagon...

heading on my hopefully last journey to beat this addiction.  Being addicted to crap food is an issue that I will always have so I need to learn to beat this thing and be able to lead a healthy, happy life because right now that is not what is happening.

I need to avoid my trigger foods and learn to say no to those foods that tend to lead me to binge.  There are actually some foods out there that I can not stop at a serving size. I tend to eat the entire bag, plate etc without even really thinking about it.  If I try to stop at just a  portion size that is all I can think about.  This is such a major issue and I do need to overcome it.

I went for a 5K run before noon today and it actually went much better then I had anticipated which is always a good thing.

Wish me luck on this journey.

Food Addict

I have known this for a while but with how I felt yesterday and this morning I need to do something about this addiciton.  I have not been taking it seriously and I am afraid that if I don't something will happen to me.  It can not be a good thing to do all this binge eating.  I am sure that it will take toll on my body if I don't fix the problem now.  I just ordered to books from amazon that I will read and hopefully they will help me overcome my addiction.  I need to realize that I need to avoid my trigger foods and I am pretty sure I know what they are.  I know that in this book I am getting it suggests avoiding diet pop and coffee, 2 things that I do enjoy having.  I guess if I am going to take this seriously I will have to avoid these foods.  I am sure that I will feel horrible the first week or 2 as my body goes through withdrawl but 2 weeks of feeling like crap is better then a lifetime of feeling like crap.  It is just crazy how this has really taken over my life and has been for a very long time.  For as long as I can remember I have had weigh issues and the the constant feeling of knowing what I have to do, starting to do it but then putting the trigger foods in my body which lead to a constant battle within my mind.  I need to be done with this battle, and I am going to win this battle.  I am just tired of this constant daily struggle and need to work to ending it.

I will use my blog as a diary to document my journey to overcoming the addiction that I have.

almost didn't happen

I was telling my husband this morning that I was going to use today as a rest day.  Well guess what, that didn't happen.  I really should have gone for a run and did one of my strength training exercises but I actually ended up doing my strength training workout which is better then  no exercise at all.

Tomorrow I am going to do a long run of 9K.  I haven't run that distance in a long time.  I know that I will have walk breaks but my goal is to try to run 3K, walk break, 3 more KM's and then run the rest.  If I start early enough in the morning I should be able to do that.  I am pretty sure that I know what route I will do which helps.

Supper is going to be some steak and salad.  I am looking forward to trying the steak.  I actually bought most of my meet this week from a local farm.  I sure hope it will taste good.  I found an awesome recipe in my oxygen magazine this month for falalfel (sp).  I am going to make them tomorrow.  I will be having them with some brown rice and green onion and a little bit of greek yogurt tataziki sauce.  I will let you all know how it tastes.

Friday :)

I am actually excited that I am off this weekend.  I actually don't go back to work until monday  night.  I had a pretty good night last night and a good sleep today.  When I got up I went for a 4K run which was actually a little tough.  I had more walk breaks then I would have liked too.  Running after working nights is a bit hard so I made the decision to do my long run on sunday instead.  I will do 3K tomorrow and then 9K on sunday. 

I went to WW today and I was actually down almost 2 lbs from my last WI which was nice.  I am actually feeling pretty awesome since I started eating healthy on the 1st.  I really want to keep this up.  I was down 3.4 lbs since new years day which is pretty exciting.  I will post my offical 1 week WI on tuesday. 

Well I don't really have much else to say.  Have a great weekend.

on a roll...

Here I am on day 3 of eating well and exercising.  So far I have had a 7K run, workout at the gym and today I went for a 4K run and hope at some point (maybe before I eat my lunch) to do another strength training workout here at home.  I need to get it done before heading to work.  I want to do it today so tomorrow if I just run I will feel ok. 

Eating went ok.  I just need to stop eating in the evenings.  I have quite a big snack and then end up going to bed.  I need to remember I don't need to fuel my body for sleep. It is a habit that I have developed and I really need to break it.  The only time I really need to eat in the evenings is when I am working nights.

We had a crazy busy day at work and I am back for more fun tonight.  I am hoping to get some rest today but I don't know if the little man will allow that to happen.

Happy New Year!!!

Well I didn't ring in the new year...I could not stay up past midnight.  I was so tired and just could not do it.  I am very hopeful for an amazing 2013 and I am partially in control of making that happen.

I started off on the right foot by heading out for a 7K run that I had planned on doing but really did not want too.  Of course once I was done I was so very happy that I did it.  Tomorrow I need to make sure that I get up early enough to head to the gym or workout here at home.  It all depends on if I need a machine or not.  I have my John Savidas membership too which really was a waste of money though.  Once I complete the 12 weeks that J is doing for me I will start going again but I for sure will not renew that membership.  I can't wait until the new goodlife opens up.  The gym is clearly the way that I want to go.  I will be heading back to WW on friday when I get up after my night shift.  That works for me and stick with what works.

For breakfast I had a bowl of oatmeal and for my lunch I will have salad with 1/2 can of tuna on it and an orange for something sweet after eating the salad.  I really want to get this weight off and promise to work hard at it.  I am going back to work tomorrow for a day shift so I will make sure to have my meals done for the day before supper time tonight. 

Well that is all for today.  Happy New Year everyone. 

edit- I did not have the salad with tuna, I was not really feeling a salad.  Having a salad in the winter is not really what I call a fun lunch so I had some of my turkey chili with a few of the sweet potato cubes left over from last night.  Very happy with my choice.

I am now starting to get that feeling that I want to have more to eat but really I am not hungry.  I will just keep looking at the computer and then in a bit I will prepare the hamburgers for tonight and then I will make my supper for the next 2 nights.  Sausages with lots of veggies - brocolli, peppers, onion and mushrooms.