9K and WI

When I got up this morning I so did not want to go for my run. I had a few things to eat late in the evening and felt like it was still sitting in my belly when I woke up. I headed out just hoping that I could get the 9K in that I had planned. It actually seems like forever since I have done alonger run then 5K so I wasn't sure how it would work out. Well I am happy to report it went really well. I was thinking it would take me 1 hr or a bit more to do it but I did it in under 1 hr :) I feel like I am getting back on track with my training and will hope for a good training week :)

So I have only been go to WW to WI once a month and today was that day. I know that it doesn't actually tell the true tale of my weight loss struggles in the past month but I am down almost 1 lb since last month. The truth of the scale is that I am actually down 8.4 lbs in a week. With all the junk that I eat the scale goes up and down and as you know I had a bit of a break down and made myself promise to treat my food addiction like a drug/alochol addiction and clearly avoiding all those trigger foods has helped with the weight loss :) I am going to try and go weekly to WI though until I get back to my happy weight.

I have some banana choc chip bread cooking right now and I will have a piece for my dessert. Things like that aren't really trigger foods for me.

Well I need to go and enjoy this beautiful saturday!!

1st week on the wagon

at midnight tonight I will have completed my first week back on the wagon and I have had an awesome week. I will report more on this tomorrow morning along with the WI results.





I just completed 5 shifts at work and man it sure does take a lot out of me. I took an unplanned rest day today. I was going to go to the gym but never made it. Starting next week I am going to make sure that I do get 3 days of strength training in. Either at the gym or doing an at home bootcamp is how I will do this. i am actually going to research some at home bootcamp videos to see what is out there.





I will stay on the wagon for the remainder of today and have a great report to give in the morning :)

Day 4...

I am happy to report that I am working on Day 4 of being on the healthy wagon and so far so good :) The first 3 days went great and I am feeling pretty good. I did 2 5K runs the last 2 days before heading in to work. I actually ran the entire 5K. I had some difficulty doing it mentally but I pushed myself to do it. I just have to remind myself to go a bit slower since I am a bit heavier then I was when I was training for my half marathons last year. My goal is to be at my happy weight when I run my 3rd half marathon. I refuse to enter the new year not being at a happy weight!!!

I need to keep reminding myself how crap food really is my addiction and the best way to overcome those addictions is to avoid them, figure out what makes me eat this type of food etc. I want to be back to the happy place I was last summer. I have 3 weeks until we will be down east and I want to so badly be in the low 150's. I know I can if I keep doing what I have been doing the last 3 days.

Well I should do some cleaning. My next few weeks before we go away will be busy since my schedule is kind of all over the place so that I could have those extra 2 days addes to my 2 week vacation. My full time partner at work just started her 16 days off today. I know it will feel so awesome. I want my house to be in tip top shape though before we leave so that when we come home I won't have any house work to do at all.

Enjoy the rest of your monday.

stress +eating crap = feeling worse

The last couple of days have been a bit stressful. I won't get into the details but needless to say they led to eating crap. I should have known better since when I eat crap it is really just a temp fix and in the long run makes me feel worse. Just like an addiction to alcohol and drugs. I need to take my addiction to crap food more serious and I need to hop on the wagon. It is not only crap food but binging on anything reallly. I need to have following my pts spot on be one step to help me overcome this addiction. I am starting my journey to becoming clean today and I really need to do this for so many reasons.

an important appointment

This morning I did not get up to go for a run. We have a very important appt for our little boy today and I just was not feeling the run this morning. My little boy has been having seizure type activity for almost 3 months now. We are worried about this. He had a head injury 4 years ago to this date and there are just so many things going on in my mind right now that I would not have enjoyed the run even though it probably would have been good for me. I will try to get some form of activity today.

I signed a contract with my husband this morning to get back to my healthy weight. I will spare you the details though ;)

Well that will be all. Going to read some more blogs while I wait for my little man to wake up.

Crappy run but still feeling good

I knew I should have gone for my run when I got home from work last night. I went to bed though and when I got up it was so HOT out there. I love the heat but not when I need to run. I am getting up early tomorrow and going to do my best to get a 5K done. I have set out a training plan on paper to get me through until the half marathon in october. I need to do my best to stick to it.

The scale is going down which is great. I think that a lot of the weight that I had put on over a couple of days was water weight. I am almost back to the 150's again and I know that if I have a great week that I will be even lower then I was when I did the post about being happy where the scale was. I still need to get 25-30 lbs off. I made a deal with my husband to try and keep me accountable and this time I will take it seriously.

I did so well with my eating last night at work which always makes me happy. Now what I really need to work on is to not eat after I get home from working days. I really don't need to since I usually go to bed within and hour or 2 of getting home. My first 2 days of this set I have eaten in the evenings on my way home and when i got home and I felt like crap going to bed and when i got up. Why do that to myself. Another thing I need to work on is when I am at home during the day when my little boy is have his IBI at the house. I need to do something productive instead of eating. There is a lot of work that needs to be done around the house and I will work on that instead of stuffing my face.

I am off from mon-fri this week. I do enjoy this set that I have off. While everyone else is working I am off. I mananged to get rid of 2 night shifts which means that I am going to have 16 days off in August. How sweet is that. I can't wait to go home for a visit.

Have a great monday everyone.

Finding my way back...

to my healthy weight. I find that I am having such a hard time getting myself 100% in the game. why can't I get it through my head that each day that I spend worrying about getting back to that weight but still putting crap in my body is just wasting time. I need to stop focusing so much on it and really take it one day at a time and remember that each day that I eat clean/staying in my point range is one day closer to my goal, but each day that i don't do it is making it even longer to reach my goal.

Today I should have got up early like I had planned so that it would be cool when i went running. i went around 10:15 and it was already 30 degrees and who knows what it was with humidity. i ran 4K with a 3 min walk break in that time. I really would have like to have done more but I don't think it would have been safe. I really should run when i get home in the mornign after working tonight while it will be cooler. I need to do 4K again. I really need to push myself to do that.

I have things planned out for my meals and I need to stick to it. My mood has been crap and I know it is due to the food I have been putting in. I really want to enjoy my vacation so for the next 4 weeks I need to make sure I am 100% on plan. I am going to make some kind of deal witht the husband to get me accountable.

Time to take the kids outside by the pool. Enjoy this beautiful sunday.

victory on the scale :)

I finally am back in the 150's :) I am going to work hard all month and hopefully when I get on the scale Aug 1st I will see the 140's again. I am feeling really good. I know I have been up and down for quite a while now but I am really feeling the motivation again to eat as healthy as possible.

I was hoping to do a 7K run today but because it was so hot and I was so tired from working 5 shifts this week I ran 5 and walked the rest of the way home. I am still going to keep going with week 4 of my training but I know for my long run I won't do it post nights and it will be an early morning run. It is quite hot and humid here in southern ontario (I am not complaining though after all the rain we had during the spring)

I am getting hungry so right now there is chicken being bbq'ed and sweet potato rounds cooking which will be added to my salad. Can't wait to eat.

Tomorrow night is U2. Hopefully I will have some pictures to show on here.

have a great night.

one more night

Thank goodness this will be my last night. I hope it isn't too crazy busy. I am going to see if i can be in charge again. I like having the experience and it is kind of rewarding knowing that I stood up for the nurses even though it didn't work out like it should have. Becoming able to be more out going is a good thing for me.

I ran 4K when I got up this afternoon. What a hot run that was. I have my long run tomorrow but at least I know 1. I don't have to work and 2. I can get right into the pool after my run :)

Must shower and then get PT and myself lattes for our 3rd night :)

pool side bootcamp

After the agony I was in after I did my last at home bootcamp I found one that i didnt' think would be too bad. don't get me wrong it was tough but i don't think my legs will be as sore as last time. I really want to try and do this mini bootcamps at home 3x/week. thankfully I have saved all the e-mails that I got from jill and have lots of options for my workouts.

Had a great night at work last night. We had a few people but wasn't crazy busy which is always nice. I am working 2 more nights. We have to do 3-4 pickups in a year and i was so stupid and picked one for this month. who is their right mind would do one in the summer on a weekend???

Not much else to report. had a great night food wise and hope to have another one tonight.

6 K

That is what I ran today. I actually was debating with myself whether I would run or not and am so happy that I decided that I would. I always feel so great after I exercise. Tomorrow will be an at home bootcamp. I need to make sure that I pick one that does not involve as many lunges as the last one as I felt sore for about a week after ;) I want to get back in tip top shape!!!

I finally cleaned out the fridge today. What a disgusting mess. It looks so awesome now. I am going to tackle things for the next month and a bit so that when we leave for our summer vacation the house is in good order. I want to declutter too. We have so many things in this house that we really don't need. Not quite sure if we will end up having a yard sale or if we will just give stuff away. I guess we could always try to sell things and if that does not work we can give it to people. I am think that it may be time to get rid of all our thomas things. Not quite sure how my little man will feel about that. I guess if we tell him he can buy a new toy with the money he gets from selling his toys may make it better for him.

I really wish I wasn't working the next 3 nights. i am really in the cleaning mood. Hopefully it will continue for the next 6 weeks :)

Have a great evening and night.

July Challenge - revamped

Well a few things have changed which makes it so I need to change my goals for this month. the first thing was that we were away for 3 days and I didn't really have great control over what I could eat and I did indulge in a few things. So starting today:

clean eating following WW points
stick to my half marathon training
do at home bootcamp 2-3x/week (the actually bootcamp has been cancelled)
no hot yoga-decided it was to far to drive.

Back to the grind tomorrow.