Picking myself up

I had something upsetting happen to me the other day and I turned to food to find comfort which actually made me feel worse. I went through a couple of bad situations before and both times I turned to food and it really did not help. I want to use this to get my life back to where it was. I don't want life events to make me gain weight. I will not curl up in a ball and that life slip by.

I am going to eat clean and follow the points like I know I can do.

I am going to exercise everyday.

I will feel better mentally and physically.

Doing ok but not 100% yet

with my eating that is. I probably ate a bit too much last night after work...not sure why I do that but it needs to stop. I was supposed to run 10K this morning but because of all the extra food I ate last night I feel gross and not really up to doing it. I may go around 1 or 2 and not have anything else to eat. I will see how that goes. I really want to get a longish run in this weekend.

I need to get it together as tomorrow is 4 weeks til vegas. I know I can reach a certain weight by then if I give it 100%.

We had a interesting day at work yesterday and that is all I have to say about that.

Going to watch my baby have his hockey practice. Nothing like watching tyke hockey :)

Back to Bootcamp

So my foot started out being sore but about 10 min into the class it actually felt better. so I kept going putting in a hour long bootcamp class. I felt AMAZING after I was done. These classes always make me feel like I work my butt off and feel great both physically and mentally while doing the class and especially after :) I need to promise myself to do these classes 3x/week and then run 4x/week. If I am unable to attend a bootcamp class with J then I will take my butt to the gym where all the equipment that I need will be there. I know that having these 2 form of exercise in my life will help me get back to my feel great weight.

So I can offically say that I had a great 1st day of being "sober". I did dip into the almonds in the evening and had about 12 but considering what I usually have and the fact that this food was "clean" it counts as a perfect day. but as of today no more going over alotted points!! The next 2 days I am at work so I need to make sure that I don't eat when I get home. When I get home I will get things ready for the next day and then head to bed. I am always tired after work so I think that this is an ok plan. Saturday night I may save some pts and have a snack when I get home from work as I don't have to get up as early in the morning but I do need to get up early enough to try and get 10K in.

I am making my fave chili from the eat clean diet book at some point today. It was so yummy. I am pretty sure that I made to many so I will freeze the leftovers so that I will have them for next time :)

Well off to finish reading blogs and then get to work on my chili.

On the wagon

So far today I have done ok. Had quite a few battles with myself. The went like this
"well I could have some junk food today and start tomorrow"
"why is food all I think about"
"mad about my foot"
very unhealthy though process going through my head today. Much like a true addict would say. yeah I know I have said it before but I truly am a processed/junk food/unhealthy food etc addict. I really need to keep myself from eating it. I know that the binge eating could really hurt me physically if I dont' stop it. so here I go "My name is Rebekah and I am a "crap food" addict"
I really need to take this to heart and focus on staying sober.

I want to be able to say tomorrow that I am 1 day sober!!!

epic fail

honeslty. What is wrong with me. Why am I sabatoging myself??? overall yesterday was ok with eating until later in the evening when the munchies hit. I didn't go all crazy but I had a muffin, some almonds and some crackers. totally did not need that much fuel to go to sleep. Picking myself up, dusing myself off and getting back on the healthy eating wagon. Hope to not have another faceplant today.

Meal plan for the day

For breakfast I had steel cut oats with 1/2 banana and 1 tbsp of pb

Lunch was maui black been soup with 2 ryvita crackers and 1/2 banana

snack was an apple and almonds

supper is going to be chicken, sweet potato and quinoa with veggies and goat cheese

I am going to try and make this all I am going to eat. If I feel like I need something while watching TV I will fill up my water bottle and sip on water. I will go to bed when I feel tired. That is what PVR'S are for...to tape shows when to tired a night to watch them :)

I will let you know if this worked out for me today.

Taking Charge of my life

I have been so focused the last 10 months of getting back to my feel good weight (weight I was at in Aug and Sept of last year) that I need to stop thinking about where I was and focus on how I am going to get back there. I stress out on how much weight I have to lose and then this makes me stressed which in turn makes me binge eat or eat things I know aren't healthy choices which pulls me further away from that weight which in turn leads to a cylce that is not a healthy one at all. I am getting on the wagon today and hope to stay on it. Healthy choices can always be made no matter what situation I am in and I need to remember that.

Tomorrow I am going to try bootcamp. Not sure how it will go with the foot. I will just tell J that I may need to do some modifications when doing jumping type exercises. On thursday I will try to do 5K. I am spending today icing my foot and will do the same the next 2 days. I need my exercise but I need my foot to get better more so I won't go crazy and won't push myself if in too much pain.

I have planned my meals for today and I am closing the kitchen after supper. Something I am going to do is cut pop out in the evenings. Havin pop leads me to want to snack in the evenings and the caffeine in it leads to a not so restful sleep. I may try starting tomorrow to not have pop at home, just while at work. One day I may even get rid of the pop at work too but I don't want to cut it out completly.

Well I must go do some laundry and then ice my foot again.