4 weeks

So when I got home after another very busy shift at work (both of my days we much busier then I thought they would be for christmas) I noticed that I had an e-mail from Jill.  Basically what it was is and invitation for the first 5 people to join a 4 week intense challenge.  This is exactly what I need.  4 weeks of being very accountable for what I eat and what I do for exercise.  It starts in January and I am really looking forward to starting.  I hope that this will help me have a jump start on getting myself back in shape.  I am going to do my best at making this a lifestyle change and not just a temp fix.  I must say that I do make healthy meals for myself but it is all the other stuff that I put in my body that I don't even need as I am not even hungry when I eat them.  Why put stuff that doesn't even taste that great into my body that actually stays on the body as fat and makes me feel miserable??

I am hoping to head out for a walk at some point today before going to work.  I would love it to be a run but to be honest after 2 days of eating crap I am not feeling up for a run.  Maybe tomorrow I will providing that I eat healthy today.

I am working at making a week long meal plan which is somewhat difficult.  I will plug away at it today.  I have enough food here to get me through the next 2 days at work (as long as no one eats it).  Menu planning and meal prep helped me before so I will do it again.  I so want to have this extra 50 lbs off by the summer and I know I can do it!!!!

10 weeks until we go see Garth and 14.5 weeks til we go to nashville.  These are little milestones that I will have some goals set for.  I know I won't be at my goal weight but I will have quite a bit off if I eat as clean as possible and fit regular workouts in my schedule.  I need to be patient and realize that it will take time to get the pounds back off.  It will be harder too as I am older!!!

well I must get back to meal planning.

Christmas Eve

I can't believe that tomorrow is christmas (well tonight is for us as I go back for 4 shifts starting tomorrow).  We will be having a green cmas  this year and I can't get over how mild it is today.  For whatever reason it does not feel like cmas to me.  I will do my best and try and make it a great christmas for the boys.  We will be heading out soon (the husband and I) to get a couple of more things and then we should be done.  he has to go out later this afternoon for a quick job and then should be home so we can enjoy the evening.  We will be having our traditional bbq steak for supper tonight and then we will open the presents after.  The kids will still get a "santa" present in the morning and their socks will be filled.  I will try and wake Matt up before I have to go to work tomorrow morning and see his reaction for his santa present.

i have had a workout with Jill 2x this week and it feels great (well my muscles hurt but in a good way). My resolution is to see her 2x/week and then 1x at home or the gym.  I want to run 4-5x/week too.  I sent around the bay an email and dropped down to the 5K race which I should easily be able to train for this winter.  I have been so unhappy lately and I know that part of the reason is because I am not leading a healthy lifestyle.  I really hate to say this but when I was eating clean and at a healthy weight I felt so  happy.  I want to get back to that point.

Well that is all for tonight.  Hope everyone has a merry christmas :)

day 3

Well I am going on my 3rd day of tracking and I feel pretty good and confident.  I thought I was going to get away with not eating out but an invitation just came up for lunch on friday so I will have to just make sure that I am perfect before and after and make the smartest choice possible on that day.

I have run 2/3 days now and it feels good (but very hard) to be doing it again.  I am going to go slow and try not to focus to much on how I used to be able to do it.  I didn't start off running like I did when I was at my peak and I know that it will take time to build up to that again (and it is hard to run with all this extra weight on….which I am working hard to get rid of).  I had a workout at Jill's today too which was great.  I was actually quite impressed with how I did at the group PT session.  I don't really know why I was so worried about doing it.

I just need to make sure I have enough food packed for my 3 nights at work.  I need to pace my snacks throughout the night.  I switched what I had planned on having for lunch and supper so my supper at work will be a little more fun ;)

I am hoping to get runs in tues/wed/thurs and then to Jill's on friday.  I think weather may be an issue but I guess really only if I make it an issue.  I can run in rain and snow.

well I should do the dishes from yesterday.  Still working on the goal of keeping my house organized.  Hard to do on my set of working.

counting points

18 more days til cams and 25 til the new year.  I will be counting points until the new year.  I am not starting the new year at this weight.  What I will do to help with the weight loss are:
1.  start running again (did a 4K walk/run this morning….hard but a good hard)
2.  see Jill 2x/week and maybe a home workout or gym workout
3.  menu plan and meal prep
4.  keep my house organized

Today I will prep my menu and buy groceries and cook a few dishes so they will be easy to take to work etc.  I have so many things going on next year that I do NOT want to struggle with what to wear and I want to feel my best when I go to them.

Here is to an on track rest of December!!

7 days of clean eating

I am going to do my best to eat as clean as possible forever but will take it 1 week (actually 1 day) at a time.  I am going to use recipes and  ideas from my simply for life program but also from the knowledge that I have gained over the last few years.

Today I had a PT session with Jill and my goodness I am so out of shape it is crazy.  I was hoping to be able to do the around the bay 30K but based on how I felt today I really can't see that happen.  I will do my best to improve my endurance again for running and hope I have it back by the spring.  So in the mean time I will be strength training, and running at the gym when the weather sucks and then running outside (when I run at the gym I will do some interval training which means I need to look up some interval programs to follow).

So this week I have a pretty good idea of what I will take to work to eat and that is all i can eat.  I need to stop the snacking just for something to do.  That is a huge reason why I gained a lot of this weight back.   we have 5 weeks til cams and then 6 weeks til the new year.  I would love to have 20 lbs off by Dec 31st so we will see if I can do it.

My first big challenge will be mon-wed of next week when I am in the states with the girls for shopping.  i am going to make sure I have tons of water on me and then make sure that I have healthy snacks too.  When we go out to eat I will make sure that I make the healthiest choices that I can.

My eats for today:

Breakfast:  3 egg white omelette with 1/4 c black beans, red onion 1 TBSP of salsa
                  orange

Lunch:  Chunky chicken veggie soup
             1/2 WW ezekiel tortilla

Snack:  kashi bar

Supper:  Chili Chicken
               1/2 sweet potato

Snack:  apple
             1 TBSP natural PB

I used to eat like this all the time and it made me feel so amazing.  I so want to get that healthy lifestyle back!!!!  I am turning 40 in 9 days so I need to keep my eating healthy for 99% of the time because if I don't then the weight will keep piling on and it will be so much harder to get it off!!!!

Here is to a healthy journey.

Simply for Life

So I signed up for 2 months of simply for life.  It was at a good price and I really need to do something to jump start my weight loss.  I know that I can do this I just need to keep my motivation up.  After going on our trip I must say that it helped with my motivation.  I want to be able to wear whatever I want and  not struggle with having to find the right sizes.  That is what I loved when I had lost the weight before.  I had no problem finding clothes which is such a struggle when  you are over weight.  I want to feel better physically and mentally.  Tonight when Kevin gets back from hockey I will do my best to get out for a 3Km run.  I really need to start running regularly again.  I ran 2x when we were away and it felt great (a different experience running on the track on the boat).

I have my menu planned for the week and am using today to prep most of the food.  I am making 2/3 of the meals today (may even do the 3rd one too).

well speaking of planning meals I should start working on the 2nd one.

Have a great week.  I will probably weigh myself in the morning (even though it is super early) so that I can do an official WI for progress next monday.

90 day challenge

I am not starting this challenge now but going to do my best when we get back from the cruise.  I am going to do my best to eat as healthy as possible while we are away.  i think that there are salad bars on the boat so that will be a big help.  I do know what to do it is just a matter of doing it.  We have 11 days until we leave and I am going to follow the simply for life program as best I can for those 11 days.  I need to get serious and find some discipline within myself to regroup and be as healthy as possible.  Why am I putting crap into my body when I know that it makes me feel so horrible.

I just got done making a running plan to help me be as ready as possible for around the bay in March.  I have 23 weeks to train.  The training will include healthy eating, weight training and of course running.  if I could just get a few weeks in of running 4-5 x/week I will feel so much better about the running.

getting this house organized and clean is something else I want to achieve before we leave on our trip.  Coming home to a nice clean house will be so nice.

Well I am going to do some more computer stuff and then have some lunch.

Happy Monday!!!

Day 3

Wow I am on day 3 of eating ok.  I am actually quite proud of how I have done.  I made an awesome soup yesterday (well the little sips I took to see what it tasted like…my first actually serving will be for lunch).  I really do love making soups/chilli.  It takes a lot of prep work but the end result is usually so worth it.

Yesterday when I went for my walk I did a little bit of running which felt great.  I am going to just walk today (going for my 6K in about 45 min…breakfast needs to digest first).  I work days the next 3 days and i am going to try to get up and go for a 3K run each of those days.  I signed up for a race at the end of march of next year and I really want to train for it as my endurance has dwindled huge, but my love for running has not.

I can't believe that in 4 weeks we will be leaving on our cruise.  I am so needing a break from things around here.  I think a family vacation will be great and something that we all need.  My goal is to have this house in pretty good order before we leave.  I have 6 days off after this set at work and I really need to buckle down and take full advantage of those days off and get things done around the house (organizing, cleaning the fridge etc.).

Today I need to get laundry done and make sure I have my meals ready for my 3 days (as not being prepared last week threw me off my plan for a couple of days).  I need to take my eating seriously so that my training for this race will go better.  Good fuel in my body helps me in so many ways.

Well as many people are thankful it is friday as they have the weekend off, it means that I am going to work tomorrow.  Oh well, the life of a shift worker :)

half on half off

I need to stop this.  I need to get myself completely back on the wagon and sit right in the middle and not fall off again.  what better time to do this but Oct 1st.  I had a few really good days and a few really bad days and of course I felt awful when I had my bad days.  What set me off on my bad days was when I worked a day instead of a night and did not have any of my meals planned.  it makes such a huge difference in how I do if I don't have meals planned.

I really miss running so I am going to get back into it.  My plan is to start tomorrow.  I will be doing my 6K walk route and build myself from walking it to running it.  I will use my garmin to keep track of how much I actually run.

Here is to a great october.

Climbing back on the wagon

I am wasting so much time talking about doing it but I keep sabotaging myself.  I felt awful last night and when I got up this morning and almost had a complete breakdown so enough is enough.  I am going to take my butt to WW tomorrow and get back to the basics.  I know how to count points, I know how to eat clean, I know how to exercise and my plan is to put it all together and rock the weight loss.  I have about 50 lbs to get off and I know it will take time.  I will take it one week at a time (actually one day at a time).  I will set both small and big goals for myself and my first goal will be to have 10 lbs off by the time we go on our cruise (I may have more then that because of the water weight).  I have 5 weeks till the cruise.  My next big goal will be to have an additional 10 lbs off by my 40th birthday!!!!

I know I need to plan my meals and stick to what I have planned.  That is what worked last time that I lost a large amount of weight.  I know that I have done some planning but I don't think those meals I have planned work for me so I will choose things that I really like and what I used to eat.

I will start up running again (walk/run at first until I get some of this weight off) and going to the gym/Jills/or in my basement 3x/week for strength training.  I can do this.

I will start organizing and keeping my house clean.  My poor family is living in a pig pen and when my house feels like that, I feel like that.

So on that note I will sign off and start doing some laundry and wash my kitchen floors.

Wish me luck on this journey.  I will probably just do a couple of entries/week. Which will include my menu plan, my exercise for the week and my results with the weigh in's.

still finding my groove

So I am half way through day 3.  A challenge that I faced yesterday was feeling munchie in the evening.  I know that I still made healthy choices but I probably ate way too much for just going to bed.  I need to keep that in check.

So today involved going to the gym for workout #2 and some intervals on the treadmill.  I would say I probably worked out for a good 80 min.  I feel so motivated right now and  I hope that I can keep it up. I need to schedule it in to my day and I have to get in done.

I am doing prep for my meals on Thursday and friday.  I have my favourites and for the 1st 3 weeks I will probably stick to them just until I feel like I have things a bit under control.

I am hoping I am able to get up early enough tomorrow morning and get a 4K run in before going to work.  I used to run all the time in the morning before work so I am going to do my best to get back into it.  I will make sure I have everything ready for work that I just have to take a shower when i get back.

I am going to rock out these 2 days at work and stay on track.  it is just 2 days I can do anything for 2 days (of course a lifetime but I know it will be rough the 1st 3 weeks)

day 2

So I am really feeling the workout that I did yesterday.  It hurts but in a good way.  I do like it when my muscles hurt enough to know that I worked out but can't stand it when I am struggling to sit on the toilet etc.  I am kind of close to the feeling but not quite.  I was able to run/walk 3K which I had really debated on doing and was going to just go for a walk.  I really need to focus on my running and build up my endurance again.  I am so sad that I let it go for so long but am making it a goal to get it back!!!!

Last night at work was a great example of why staying on track at work is hard.  I did not get my supper break until sometime after 11.  We were busy and when were busy you don't really have time to even grab something quick.  A few things that were at work were a couple of desserts and a couple of bags of popcorn.  I did not have any…yay me.  I find night shift especially hard for wanting to snack all the time.  thankfully i had prepared enough in my lunch bag to not have anything that I shouldn't have.

tomorrow I am hoping to do 4k run and then go to the gym for workout 2.  I have to do this.  I want to feel and look better for our cruise :)

10 week challenge

This summer has gone by so fast.  The weather has been ok.  We have had some hot days and some cool days.  I would say this has been the coolest summer (weather wise) that I have experienced since moving here.

Well I just signed up for 16 weeks of the on-line program (again) with J.  This time I have promised myself that I will take it seriously and do the workouts and eat as clean as possible.  I am done with having a hard time going shopping, with feeling fat and miserable.  I know that when I was exercising regularly and eating healthy I felt so happy and content.

So in 10 weeks we will be getting ready to go on a cruise with the kids.  I want to have 20 lbs off by then which would be 2 lbs/week which is realistic.  I know I can do it if I stick to the plan.  It would be so nice to not have to worry about not having any clothes to wear.  I am going to ST 3x/week and do my best to run 4-5x/week to build up my endurance.  I need to take it slow and know that walk breaks are ok as I have not run very much in the last 9 months.

I am going to make sure to meal prep and my snack at nights will be a healthy smoothie instead of my pop and a snack (which usually ends up to a few snacks).  I need to work on just 1 pop/day too.  I drink way to much diet pop and would love to give it up but it is just too hard for me to do that.  Maybe one day I will stop drinking it.

Well I am working tonight so I am going to have a nap.  I walked 6K and did my 1st day of strength training so I am sure a sleep will come easy (or at least I hope it does).

Gym

So today is going to be the first day of me going to the gym in a long time.  I used to love going to the gym but for some reason I am a little nervous about going.  I am doing this program developed by J and I am actually a week behind.  Last week I would say I did about 10% on the program (if that).  This week I am hoping to do 100%  I want to be spot on with the eating and get all my workouts in.  I am trying to determine which ones I can do at home and which ones I will need the gym for.  I guess even if I can't do many at home I could make some changes to gear it towards being done at home.

I have just over 2 weeks til a wedding and I want my dress to fit on better then when I bought it.  I started eating better on saturday which is exactly 2 weeks til the big day.  The next big event after that will be boots & hearts and then my trip down east.  I would love to have 15-20 lbs off by then.  I know I can if I am really good.  I know that drinking will be involved in the 2 events I have coming up but as long as the workouts and the eating are ok I should be ok.

Well I must get going to the gym before I back out.

intentions

I always intend to start a new blog but I always end up coming back to this one ;)

My bootcamp instructor is doing a nutrition/workout program again but this one has more accountability to her so of course I signed up for it.  I have been having such a hard time getting back on track and getting back into my exercise grove.  I had so much to eat yesterday that my stomach is still quite sore from what I put in it.  I was feeling pretty down but I went for a nice long, brisk walk (just over 6K) and it made me feel so much better.  I have been spot on with my eating today and hope I don't sabotage things this evening.  I have a snack planned out and I will do my best to tidy of the kitchen which will pass some time and maybe even enough til i can have my snack :)

My plan is to go to bed early and get up so I can do a 3K run tomorrow and sat before going to work.  I always feel so much better when exercise is in my life.

I can't wait to get started on the program that J is developing for me.  I will do it this time!!

Feeling Great

So it has been 2 weeks since i have started to eat health (mostly clean foods) and no diet coke.  I feel the best I have in a long time.  I still need to work on my exercise though but it is coming.  I did PT on monday and went for a 4.8k run today (a day after my oral surgery…the run took a lot out of me).

I just need to stay motivated to continue this past he 40 days.  I am sure by that time things will become more of a habit.  I will have a few events during these 40 days but I just need to make smart choices.  The majority of them will involve drinking so I need to go easy on the booze.  I just want a nice buzz, not have my head in the toilet.  I am so done with that foolishness!!!!

Trying to figure out what to do for my husbands 40th bday party is really stressing me out.  If the grill does not work out I will just have an open style here at the house.  I am still waiting to hear back from the legion here in caledonia though.  Hope they get back to me soon.

I can't wait for summer to get here.  The roads were a bit slippery when I went for my run this morning.  It will be nice not to have to worry about that.  I need to get out and get my training started for my half marathon on June 1st.  I do have a training plan for 10 weeks that I printed on line  I just need to follow it to a T no matter what.

I asked my beach body coach about my 21 day fix package.  she is keeping track of it and says it hasn't been sent yet.  I would love to have another 10 lbs off before they sent it.  I know what my healthy/happy weight is and I want to reach that again.  I felt so healthy and happy when I reached it before.  I just feel back into old habits and put a lot back on.  so not worth it and will do my best not to do it again.

have a great wednesday