Picking myself up

I had something upsetting happen to me the other day and I turned to food to find comfort which actually made me feel worse. I went through a couple of bad situations before and both times I turned to food and it really did not help. I want to use this to get my life back to where it was. I don't want life events to make me gain weight. I will not curl up in a ball and that life slip by.

I am going to eat clean and follow the points like I know I can do.

I am going to exercise everyday.

I will feel better mentally and physically.

Doing ok but not 100% yet

with my eating that is. I probably ate a bit too much last night after work...not sure why I do that but it needs to stop. I was supposed to run 10K this morning but because of all the extra food I ate last night I feel gross and not really up to doing it. I may go around 1 or 2 and not have anything else to eat. I will see how that goes. I really want to get a longish run in this weekend.

I need to get it together as tomorrow is 4 weeks til vegas. I know I can reach a certain weight by then if I give it 100%.

We had a interesting day at work yesterday and that is all I have to say about that.

Going to watch my baby have his hockey practice. Nothing like watching tyke hockey :)

Back to Bootcamp

So my foot started out being sore but about 10 min into the class it actually felt better. so I kept going putting in a hour long bootcamp class. I felt AMAZING after I was done. These classes always make me feel like I work my butt off and feel great both physically and mentally while doing the class and especially after :) I need to promise myself to do these classes 3x/week and then run 4x/week. If I am unable to attend a bootcamp class with J then I will take my butt to the gym where all the equipment that I need will be there. I know that having these 2 form of exercise in my life will help me get back to my feel great weight.

So I can offically say that I had a great 1st day of being "sober". I did dip into the almonds in the evening and had about 12 but considering what I usually have and the fact that this food was "clean" it counts as a perfect day. but as of today no more going over alotted points!! The next 2 days I am at work so I need to make sure that I don't eat when I get home. When I get home I will get things ready for the next day and then head to bed. I am always tired after work so I think that this is an ok plan. Saturday night I may save some pts and have a snack when I get home from work as I don't have to get up as early in the morning but I do need to get up early enough to try and get 10K in.

I am making my fave chili from the eat clean diet book at some point today. It was so yummy. I am pretty sure that I made to many so I will freeze the leftovers so that I will have them for next time :)

Well off to finish reading blogs and then get to work on my chili.

On the wagon

So far today I have done ok. Had quite a few battles with myself. The went like this
"well I could have some junk food today and start tomorrow"
"why is food all I think about"
"mad about my foot"
very unhealthy though process going through my head today. Much like a true addict would say. yeah I know I have said it before but I truly am a processed/junk food/unhealthy food etc addict. I really need to keep myself from eating it. I know that the binge eating could really hurt me physically if I dont' stop it. so here I go "My name is Rebekah and I am a "crap food" addict"
I really need to take this to heart and focus on staying sober.

I want to be able to say tomorrow that I am 1 day sober!!!

epic fail

honeslty. What is wrong with me. Why am I sabatoging myself??? overall yesterday was ok with eating until later in the evening when the munchies hit. I didn't go all crazy but I had a muffin, some almonds and some crackers. totally did not need that much fuel to go to sleep. Picking myself up, dusing myself off and getting back on the healthy eating wagon. Hope to not have another faceplant today.

Meal plan for the day

For breakfast I had steel cut oats with 1/2 banana and 1 tbsp of pb

Lunch was maui black been soup with 2 ryvita crackers and 1/2 banana

snack was an apple and almonds

supper is going to be chicken, sweet potato and quinoa with veggies and goat cheese

I am going to try and make this all I am going to eat. If I feel like I need something while watching TV I will fill up my water bottle and sip on water. I will go to bed when I feel tired. That is what PVR'S are for...to tape shows when to tired a night to watch them :)

I will let you know if this worked out for me today.

Taking Charge of my life

I have been so focused the last 10 months of getting back to my feel good weight (weight I was at in Aug and Sept of last year) that I need to stop thinking about where I was and focus on how I am going to get back there. I stress out on how much weight I have to lose and then this makes me stressed which in turn makes me binge eat or eat things I know aren't healthy choices which pulls me further away from that weight which in turn leads to a cylce that is not a healthy one at all. I am getting on the wagon today and hope to stay on it. Healthy choices can always be made no matter what situation I am in and I need to remember that.

Tomorrow I am going to try bootcamp. Not sure how it will go with the foot. I will just tell J that I may need to do some modifications when doing jumping type exercises. On thursday I will try to do 5K. I am spending today icing my foot and will do the same the next 2 days. I need my exercise but I need my foot to get better more so I won't go crazy and won't push myself if in too much pain.

I have planned my meals for today and I am closing the kitchen after supper. Something I am going to do is cut pop out in the evenings. Havin pop leads me to want to snack in the evenings and the caffeine in it leads to a not so restful sleep. I may try starting tomorrow to not have pop at home, just while at work. One day I may even get rid of the pop at work too but I don't want to cut it out completly.

Well I must go do some laundry and then ice my foot again.

just a few words

I NEED TO GET MY ACT TOGETHER!!! that is all

4 weeks tomorrow

My 2 races that I signed up for in November will be 4 weeks away tomorrow. Can I please be eating clean for the next 4 weeks ;) I will do my best to achieve this goal. If I can get the 4 weeks under my belt it will be more of a habit again.

I wasn't planning on running this morning but after i dropped my son off at school I headed out for a 5K run. What a great day for a run and I only had 2 walk breaks and they were no more then 1 minute :) I need to try tomorrow to run 5 or 6 and have no walk breaks. I just hope that it isn't raining when I get up after working nights.

Not sure what is going on tomorrow night. A girls night, a date night or just hanging out at home. Only time will tell. Working tonight, hope it isn't too crazy.

Thanksgiving does not last 3 days :)

but my food consumption would say different. I am back on track today and need to keep going strong. Vegas will be here before I know it. I am hoping for 10 lbs off by the time we leave.

I have another run in a month so I need to keep the clean eating going strong. I am pretty sure that was part of the reason for the not so great time with my run on saturday. I did a 5K recovery run this morning after dropping M off at school. I should have gotten up earlier to do it as it was already getting warm at 9. I am not going to complain about the warm weather though cause I know it will soon be gone.

I just realized that I probably should sign up for my next 2 races. I am nevrous about doing them but it gives me something to look froward to and train for. I will do that after I work my 3 shifts. I am kind of glad I only have 3 this set but that means I have a day shift in the middle of my days off. Oh well. at least I get to work with someone that it just getting back from their Mat leave :)

Have a great day everyone. I am going to try and get the laundry done today.

Clean Slate

when it comes to running. I am taking today off and then on monday I will do a recovery run just to see how I feel and how my legs/hips feel. I don't have any huge races for the rest of the year but I do plan on running 15K in november so that means that I have to keep my mileage fairly decent. I have been trying to figure out why my time was so slow yesterday. It could be because I started out so fast, the extra weight, not enough training in higher mileages...I can dwell on it though. I just to move on and run/train smarter. I will have a half and a 30K in march. I won't sign up for those until I run the 15K in november.

I am slowly cooking foods for our thanksgiving supper. I have the apple crips made, the dough in the bread maker to make rolls, pumpkin pie in the oven and cooking squash (not sure if it will turn out...I like my squash a bit dry and I don't know if this squash is dry). If the squash does not turn out I will peel and chop up the sweet potato's my FIL gave me and roast them.

I hope my hubby is home soon to put the turkey on.

well I need to do some work. Have a great sunday

3rd Half-Marathon...DONE

I am happy that I finished my 3rd half. The course was beautiful, the people that were running it were friendly and if walk breaks were taken you always had someone to talk to. There were lots of water stations and portapots along the route. We also go to do trail running too which was really nice. Now some things that I didn't enjoy were the hills (need to do more hill training), how hot it was (when I got to my car after the race it said that it was 25 degrees...I can also tell my the tan lines that I have that I did get a lot of sun...should have had sunscreen on I guess) and I found my tummy was quite sluggish from eating too much at breakfast (I should not eat peanut butter before running as I kept burping peanut butter taste) and my tummy was water logged from drinking water at every water station (i needed too though because of running in the heat). I was very disappointed in my time but really I have an extra 20 lbs on my body from last year, my eating has not been spot on like it was last year when I ran my races and I did not sleep well last night. I may have not gotten a great time but am just happy I crossed the finish line and was able to cross it with my little man. Would I do another half...OF COURSE I will :)

So speaking of eating...because of this experience I am going to start eating as clean as possible and limit my pop intake and try to get a good nights sleep. I need to stop drinking pop or coffee in the evenings!!!

Well I must go meet my husband. He was in the city and is picking me up a salad from wendy's. I am going to bring it back home, eat it and then have a nap. I am feeling a bit off and think food and sleep will make me feel better.

I have a lot to do to get ready for thanksgiving so I need to feel better.

A nice and easy 3K run

That is what I did today for my run when I got up...3K. Tomorrow is my 3rd half marathon. I am actually quite nervous about it for some reason. I just need to go out there and enjoy it. Positive mental attitude and talk will help me do this run. I am a little nervous about the heat too. I don't think I have ever done a long run let alone a race at 10am. Oh well it gives me time to have a small breakfast and some coffee. I am thinking I will get up at 7 and do this so the food has plenty of time to settle. I hate exercising with a full feeling belly.

I went for my WI today. I actually was thinking I was going to be up since I had a couple of days where I had quite a few of my flex points. I was pleasantly surprised with a .5 loss. Any amount of the scale going down makes me happy. I just want to get out of the 160's. I seem to just be stuck here. a few weeks of being OP should help me break this plateau.

I just had a Naan pizza and it was so yummy. It was about 11 pts but thankfully I am post nights and had the points for this. I had green and red pepper, onion, bbq sauce, goat cheese and chicken on it...YUMMY A very good choice for a post night shift supper. It is worth every point.

Happy Thanksgiving everyone and have a great weekend.

beautiful fall day for a run

I am skipping bootcamp this week so that I don't have any really sore muscles when I run my half marathon on saturday. I went for an 8K run this morning after I dropped my son off at school. I was so impressed with myself. I ran the entire 8K. I have been writting about how I have been taking walk breaks but I kept giving myself positive talk and was able to do it. I did have to stop at 2 stop lights and wait for the walk sign but I also stopped my garmin so I would actually run the 8K. I am not sure how many days off I am going to take but I have promised myself to keep my mileage up from now on. I really don't want along run to ever fall under 10K again!!!

Eating has been a bit of a struggle but it is better then it had been. I need to remind myself that the trip to vegas will be here before we know it and I want to enjoy myself and not be worried about feeling frumpy.

I have had the soup that I made on the weekend for supper my 2 days at work and it tasted so yummy. It is the maui black bean soup from one of the eat clean diet cookbooks. For my lunches I went to the cafeteria at work and had salads. They tasted so good too.

I need to be perfect these 2 days since I am supposed to go get weighed again on friday. I am going to make myself go even if I think it will be a gain!!

Well I am going to read some more blogs. Have a great wednesday.

Goals for October

I always try and make monthly goals but am really bad at keeping them or updating you on whether or not I was successful in these goals.

October goals

1. Perfect OP month

2. Deep clean the house on my days off

3. Run and go to bootcamp :)

4. Make meal plans and stick to it to cut down on grocery cost

5. Try to be more positive at the workplace and at home

Have a great month.

18K done...rest day today

Yesterday I pulled myself out of bed and kept telling myself that I will feel so much better to get the run done. I sure did. it was hard but I did it. On the 8th I will be running my 3rd half marathon :) Not sure how I will do time wise, just want to finish it

I will take a few days off from running. I will do bootcamp and go for walks. I need to keep the mileage up as I will be doing 2 races in november (on the same day) for a total of 15K.

I finally made the soup I meant to make last week. I just need to puree it and it will be done. I want it to cool off a bit before I take on that task.

Starting back to work tomorrow. My least fave rotation...mon-thurs. Oh well it will be nice to have another weekend off.