2017 Goals

Basically the last few years I haven't really achieved any of my goals that I had set for myself but I am going to make sure that I do achieve them for 2017.  

Goals:

1.  Lose weight (I want to be about 140 lbs)
To achieve this goal I will make sure to meal plan and prep for a week in advance.  I will make sure I have a dedicated day to plan my meals and get groceries and another day will be do cook these meals.  I will have healthy/yummy snacks on hand so i don't grab unhealthy ones.  I have a 12 week WW planner and I will make sure to follow the point system to help get a jump start at the weight loss.  When i am not working I will make sure to go to Jills for class if she it is on a day that she has them.  I should be getting a treadmill this week and my goal is to start running again.  I will try and use it every day as I really want to start running again.   It will be awesome to have it right in my house and I should be able to get up early and do it.  I will make sure to run before my husband goes to work so that charlie won't be chasing me.  I think I have a good program to start from.  It ranges from 30 min to 77 min.

2.  Pay off some debt
I really need to be better with my money.  I just finished paying off a loan so I will have an extra $300 which will help me get a jump start at paying off some of my other debts.  I will make weekly grocery lists to try and cut down on the running to the grocery store in between which adds up quickly.  I will try to go to another place for groceries as the place here in town is so much more expensive.  I will try to pick up one OT/month if it is offered.

3.  Get my house in order
We have so much random junk in this house and I really want to start organizing things and purging.  If we ever had to move I would not want to have tons of junk to get rid of.  I will start by going through the Cmas decorations and only keeping what we actually use.  Everything else I will throw away or try and sell in the town wide yard sale in June.  I should make it our goal to actually have lots of stuff to sell and anything that we don't sell we will donate or throw away.  I will do my best to have set days to clean the house.  The day before I go to work for my set and then my first day off after my set.  That should make it for a much neater/cleaner house.  I want our house to be in order so that I feel ok at any point if anyone wants to come and visit.  I will do my best to keep the dishes done and put away at the end of each day.

These are the 3 things I really want to work on for the year.  I am hoping that when i reflect on 2017 I will be able to say that I achieved my goals.

Trying to get motivated!!

It is so hard to keep up the motivation to eat healthy.  It is going to take a lot of work and I need to gear myself up for it.  writing it down here will hopefully help some.  Right now I am wanting the healthy, in shape body but I am constantly struggling with the mind set that I need to achieve that.  I am not getting any younger so I need to do it now.  I need to stop saying that I will start tomorrow.  One day there won't be a tomorrow and I don't want that to happen!!!  I have so many things coming up in the new year and I want to not have to worry about what to wear etc.

This is the holiday season where lots of treats will be available so i need to keep asking myself if it is really worth it!!!!

December

Wow, it is already december.  This year has flown by.  I am sure part of it has to do with all the adventures that we had.  Camping, lots of concerts/festivals...a couple of awesome trips.  The thing that I am upset about this year is that I spent it wanting to lose weight but didn't achieve that goal.  This month I am going to do my best to stay on track and have a jump start at weight loss.  I am so over wanting to be thinner.  it won't just happen.  It is something I have to work at and I don't want to be seen as a quitter or weak.  I am going to do this!!!!

My goal for this month and in the year to come is:

1.  Meal plan
2.  Regular exercise
3.  Keeping my house clean and organized
4.  Much less screen time
5.  Decrease amount of Debt

Those are 5 of my major goals.  I know that I can do this!!!

I am looking forward to an awesome month and can't wait to ring in a new year :)

almost Jamaica time

It has been a while since I posted.  3 weeks +2 days until we leave for out trip.  I am so excited.  It is crunch time with the healthy eating and exercise.  I got side tracked for 2 weeks because I broke my toe and it hurt a lot when I tried to exercise.  Because the exercise wasn't there I totally blew it in the kitchen which really sucks.  Oh well....I have picked myself up and dusted off and the last few days have been awesome and I am feeling quite motivated.

I signed up for beach body on demand which is awesome.  It is like netflix but with all types of exercise programs that beach body offers.  I usually don't like working in the basement but these are pretty good exercises for working out at home (21 day fix).  this actually helps me workout before work.  It is so much easier to just get up and go downstairs then head to the gym.  I have been switching my schedule around at work so I do tend to work 3 days in a row now so working out at home will help me not go so many days without working out.

today I started my day off with a quick workout at the gym.  It was actually  just on the treadmill but my goal by the end of the year is to be able to run/walk 5K.  I so miss running and need to push myself to get back into it!!!

Pinterest has been my friend with some meal ideas. I made an awesome soup and have been having a great salad.  I am now getting stuff ready for my meals at work... breakfast, lunch and supper plus a snack.  it does take a lot of prep.

I have a few things coming up before we leave so I need to be perfect everyday so that I can enjoy those 2 events and then get right back on track.  I know that if I just work really hard I could get the amount of weight I want off in 3 weeks (not exactly what I had hoped for but every lb I am down it will make me that much closer to my healthy/happy weight).

Learning to run...again

For a few years I considered myself a runner.  I did a handful of 1/2 marathons etc and then the last couple of years I let my running endurance decrease and now it is a struggle.  I am going to try hard to build that endurance back up.  For now I am just going to focus on being able to run 10K but I would love to run 1/2 marathons again.  But like I said I will just focus on 10K (starting off with 6K as the focus)  I have a 6 k route that I will be using to build up my running and have a schedule made of how I hope to build it back up.

To be accountable for this I will try to check in every day with what I have done for running and/or strength training.  I will be starting this tomorrow.  Dependent on the weather and if I have to work I will run at the gym, otherwise I will do my best to run outside.  Once I get a couple of weeks under my belt I will buy myself a new pair or runners.  

I am making a promise to myself that if I build my running up I will continue to do this form of exercise for as long as my body will allow me to :)

Results of week 1

I was down 4 lbs when I weighed in today.  I am happy with that result.  I usually have bigger results then that when I get on track during week 1 but I will take the 4 lbs which is a much more realistic weight loss then what I usually do.  I hope I stay on track like that for weekly WI's and I will reach the goal I set for myself for our big trip.

I finally sent off an email re: some work related stuff.  I debated on it for a while now but it was really bugging me and it is one of those things where if things were said and improvements could be made then I feel that I have the right to know.  I tried to not let it bother me but it was and now that I sent the email maybe I will get an answer.  I honestly wish I could win the lottery and not have to work.  I love my actual job and the challenges that come with it except for all the politics and the disrespect we get as nurses.  It isn't all bad but when it is, it is really bad.

Had a great workout already today.  I went for a walk and then had a great bootcamp class.

Today I need to get the dishes done and put away.  I want to have a nap before going in to work but right now i am not really that tired.  I will browse on the computer a bit longer then will tackle the mountain of dishes, eat my snack and make my lunch.  This is the first night shift that I have had since starting this new program so I am trying to be careful as to how i space my snacks.

here is to a somewhat productive monday :)

frist week complete

So I officially completed 7 days of the new program I am on.  I am pretty impressed that I stuck to it for 7 days.  It wasn't too hard but I must say I hope that the meals change up soon.  I think for the next 2 days instead of roast beef I will have lean steak.  I am still enjoying the shake and salad which is great.  Part of me wants to have a treat but I keep telling myself that next saturday I will most likely be going out for dinner so that will be a treat for me.   I just need to step it up for the exercise part of things.

I am looking forward to a new week and will be excited when I get week 2 of the program :)

Cheat day

a couple of days ago I received some information on having a cheat day once a week while doing this new program.  It sounds like a great idea but I have come to understand myself and realize that if I have a "cheat day" it could easily throw me off.  What I have planned is to stick to the healthy eating but if I have an occasion that will be my cheat meal.  I will not make a full day out of it.  For example...a wedding on Oct 1st.  Just going to the ceremony but I am sure the group of us will want to go out for supper after.  I will enjoy a meal and hopefully not stress too much about it.  I may even have 1 drink with the meal.  Then I should be good until thanksgiving day.  again I will enjoy my meal but get right back on track.  I will eat healthy for all the other meals/snacks and make sure when I have the yummy meal I will watch my portions and make sure I stop when I feel satisfied.  after that I don't think I have anything until the stag and doe I go too on oct 29th.  again I will eat healthy all day and have a few drinks when I am out.  I really need to stick with this so I will have success on this plan.  This may be a good way to think in life too when I have lost all the weight that I need too.  I won't restrict myself completely but I will make sure that when I do have a treat day/week that it isn't wasted on crappy junk food (chips, bars, cookies, trail mix etc).  I want it to be on a nice meal out or something like that.

anyways that is my thought on cheat days :)

day 3

So today is day 3 of the new program that I am doing and I am happy to say it is going well.  The first day was a little rough but it is that time of month and I was quite tired but now I feel great.  I have not felt hungry at all so far and I am enjoying all the meals.  The morning snack i find a bit much which could be because I never really did a morning snack so I just ate a portion of it and the other 2 items (apple and cucumber I will add to my salad for lunch).

Exercise is going well.  I am doing some cardio and I went to one of jills bootcamp classes today.  Felt great with the workout but I have to say that the last few days my knee has been bothering me.  I am icing it right now and will continue to do this as I really do not want to have an injury so bad that I can't workout. I will make sure I stretch too.  I will be able to get another class in at Jills on Friday too which is awesome.  I was worried that with the bus/class overlapping times I wouldn't get these workouts in but it seems like things will work.

I don't go back to work til saturday so I really need to get more done around the house.  Today I will focus on the kitchen as I really am hoping to make some salsa on my days off.  I will wash the bottles too and have them ready for tomorrow or friday (probably buy all supplies and have them all prepped and make the salsa on friday).  I need to make sure to have all my meals ready for work too for saturday and sunday.  I just don't want to feel really rushed on friday getting ready for work.

I just paid off my insurance and trip today.  over $2000 saved in the last few months which is pretty impressive.  Makes me realize that I can save money.  this is something else I really need to work on.

not much else to report.  have a great day

Sculpt begins tomorrow

I will be doing 2 programs together, one is sculpt and the other is through my trainer.  I was excited to see the first week meal plan from sculpt.  I think i will like all the foods on the menu which is awesome.  what actually surprised me is that I will be eating the same thing all week.  This may actually be a very good thing as it really simplifies things.  It was so easy to go and buy the groceries and I will prep my meals for a few days.  it calls for salmon or beef for suppers and since I don't like salmon I will be eating beef all week for that meal which is very fine with me.  I bought a lean cut of beef and will cook it in the crock pot all day tomorrow.

I will try to get up and go to the gym before Kevin leaves for work.  It means early mornings but I really would rather get my workouts done and out of the way and have a great start to my day.  I am going to really enjoy being off all week!!! and I only have 1 appointment which means I should be able to get a lot done around the house.  I need to make a weekly chore list and then mark off each thing when I do it.  the house has been neglected for so long that I really need to do a good clean and organize.

I was actually called in to work overtime today but after my last 2 weeks of work i feel for my mental health I need a good break from work.  I asked them to mark me off the entire days off that I have and hopefully I won't get any calls.  I would have gone in but i will be paid for 7 shifts plus a v day so really not worth it at all.

Here is to a great week and I will be back next sunday and write about how my week with the new program went.

New Program

I am so excited to be starting a new program soon.  It is through Sculpt.  It will be an on line thing but it sounds like they will be giving me a nutrition and exercise program to follow.  It will be 10 weeks which isn't too long but long enough to see results.  If I really like it I will repeat it and then maybe sign up for the 20 weeks custom program.  It is expensive but i am hoping that because I am paying that much money I will be that much more motivated to follow it.  I saw a couple of the recipes and they look yummy so if the program is like that then it should be fun to follow.

I need to get out and exercise more.  The past few weeks I have done minimal workouts and really need to get back to daily exercise.  I work the next 4 days so I need to think and figure out what I will do for my workouts.  I think that I will go to bed early and hit the gym at 5 and get the workout done before work.  This means I need to have my meals for work all made today and ready to pack for each morning.

I have just under 9 weeks to get some weight off so I will feel better about myself when in Jamaica.  I am really looking forward to this trip.

well i need to head to the grocery store and pick up what I need to meal prep for my fun 4 days of work :)

Moving in the right direction

Finally I am seeing some changes in the scale which makes me so happy.  without really trying that hard I am down 12.2 lbs since the end of May.  This makes me realize that if I put a lot of effort into my diet and exercise over the next 12 weeks I should be at a healthier weight for when we go to Jamaica.  Right now I am dieting and exercising to lose weight...I have a goal weight in mind.  Once I get closer to that weight I will make sure that the healthy eating and exercise have become a lifestyle change and something that I can maintain.  I have said this so many times but this time I want to reach that weight and stay there for the rest of my life.  I need to make sure that I do have some treats every once in a while but plan them and then get right back to the healthy eating.  So many times I do well and then as soon as I have an healthy meal or day I fall into a hole and really struggle to get out and get back on track.  I am so over that!!!!!

I am really going to try and work on the running aspect for exercise.  I want to be able to run the 10k relay in March.  It will take a lot of work but I need to just remember that I can do it and it will take time to build up to that.  I have 7 months to be ready and there is no reason why I can't (I have done 7 half marathons so I should be able to do 10K!!!!).  My main love though for exercise is the bootcamp classes I go to, and the workouts that I do with Jill on the days she doesn't have classes.  I think that it will help that I have been doing these classes pretty consistently with being toned up when the weight starts coming off.

I am going to focus again on meal planning and meal prep.  so much easier to stay on track when the meals are already made :)

Well I must go and get a few things done...clean the trailer...hopefully we get the new one this weekend.  i have a concert tonight too :)

I think I am finally getting it....

The last couple of weeks I have done pretty good with the exercise and eating healthy.  I for sure have not been perfect but I am feeling so much better.  I have gone to bootcamp 3x already this week and have plans to go again on saturday.  I am hoping to get a run/walk or a walk in before going to work the next 2 days.  3 weeks today until our 5th year of going to a country festival and I want to be in better shape them I am at this moment.  I tried a couple of pair of jean shorts on just to see if they fit (which they did not a few weeks ago) and they do fit!!!!!  I want them to almost be a bit lose in 3 weeks and I know if I keep going at the rate I am they will be.  My goal for right now is to keep going like this for the next 17+ weeks and I should be happy with my weight/body for Jamaica.  I am hoping that I have finally learned my lesson and will keep myself at a healthy weight and not have those everyday struggles of feeling like crap and wondering what I will wear.  I want to be a good example for my son too and help him stop thinking about food all the time.

Speaking of the little boy he is currently in NB with my family.  This is a huge trip for him and I miss him like crazy.  We won't see him again until late on the 27th.  and then after spending 4+ days with him he will be coming back with his other set of grandparents and been with them while we are at boots and hearts.  I will take advantage of my days off and do things with him.  Not really sure if I will send him to a day camp.  I may only do that if he asks.  We do have a camping trip for a few days at the end of August which should be fun.  We did a lot of stuff together too when my sister and family were up which I know he really enjoyed.

I am slowly getting the house in order too.  I will do some more cleaning after I get my meals prepared for the days at work and then work on cleaning the kitchen/dinning room.  Keep it ready for those surprise droop in visitors.

Well I should get going...I have some yummy granola cooking in the oven right now.  Love that stuff...

Summer....

Wow time is flying by as usual.  We are almost into July and I am still playing on repeat...I need to get back on track...I need to stop that cycle and just move forward and get my act in gear.  Meal plan/prep and get the daily exercise in.  I am really tired of feeling like crap and wishing that I could be healthy.  It will not happen over night and I need to tell myself that each day that I am on track it is one day closer to reach my healthy/happy weight.

These will be my goals for July:

1.  despite all the plans I will make the healthiest choices when eating out
2.  daily exercise (really work on getting back into running)
3.  meal plan/prep
4.  keep house tidy/clean

I really want to make sure that I do not have to panic with what I am going to wear when we go on our trip in November.  It is so frustrating having those feelings and I am done with it.  Really what I have been putting in my mouth may taste good for that brief second but in the long run it makes me feel like crap.

My sister and her family are heading up in a few days to visit for almost a week.  I need to get working on organizing the house for when they arrive.  I will be working 2 more shifts and then I am away for 2 days so I really do not have much time at all to get ready.  I usually want a nap before working my first night but that won't be happening today...

well here's hoping for a productive day (which needs to include a walk!!)

Deposit is made...

Well we all have made our deposit for our trip to Jamaica.  I am not wishing time away as it is going so fast all on its own and I do wish it would slow down but 21 weeks (yesterday) till we leave.  What I have learned from my last mistakes is do not put off eating healthy.  For the past 2 weeks I have done about 60% healthy.  When I was sick with my cold I kind of went off the clean eating but I am right back on that train.  I have also started trying to run again.  The last 3 days I have done a 2 min run/1 min walk for 3K.  I want to slowly build up my running again and I think running 3 days in a row is a good start.  Now I just need to keep it up!!!!  I love running and am so mad at myself that I let myself get away from it but I am going to do my best to build up that endurance again.  With the combination of the exercise and clean eating I should be able to be at a healthier weight by the time we go on our trip.

I have to do a lot of cleaning on my days off as my sister, BIL and kids will be arriving July 2nd.  I want my house to look decent for their arrival (can only imagine what it will look like when they leave ;) )  I am hoping that we have amazing weather while they are here and that we get to do a lot of activities outside.

Well I should get going and tidy the kitchen so it will be decent for fathers day dinner.  Have a great sunday

on track week

Wow I can't believe that I am able to right this but I had a very good week, with just a couple of treats (trail mix 2 nights).  That is such a huge thing for me.  One time was after my 2nd day shift and then again last night (post drinks).  I am starting a new 4 week challenge at work so I need to try and do my best.  I have a couple of events during this month (jays game, Luke Bryan concert and then the big town party on June 30th).  I will bring healthy snacks to the ball game,  make the smartest choices when eating out for the concert and then the party will most likely just be drinks.  I am feeling a lot better since having a good week of eating healthy and exercising (I think that I went for a walk 5/7 days which is awesome for me).  I want to really work on daily exercise.

I have my meals all ready for work tomorrow and then tuesday I will do my best to meal prep for the rest of the week.

We bought a new dinning room table/chairs tonight and I am really excited about that.  I have had our current one since 1999 so a change will be nice.  The really great part is that we put it on the credit card and paid it right off.  We hopefully will be getting it this week.  My goal is to keep the clutter off this table.  I wish we had a desk in our living room but we don't so I need to find another spot for all my junk.  I think because my son and I spend so much time in the kitchen we think about food all the time.  We will have to work on that.

Well that is all for this week.  Hope to have an even better week this week with exercise and healthy eating.

wow it is June!!!!

I know I have been saying this a lot lately but the fact that it is already June is crazy and scary.  Time keeps going faster and faster each month.  I hope summer slows down a bit.

The last couple of days I have done pretty good with eating.  Last night I had something I probably shouldn't have but I threw out the extra so I wouldn't be tempted today.  Today I am committing to my health and wellness.  I am so over wishing to be healthy and will work hard to maintain it (oh and of course we are having a bistro at work...if I avoid it completely then I should be ok...except I can have some fruit).  I started my morning out good by going for a nice long walk.  I need to start going to bed earlier (no later then 10 pm) and cutting the caffeine out after supper so I won't have any issues falling asleep.  I am hoping the earlier to bed will make it easier for me to get up and workout in the mornings before work and when I am off tues and thursdays to get a walk/run in.  Before I start getting back into running I need to get some weight off so my knees won't get too sore from all his extra weight (even 10 lbs I think will make a difference).

I need to do weekly menu's and meal prep.  Like I always say it really helps and I haven't been sticking with this.  I need to follow my menu and not deviate from it  (unless eating out and even then I need to be smart about my choices).  I know my trigger foods and I need to avoid them.  This will be like rehab for me and I need to stop making excuses and get clean.

here is a list of my trigger foods that I need to stay away from:

candy
milk chocolate
chips
popcorn
trail mix
crackers
cookies
cake/cupcakes

basically I need to stay away from any processed foods.

I will do weekly weigh ins and hopefully I will see the scale moving in the right direction (actually over 2 days it has for sure been going down which is always nice to see).

2 more nights and then off for 5 days.  I so need to get work done around this house.  It is so messy!!!!!  Have a great day.

Pool is open

We finally have our pool open.  Not quite ready to swim in yet but we are getting there.  I wish I was bikini ready now but it is a work in progress.  Still having some struggles but am getting a bit better.  I think what will help a lot is if I focus on doing housework.  My house is such a disaster and I need to become better at keeping it clean and organized.   Like I have said before I want to be prepared if people just stop by for a visit.  I would love to go on a big purge but I really feel like we would need a garbage bin to achieve that.  I think I need to come up with a plan which would be to clean from top to bottom the day before going to work and then again when I finish my set (instead of sleeping all day get up at noon and clean the whole house again).  I am sure that if I did this I wouldn't feel so overwhelmed when it come to cleaning the house.

I have done 3 workouts at Jills so far this week and will hopefully be able to do 2 more (depending on how I feel after the concert tomorrow night).  I LOVE strength training and I really want to get back into running.  I am making monday my start date for that goal.  I will take it slow knowing that I will build up my mileage.

Well I should get going and do some more work around the house.  I think I will work on decluttering the kitchen right now.  I hate how much stuff I have on the counters and need to really work on that.

Have a great weekend.

I'm done....

This is just going to be a post of me being done making excuses and what I am going to do about it...

I am done having a dirty house...daily and weekly cleans will be happening.  I want my house to be in a state that if someone stops by for a surprise visit that I don't have to stress about it being a mess.  I also want the boys to feel like they live in a clean house

I am done thinking about losing weight and will do something about it.  this will involve eating clean and daily exercise (minus today as today's focus will be on organization of things I want to change)

I am done staying up late and not having the energy to get up and do the early morning workouts like I enjoy doing.  I want to get out early before too many people are on the streets and get my running restarted.  I am done making excuses not to go to Jills too.  I always feel amazing after so why  not do this as often as I want.

I am done wasting money.  daily trips to the grocery store and eating out are such a waste of money.

I am done living out of laundry baskets.   When I do laundry I want to make sure putting it away is part of the routine.

I am done not taking my puppy for a walk.  Between us all we need to get out daily if not 2x/day to walk her.  poor little girl being cooped up in the house.

Make grocery lists and meal plans to limit trips to the grocery store and to have healthier food options for my family

I want to have a happier and healthier family and I know if I take the lead it will be easier for my family to follow suit.  We will do this and time is going way to fast and I am done watching opportunities for us going by.

May 1st

It has been almost a year that I have been eating anything and everything that I want.  Am I happy with this choice....no I am not.  I have been feeling miserable and since this is the beginning of a new month I am making the choice to start eating clean.  I am going to try and exercise daily too.  This is when I am happiest and I want to be happy and feel good about myself.   I want to be able to run again and not feel so out of shape.  I want to continue building up my strength, love my bootcamp classes.

One thing I need to keep telling myself is that this will take time and a lot of patience.  I can't expect results right away.  I just need to take it one day at a time and eventually it will pay off (like 6 months from now when I am on a beach in Jamaica).

I have a few things in mind to make for my meals this week so today and tomorrow I will be cooking away so that I have things that I can grab quickly.  I know that this works for me so I will start prepping meals 1 or 2 days/week so that I have easy access to healthy food choices.   For this week I will be having my sausage, rice, peppers and salsa,  clean sloppy joe's and a clean chicken tortillas soup.   I will make the granola from the cleanse which I will have with yogurt and fruit and when I am home for breakfast I will have my protein smoothies from the cleanse.  

Tomorrow I will be exercising 2x.  run/walk 3K and then a bootcamp class.  I am meeting friends for lunch so I need to make the healthiest choice I can and not beat myself up for not eating "clean".  I think I am so hard on myself that when I eat out I just fall apart.  I need to stop doing this.

I am going to do this.  I want to reach a healthy weight and I also want to have a healthy lifestyle.  I think all around I will feel like a better person which is what I want for me and my family!!

work out

Even though the workout today was hard for me it sure felt good to be back it after 2 weeks off.  Unless I am away I don't want to go that long without working out again.  the workout focused on my favourite area to work...my shoulders.  not quite sure why this area is one of my favourites but it just is.  I should be able to workout at Jills friday and saturday too.  Tomorrow morning I am really hoping to be able to get out for a run.  I am just going to start with my 3K route and hopefully it will just take a few weeks before I am feeling pretty good with my running again (as long as I get out 4-5x/week).  I still plan on getting as much strength training in too as my work schedule allows.  Love the classes I go too and I should try and get to the gym too if I can't make it to a class.  I want to get this body in great shape.

Last night I was just not feeling like eating something from the cleanse so I didn't but back on track again.  I need to program myself to not spiral out of control if I do have something not the best, but due to what I believe is an addiction it is so hard which is why I really need to work on avoiding the foods totally.

I need to take advantage of the next few days and get this house a bit cleaner.  Especially the kitchen. We never know when someone may stop by for a visit and I am tired of having a messy/dirty kitchen.  I will do my best to clean the mess up after I have my lunch.

Well that is all for day.

revising the "cleanse"

Since saturday I have been eating some of the foods from the cleanse which I am finding is bothering my stomach a little bit.  I am going to revamp things a bit and use a lot of the same concepts but come up with my own meal ideas when necessary.  I need to take a break from the power balls...those things are so addictive for me.  I need to wait and make another batch on friday.  I need to watch how many nuts I am having too.  When I eat too many it too makes my stomach upset.  I am not losing hope though.  I really want to get this weight off.  I am finding it so much harder but I know once I get a few weeks under my belt it will be a bit easier.  I just need to avoid trigger foods.  Treat this food addiction that I have a serious as it really is.

I am finally feeling better from the stupid cold I had so I am looking forward to getting a good workout in tomorrow!!!!  I need to start running too.  I may try that in the morning or wait till thursday morning.  All depends on how I sleep tonight (last nights sleep sucked!!).

not much else planned for today.  Will head out for a few groceries in a bit.  Maybe talk my husband in to going for a walk this evening with the puppy.

Spring Cleanse

So for 4 weeks I am going to try really hard to stick to the clean eating cleanse.  The first week looks like lots of yummy food so I think I will be able to do this.  I really need a jump start on things and I am hoping that this will be the help that I need.  The one thing that sucks though is that I have a chest cold so the work outs won't be happening for a bit.  I have actually taken my days off and probably will take my nights off too (not just because of the cold but I am wearing a heart rate monitor device too that I really think will distract me at work).  The group I am doing this with isn't officially starting until the 18th but I am pretty sure most of us are trying some of the recipes in advance and doing a lot of prep (this cleanse does require a lot of meal prep which is something that I thrive on...when I do it).  I will be making more foods today and again tomorrow and hopefully they will last me for a while.  When week 2 comes up I will have to check and see what foods I still have left (hopefully some of the things freeze ok).

My official WI day will be monday so I will have 3 days to try and get rid of the weight I probably put on in Nashville.  I had a great time down there but as always I was wishing I had the extra weight off.  I really need to be done saying those words.  I need to just do it and be healthy like I want to be so bad.  I am the only one getting in the way.  I have a few things coming up this summer and don't want to stress about what I am going to wear.  The big thing that I have is a trip in November with a big group of people to somewhere warm.  I want to be able to wear whatever I want and look great in what I am wearing.

In the exercise department I will really work on the toning and strength building by going to as many of Jill's classes that I can but next year I will be doing the around the bay 10K relay and I want to be well trained for that.  I feel like I will be starting right back at the beginning where running is concerned so I need to get on that ASAP.  spring/summer is the best time to start.  Time is flying by so I need to stop making excuses and just do it.

I will try and post daily updates on how the cleanse is going.

4 weeks till Nashville

I need to keep telling myself that and really focus on the clean eating and daily exercise.  I need to make sure I do some form of physical activity (well not today as I am just getting my thoughts etc together to take on these 4 weeks).

These past few months I have felt miserable, taking it out on other people etc and I need to be over that.  I am a better person then that.  I need to stop letting food take control of me and take control of my own life!!!!  I love eating healthy and exercising so I need to stop making excuses.  I want to stop wasting so much money buying food that makes me feel like crap.

I have long term goals in my head but I won't reach that goal if I don't take things one day at a time.  I waste so much time thinking about changing and none actually taking the steps to change.

wish me luck.

Happy Valentines Day

I am spending the day by myself (hockey tournament and I have to work the next 2 nights).  I went to a bootcamp class which I was not sure that I was going to go but I am so happy to go.  I had an amazing workout and I was telling the instructor how amazing I felt working out and I am sure it has to do with the fact that my nutrition was clean this week (well since wednesday....gave up junk for lent).  It was motivating to feel so amazing working out which I haven't felt that good in a long time.  I always feel great after a workout but this time it was different.  I hope that I am finding my grove.  One thing I learned from work yesterday is that I need to make sure that I have plenty of healthy snacks in my cooler.  I found that I was hungry and just did not have enough food so I had some things that I normally would not have had.  So for my next set at work I will make sure to pack extras just incase.

I am going to do my best to get out to the gym this week.  I want to really focus on building my running endurance up.  I would love to be able to do some 5-6K runs on my days off outside when the weather is nicer.  I have a lot of work to do but I know that I can do this.  I need to follow a program and start ASAP.  I will try to do strength training 5 days/week too.  I love it so much and I love how when I do ST it makes me feel so much stronger!!

I need to make sure I start menu planning and meal prepping too.  I know this is a huge part of my success with weight loss so I need to start doing it again.  I want to get this extra weight off and I know that I can do it.  I am in my 40's now and I am so over always feeling like I want to lose weight.  My goal this year is to get it off and then my goal will to maintain by living a healthy lifestyle.

Hope everyone has a great day.

Need to Buckle down!!

You know all those good intentions I had at the beginning of January...not really feeling it and need to get my shit together.  I am starting to feel bad physically and mentally so I need to start taking much better care of myself.  I am doing  pretty good about going to Jills but I don't really do anything in between.  I want to start running again so I need to follow a program and stick with it.  The eating has been going so bad.  I need to do much better menu planning/meal prep.  I know it works but just need to be consistent and do it.

Tomorrow is Feb 1st so a perfect day to start.  Today I will use it to menu plan and make a grocery list.  I also need to do some house work.  I feel like because of my trip to Florida and then working I haven't done anything for almost 2 weeks.  I have the rest of today and tomorrow to get things somewhat organized.

Ideally I would like to lose 60 lbs but 50 lbs is what I will set my goal for right now (how could I not feel better with that much weight off my body!!).   I have so many things coming up in the next few months and I don't want to be stressing about not having anything to wear.  It sucks feeling stressed about something I can actually control.  I need to finally put an end to this addiction I have with food.  I am almost tempted to discuss it with my family Dr.  Maybe when I go for my physical (so past due) I will mention it to him.  I will look on line too and see what they have for options.  I know that people do have food addictions but the help does not seem to be as out there as with other addictions.

well I need to get started with cleaning the kitchen.

Clean the House

I  have a love/hate relationship with this.  I love it when my house is nice and clean  (does not happen very often) but hate what it takes to get it that way.  I need to start focusing on daily chores, weekly chores and monthly chores so I don't feel overwhelmed.  My goal is to always keep my house clean/tidy so that I don't stress if we have people come over for a visit.  It is much harder now that we have a dog but to be honest I wasn't that clean before we got Charlie either.   Our house is really not that big but we have tons of stuff.  We need to at some point take some time and really work on decluttering the house.

In the spring I would love to paint all 3 bedrooms and have them organized.  We want to put wood flooring so I will have K price how much it would be to do all 3 plus the hallway.  He did some work at a house and they have awesome wood floors and he brought a piece home for me and I absolutely love it.  I know it will be expensive but I want something I love!!

I have worked out at Jills the last 3 days and man I am really feeling it in places I usually don't.  I love these workouts and need to take advantage of the days I can go.  My new thing too is taking Charlie for walks.  I love getting out and doing a full hour walk.  It is so much easier to walk her now that we figured out the gentle leader.  she may not like it but she walks so much better for me when I use it.

Well I have to work the next 5 days so I need to do a little meal prep.

Intense Program

So the intense program that I am doing doesn't officially start till the 11th but this week is prep week which I am actually counting as my week 1.  Time to work on getting my body back into weight loss mode and keep on going till i reach my goal weight.

The last 2 days I have gone to Jills for a workout and I am really feeling it.  I love her workouts.  They are hard but so rewarding when done.  I have so much weight to lose but I can tell that I have been doing strength training again especially in my shoulders.  Other's would not notice the difference but I can feel it :)

I keep saying this but I really need to start running again.  Maybe tomorrow (if no bootcamp) but for sure on Wed-Fri (working days).  I was hoping to get wednesday off as we are over staffed but I haven't heard anything yet so I am sure I won't be getting it off.

I am so tired right now I don't feel like doing anything but I do need to go get groceries for the week. It is hard to go out and do stuff when it is cold out.  I am not complaining though since we have really had such a mild winter so far.

Well I am going to go on pinterest and see if I can find any fun and healthy meal ideas for the week.

Goals for 2016

I can't believe that 2015 is behind us and we have now entered 2016.  I am  hoping for a great year.  I am going to do my best to make this the year that I get my shit together and have a healthier lifestyle that will make for a happier home (it is a happy home but we have our moments...or I have my moments which transcends onto everyone else).

We rang in the year with some great friends.  I was so tired after finishing my 3rd 12 hr shift which all were steady shifts and so did not want to go out a socialize.  I just wanted to go home and get into my PJ's.  Well the little man really wanted to go so off we went.  I am glad we did.  It was a lot of fun hanging out with good friends, meeting new people and eating great food (and drinking great wine).

I was supposed to go to Jills and do bootcamp but I knew that I shouldn't be driving yet first thing in the morning.  I did go and do a great long walk with Charlie so at least I started the year with some form of exercise.  I should be able to go to class sunday and monday which will be good and then a few more later in the week.

here is a list of my goals for 2016

1.  have a clean and organized house (I want my house to be always ready just incase people stop by for a visit).

2.  Clean eating.  I want to do my best to have my diet as clean as possible

3.  Daily exercise which will include running, walking and strength training

4.  budget my money better.  I have a good paying job so I should not be living pay to pay

5.  build up my running again.  I am so sad I let this slip but I will get it back and find the runners high once again

6.  help my little man realize the importance of healthy  eating and exercise and stop being so negative when I speak about it.  We bring in the unhealthy foods so we need to stop this and provide healthy options for him.

Those are good goals and I will try to do monthly updates on how these goals are going.  I am going to make this year an amazing one :)