Resolutions

It is that time of year again December 31st and of course many people are thinking about their resolutions which includes me.  I had made a list a coupld of days ago and posted it.  I will post the list again but with some changes and somewhat shorter.

eat clean/exercise daily/plan menus/prepare meals for me in advance/reach my healthy/happy weight

keep my house clean/clean house weekly

manage my money better

Those are the 3 main ones.  I just want 2013 to be a healthy, happy year for me and my family and I know that it will start with me.  If I am being healthy I am sure the others will follow suit.

Not much planned for tonight.  We will be having supper soon.  I am having my supper as a salad which is something i haven't done in a very long time.  I am sure it will be very yummy.  Tomorrow I am going to start my eat clean challenge and will keep daily records of my eats here on my blog.

Happy New Year's Eve everyone.

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So yesterday I indulged in a few treats and feel hung over today.  More reason to eat healthy today.  I am looking forward to a fresh start in the new year but why not start today.  I need to come up with some healthy snacks for me to have on new years eve since it will be a night in front of the TV watching all the new year celebrations.  I actually love doing that.

I ordered myself a winter jacket on columbia.ca today.  I really needed a winter jacket and could really use it right now.

Here is a picture of the jacket I ordered.  It was more then I wanted to spend (by like $100) but I know that I am paying for the quality of the picture which is important for me.  I hope it doesn't take too many days to get here. I have a pair of boots but maybe I will order new boots too.  I guess that would be a nice reward for myself once I reach 165 lbs.  I need to make a list of rewards for myself in 5 lb increments but I won't get the reward unless I keep that weight loss for the following week.

I am going to look into the eat clean challenge that is run each year too.  What I am going to do is get my wonderful husband to do pitures and body measurements on Dec 31st and go from there.  I need this extra weight off.

Well that will be all for now.  I will do some computer browsing for now while I drink my coffee.

Our christmas

Because of my work schedule we did our christmas today. It just involved opening presents which was nice.  The 4 of us will be together for new years eve so maybe we will have a nice dinner then too since I missed out on the family cmas dinner.

I actually went for a 5K run this morning after the presents were open.  I opted for 5K which was a little more then what I had planned since I enjoyed a few treats yesterday at work.  Today I will get back on track though and I mean it this time.  I have been doing pretty good and if I stay like this I could be pretty close to the goal I wanted for the new year.

Well I must get ready for shift #3 at work.  I just hope that it isn't crazy.  the days were busy so hopefully the nights won't be as bad.

beautiful morning for a run

I was having that debate with myself on whether or not I would go for my long run as I had planned.  Finally at 9 i got out of bed and went for a 7K run.  I know that 7K is not super long but I have to build my mileage up again.  I am using the half marathon training program to prepare for the around the bay race in March.  Even though it is 30K if I follow the plan perfectly I will be more prepared for it then I was last year which I think is a very good thing.  I so want to do it in under 4 hrs this year.  I need to eat like a runner too.  I need to stop putting garbage into my body and put good healthy foods into it.  I ate awesome yesterday which I think is why I felt good on my run today. 

I start back to work tomorrow so I need to stay away from all the crap food that will be there.  I need to eat just healthy stuff and just to make sure that I have those options I will bring stuff myself to have on hand just incase.  Being prepared helped me reach my healthy weight last time.

I am looking forward to starting a new year and getting things right in 2013.  Well I must sign off for now and head to the grocery store to pick up my final things to be ready for the cmas bistro at work and for my husband to have stuff here while I am working.

Reflecting on 2012

I have done some thinking about the past year and I must say I had a pretty awesome year with activities but overall I am dissappointed with myself in general.
I have let my health slip away into the unhealthy phase again with not exercising regularly and binge eating.  I know better then this and feel that I am starting to make plans to have a great 2013 when it comes to my health.  I just need to remember it wont happen over night and I really cant epect it too.

I am looking forward to giving it 100% with the workouts that J has provides me which will include pictures and measurements.  I need to do this weekly.  Tomorrow I plan on going for a 6 or 7K run and then starting my strength training on monday.  I have stuff at home that I can do for the days that the gym is not open.  I will reweigh and measure myself tomorrow morning and start from there.

Here is to a happy and healthy 2013 and joining me on my journey to accomplish this.

new year is coming

I don't know how much time I am going to have in the next little bit so I am doing my New Years Resolutions now.  I was all for starting a new blog for a fresh start but I think that I will continue with this one.  I am going to get my life back on track in 2013.  I am done with feeling sorry for myself especially since I am the only one that can change things. 

Here we go with my resolutions:

1.  Train for around the bay and after that run 4-5 x/week

2.  Make strength training a regular part of my day

3.  make weekly menus and prepare my meals for the week in advance

4.  change what I eat in the evenings

5.  keep my house clean

6.  get lots of sleep

7.  drink less pop

8.  manage my money better

Those are some of the resolutions that I have.  The eating and exercising I will start doing now.  I need to be done with the excuse making.

Dec 10th

I can't believe that it is the 10th of december already. CRAZY  time is really flying by which is why I need to get serious about getting my weight off.  Love having the fresh starts on a monday.  I started off with a 3K run and will head to the gym in about an hour.  I had some breakfast so I want it to digest a bit first before going to do some strength training.  I am really hoping that the time I go won't be too busy.  I sure wish that I had my own gym in my house with awesome equipment...that would be the best :)

Not much really planned for today since I am going in to work tonight.  I think once my little man gets home from school we will decorate the tree that my wonderful husband picked up yesterday.  It is exactly what I wanted.  Not to big but nice and full.  I asked my stepson if he wanted me to wait until we have him again before I decorate it but he is fine with us doing it without him. 

I need to get the rest of the shopping done for my family down east.  Thankfully it is giftcards for them which makes things so much easier.  I did get a couple of soaps for my mom and sister from the body shop.  I need to send my niece and nephew their bday presents too in this package.  I am going to get them each a gift card from toys r us so they can get a fun toy from us.  I just hope I haven't put it off too long and they will get the parcel before cmas.

Well I am going to finish my coffee and then it will be time to head to the gym.  As soon as I am done that workout I am going to come home and have a nice warm shower.

a bad week

So I have had a bad week but today I am picking myself up and getting back to the mindset I had last week.  I know that I can do this.  I am thinking of starting a new blog for the new year...A Fresh Start...I hop no one has taken that name already.  I guess I should do some research to make sure that blog name is not used.

I went for a 4K run this morning.  Yeah me.  I am happy that I did get out and do that.  I will do a 3K run tomorrow and maybe some strength training either before or after work.  I just wish the gym was open.  Oh well I will think of some things to do :)

I have so much cleaning to do today.  I have put it off all week so of course now I am having major regrets.  Oh well.  Try to get as much done as possible. 

I am going to make a grocery list while I finish my coffee and then start the house work.

Have a great weekend everyone.  I of course am heading to work tomorrow.  I should get the husband to pick up a tree tomorrow and set it up so it will have lots of time to settle before we decorate it.

Doing Well

I  am feeling pretty good about how I have been doing.  Last night was a bit of a struggle but I didn't stray to far off from eating healthy.  I did eat too much before bed though.  I need to make sure that I stop this bad habit.

I was down 7.6 lbs which I am happy with.  I am down inches too which is awesome for just one week in to this program.  I need to be close to 100% with my workouts which includes the extra bits at the end of the workout and the bits that I am supposed to do as soon as I wake up.  Even if it means getting up and extra 15 min early I will do that for myself.

Tonight at work will be a bit of a challenge.  I am glad that I did run 8K though so I won't feel as guilty.  We are having a bistro for my bday and the fact we aren't able to make it to the work cmas party.  I just need to make sure that I don't go too crazy.

I have just strength training on the workout calender for tomorrow but I may go for a walk too depending on what time I get up.

I can't believe that it is dec 1st.  My goal is to be in the 160's by the time this month ends.  I will let you know how that challenge goes :)

Day 3

I can't believe that I am already on day 3 of this new program I am following to get back to a healthy lifestyle.  I have to remember though that I won't get immediate results and just be patient and enjoy the journey that I am on to get back there. 

I was up at 5:30 and off to the gym this morning for some strength training.  I went for a 4K run after I got back from taking my son to an appointment and dropping him off at school.  I was feeling kind of down because of the struggles my little man has but once I went for my run those feelings left.  I need to be thankful for all that he can do, not what he can't do.

My muscles are feeling the burn which is a great feeling.  Since this week is my first week of getting back into strength training I will be honest and admit that I am not doing some of the extras that J added to the program.  Next week though I will do my best do do everything that is on the workouts.
I signed up to do 12 weeks of this program but I think that I will try to do even more if she has more to offer.  Being accountable to her is really making me more motivated.  In the new year I will try and go to some bootcamp classes too.  Going 1x/week is better then none.  I sometime wonder why I sign up for things knowing that the distance will keep me from giving it 100%  It really is quite a drive to that bootcamp.  I will keep you posted on how the bootcamp goes in the new year.  Maybe I will love it so much and go 2x/week :)

Well I should hit the shower and then head to the grocery store to pick up a couple of things that I forgot to buy when I got groceries to get me through the week.

Feeling Great

I have done all of my workouts for today and I am feeling so good.  I did a 5K run (with a couple of walk breaks) and then I went to the gym for my day 2 strength training workout.  My muscles are really feeling the last 2 days of workouts but in a good way.

I stuck to my menu plan for yesterday and woke up feeling awesome.  This is my menu for today.

Breakfast:  blueberry protein pancake with 1 tbsp maple syrup

snack: visalus shake

Lunch: 4 oz of chicken and veggies

snack: veggies + hummus

Supper: 4 oz turkey with a sm sweet potato with salsa and greek yogurt

snack: apple + 1 tbsp almond butter

it is actually a lot of food and good quality food. 

It is my birthday today and my wonderful husband wanted to take me out for supper but with me just getting back on track with the eating I told him I would rather stay at home. 

Offical Day 1

The past week I have been doing ok but today was my offical day of getting back on track with a program that J is developing for me.  I have planned my menu for the week and I have planned my exercise for the week too.  J has given me 5 days of strength training programs and I did one of them today which was awesome.  It is going to be hard but oh so good to be strength training again.

My menu for today

Breakfast: sl ww toast with 1 tbsp peanut butter and banana

snack: 2 clementines

Lunch: white chicken chili with 2 ryvita crackers

snack: visalus shake

Supper: 1/2 c rice with 4 oz chicken with veggies

snack: apple with 1 tbsp of almond butter

I am pretty sure that with the amount of food I am eating that I will be pretty close to point totals that I would be having with weight watchers.

Tomorrow I need to take a full body picture so that I will have a good starting point to show my progress.  I really am excited about this journey and it really will help to have J to be accountable too.

Back on the wagon

So i filled out the forms that J needs before starting my on a nutrition/workout program.  I am so pumped about getting started on this.  Until I get that program though I will continue to run (need to start seriously training for around the bay this week) and will join the gym.  I am feeling so crampy and bloated today since it is that time of month and my boobs feel like bowling balls right now. 

I am actually excited to joing the gym.  I know I joined lean and fit but I don't know how that will work for me.  I do need to get in there and see what they can offer me.  I could try to go a few times/month just to make me feel like I am not wasing any money but for now the program that J is going to set me up with is going to be my priority...and of course running.  Maybe I can use the bootcamp class as cardio for days that I don't run.

I will keep you posted on how the program is working for me and any NSV and SV I have.  I am going to try and limit myself to WI's just once/week which will be on mondays.  I have 48 lbs to lose to get to a weight that I think is healthy for me and will make me happy. 

I will be heading out as soon as my food digests for a 4K run, but probably head to the gym first to join.  Not sure if I will get a workout in today or if I will do a 3K run and then off to the gym before work tomorrow morning.  I feel somewhat motivated right now and I hope that the motivation just keeps growing.

feeling like a failure

OMG why can't I get my act together?????  I want to eat healthy but I am getting a major F in this area.  It has got to stop.  I need to get this 45 lbs off and start now.  Well offically I will start on monday.  I am going back to my good ol' motivational person J and she is coming up with a nutrition/exercise program for me which I am so excited about.  I am going to rejoing the gym here in town and start doing strength training as well.  I imagine in the new year I will start going to bootcamp and may actually try getting a few seeions in the remainder of this year.

I am just feeling so off right now with the combination of no exercise for 2 days, eating like crap and my period is coming.  Not a good combination at all.

November...just around the corner

I have been giving this a lot of though and I think that in 2013 I am going to dedicate myself to eating clean.  I am getting a head start and will do my best to start that now.  I know that I won't be able to be perfect but there are many things that I can eliminate from my diet as they are not good fuel.  I need to remember not to put crap into my body that I don't need.

I started today off with a healthy breakfast.  It was just some cereal with bananas and milk.  I didn't go for a run  early this morning but I ended up going before lunch.  It was actually a pretty good run.  I am happy that I made that choice.

We are heading to vegas on thursday.  I know that there will be lots of eating out so all I can do is make the best choice that I can.  I will do my best the 3 days I have before we go away to be perfect.  We will see how that goes.

Day 2

I sure hope that in 5 days I will be able to type day 7 and that I will have stuck to my point range and made clean choices for my diet.  I wasn't going to run this morning because it was raining but I ended up doing 3K after dropping the kids off at school.  I got a little wet but not too bad.  After my run I came home and had some banana pancakes which were so yummy.  I was able to make 4 so I put 2 in the fridge and will have the other 2 on friday.  I topped them with a tbsp of maple syrup and 1 tbsp of walnuts.  I should have taken a picture but I didn't. 

I know that I won't make my original goal that I had hoped to be at for Vegas but as long as I eat healthy until I go will be a huge accomplishment for me.  I know that it will make for a much more pleasant trip if I eat clean and my mind will feel that way too.

I start back to work tomorrow so I am planning out my meals and doing some cooking.  i made a batch of spaghetti squash yeterday and will be making sauce for it soon.  I made a batch of tukey chili from one to tosca reno's books.  I know that in order for me to do well with eating I have to have a lot of my meals prepared so I don't stress about what I will have to eat.

Well I should head to the grocery store to pick up a couple of items that I need and get back to make my sphaghetti sauce before getting the kids from school...oh and to have some lunch too.

It's monday...a fresh start

What a beautiful day it is.  Sunny and possibly getting up to 18 degrees today, not bad for Oct 22nd.  I started off my morning, once my little man was at school, with a 4K run.  It actually went pretty good.  I need to remember I have at least 40 extra lbs on my body so I am not going to have the endurance that I had when I was at my lowest weight and I need to work on building it back up.  I am going to use today as my offical start date to get ready for the around the bay race in March.  I need to make sure I exercise smart and eat clean.  I want to have an awesome race and feel healthy when I am doing it...and of course look good too ;)

I am in the process of making a weekly menu and going to do my best to follow it.  I know that when I reached my goal weight 2 years ago that is part of what helped.  Tomorrow I am going to get up nice and early and head to bootcamp.  I know the more classes I get to the more comfortable I will be with this actual bootcamp.  I know that when my year is up I am going to join a gym in hamilton, most likely goodlife so that I can go whenever I want and make my own programs.  I think that i know enough exercises now and have enough exercise magazines and books that I can develop my own programs.  This won't be until next september.  So for now it will be bootcamp and running which is exactly what I was doing when I reached my goal weight before.

I am going to try and get my home more organized too which will make me feel more in control of my life.  Right now I feel like I am just coasting.  We are making our home beautiful so I need to do my part and keep in clean so it looks like a well organized home.

Now i must start with the cleaning process.  I don't want to be rushed next week and having to clean hardcore before my parents come.  I need to get as much done as possible the next 2 days before going back to work.

Here is to getting my life back on track!!!

Heading to WW tomorrow

This seriously has to be the last time i have a do over, a first day etc.  Tomorrow morning after taking my son to school I will go for an offical WI at weight watchers.  I need to make sure that I go weekly and be accountable.

I will get back into exercise like I was before.  I will track what I eat and make the cleanest choices as possible.  I am tried of feeling so unhealthy.

Here is do the beginning of a challenge that needs to be done!!

Breakdown

I am sure that due to my lack of blogging that one can tell I fell off the wagon.  I totally did a face plant and it took me a long time to get back up.  I was kicking and screaming all the way but then I realized I needed to get up.  I almost landed back on my face tonight but thankfully my husband walked in to the house which stopped me from eating what I was going too.

I did pretty good eating today.  I could have done a bit better but overall I am pleased with how I did.  I pretty much have my menu for the week made out.  It will involve some cooking on wednesday but being prepared with lunch foods really does help me stay on track.  I ran 3K today.  Tomorrow morning I need to drag my ass out of bed and try to do 5K.

Here is to eating clean again and to get back to my happy, healthy weight.

Feeling good

I had a great 2nd day and now we are getting towards the end of day 3 of being back on the healthy eating wagon.  I stuck with what I had planned to eat at work tonight and had nothing more.  That is a huge thing for me as I have been snacking so much on my night shifts.  I just need to come prepared and just fuel my body with what it needs not what my mind wants.

When I got up I was feeling sluggish and was debating on going for my run or not.  I laced up my sneakers and off I went for a pretty good 4K run.  I did have one walk break but I pushed myself to keep going to finish off at 4K which is what I had planned.  Tomorrow I need to get up at 7 and head in to the city to go to a bootcamp class at 8.  I am excited about going to my 2nd one.  I need to make sure that I go 2-3x/week. 

Mentally I am feeling awesome.  It is so crazy how much food affects my mood.  It makes sense though that I feel awful when I put crap food into my body.  I just need to remember this.

I really hope that I can keep this up and i know if I do that I will reach the mini goal I have before we go to Vegas :)

Day 1 completed...on to day 2

Well I had a great 1st day to my "recovery".  I did have Kashi bars as a trigger food to avoid but I have changed my mind on that.  I need to keep kashi bars and diet coke as a food I can have once/day.  I think that will help if I limit myself with these foods.  If I find that it is not working and too much of a temptation I will remove these from my diet.

I was able to sleep in today since my husband is taking a personal day.  We started out on a run together but he didn't make it all the way.  I did 3K which is what I am supposed to do according to my training.  I can't remember if I mentioned this yesterday but I signed up for a race in March.  Around the Bay which is 30K.  I did it last year and will do it again this year.  I am starting my training now so that I will feel ready for this race.  I was not ready for it last year at all.

I had a very good apple last night.  Honey Crisp.  I don't have them too often and it tasted so good.  I will have to buy myself a couple of them to have.  I need to make sure I have enough snacks tonight at work. 

I will try my best to stay on this road to recovery.  I want to make it work.

confession...and a new start

I was thinking of starting a new blog but I changed my mind and will just continue with this one.  I am sure that if anyone reads this blog they would know that I have many issues when it comes to food.  I am a binge eater.  I find that I eat even though I am not hungry.  I can eat large quantities of food and not even really taste what I am eating.  I tend to try and do this in privacy.  I even eat foods that are not a 10 in my mind when it comes to taste.  I need to change, and change now.

I really feel that it is an addiction that I have and I have not really been taking it seriously.  The last couple of days have been really bad.  I felt unwell both physically and mentally.  I had a breakdown yesterday and it made me realize that I need to change.

I know what my trigger foods are and i need to stay away from them:

Kashi bars - not that bad but when eaten in large quantitiees they are
trail mix
chips - any form of chips
popcorn
chocolate - any type of milk chocolate
candy
cookies- any type
any type of white bread, pasta, rice etc
muffins
popsicles
cake/cupcakes
I think that anything with sugar in it is a trigger food for me and I need to avoid it.  I know I won't be perfect with everything but really with the list of foods above I do not need them to sustain my life and will do my best to avoid them.

I am starting this journey today.  I will try to post daily about how I am doing daily.
Today I have started off well.  I went for a 4K run and then I came home and had some greek yogurt with strawberries, kiwi and slivered almonds.  For lunch I am going to have some trukey chili from the eat clean diet cookbook.  I am going to have to go and get some groceries today so that I will have lots of options for healthy snacks.

I am going to get back to my healthy, happy weight.

Tomorrow...

This has to be my last first day.  I am going to get myself back on track tomorrow.  I am feeling so gross and my energy is so depleted  I really want to get back to my happy weight and by me starting my first day every day and failing to stick to healthy eating is starting to affect me mentally. 

So starting tomorrow I will eat clean and start my daily exercise again.  I want to be in shape and I know that if I am good I will have the 15 lbs off before going to vegas!!

I WILL DO IT.

it has been a while...

I can't believe that August 6th was the last time i posted anything.  I am still trying to get this vegas challenge going on the right track.  Today will be day 2.  Yesterday I went for a 5K run and today was my first day at a new bootcamp class which was tougsh and lots of fun.  It reminds me a lot of J's class.  It was about 40 min long and you are going at full intensity the entire time.  My plan is to go back wednesday.  I don't think that I should do it 2 days in a row.  I will try to do 3x/week, and if it means 2 days in a row I will but for this week I will have some breaks in between.  Tomorrow will be a 5 or 6K run.  I am going to kick my butt into gear so that I look and feel good for vegas and that I get myself on the right track for reaching my happy weight. 

As far as eating goes I am going to count my points but choose clean options.  I need to stay away from certain foods;
trail mix, cookies, chips, candy, digestive cookies, regular peanut butter, graham crackers, etc.  I know what foods are clean and which ones aren't. 

Tomorrow we are going out for lunch for one of the girls at work.  I already know what I am going to have.  I am going to split it in 2 and have some for lunch and some for supper.  I will hopefully be able to get the NI and figure out the points value.  I also have a concert tomorrow evening.  Should be fun.

I have tried to space my meals out every 3 hrs so it meant I had a late lunch so supper won't be until 6 or 630.

Looking forward to getting myself back on track.

A beautiful monday

Vegas challenge offically is starting today.  I started out today thinking that I would get a walk in at some point but I pounded the pavement with a 5K run :)  Very happy that I made that choice because as I type this post I feel great.  I work the next 2 nights so hopefully I will have some willpower and stay on the wagon.  I have quit smoking in the past so I should be able to kick the sugar and junk food habit too.

Tomorrow will be one of those days that I need to run and do strength training.   I should try and do 3K when I get home and then when I get up from my sleep I will go to the gym. 

I will keep you posted daily how the challenge is going.

Vegas Challenge

So the husband and I will be heading to vegas Nov 1st.  I am going to challenge myself to eat as clean as possible, track my points and exercise everyday.  Today I felt like crap :(  My period is coming so I feel bloated and yesterday evening I ate pretty bad.  I need to stop binging.  It is so not good for me to do it both mentally and physically.  I always feel like CRAP after I have done it and into the next day.

Wish me luck on this challenge.

Day 3 - challenge

So I did an OT shift last night and I thought I packed enough food but I was wrong.  I had a couple of extra things and they may not have been the best choices but they werent my worst choices either.  My big challenge was when I was driving home.  I literally debated with myself the entire drive home on whether or not I would stop and get some junk to eat while I watched big brother before going to bed.  Yeah me I did not make that stop.  I had a Kashi bar which was a much better choice then what I would have made.  Today my food intake has been good.  It helps when you sleep almost the entire day away (well Until 2pm).  I just hope that I can sleep tonight.  I am pretty sure that I will be able too.

Another debate I was having is that because it was so warm when I woke up I did not go for a run.  It kind of threw me for a loop since I am just getting back to my training.  I just came in from doing a bootcamp in our backyard which was a good workout and showed me how out of shape I am.  I need to remember that and slowly build myself up.  I don't think it will take long but I need to not go crazy.  The next 3 days I will run.  4k tomorrow, then 3K and on thursday I will attempt my long run of 9K :)  I need to rock this run and remember that I will have a very yummy breakfast at cora's after.

Well I am actually going to head to bed.  I am going to read until 9 and then lights out.  I really hope for a smooth transition from nights to days.

Day 2

So yesterday was my first offical day of being back on track for the millionith time.  I need to really do this.  The scale keeps creeping up and I had made a promise to myself not to allow that to happen.  Yesterday was also my offical start date for training for my 6th half marathon.  So what better way to start the training then to get my eating back on track too.

I ran 3K today and man was it ever humid out.  I was so sweaty when I got back.  Oh well I actually had a pretty fast run for me.  I did it in under 20 min which I haven't done in a very long time.  I was supposed to have bootcamp but I guess it was raining when the intructor got up and since it is outside on the grass she was taking no chances of someone getting hurt.  So my first day of doing  a bootcamp style workout is going to be tuesday before work.  I have one made up that I will try to do.  I need to get this style exercise back in my life.  I really want to do it 3x/week.  I am going to do it.  I want to feel better for when we head down east for our vcay which is going to be here before I know it!!

I made a protein pancake this morning with a new mix.  I thought I was buying just good ol' oatmeal but it also has some bran and flax seed in it.  It almost tasted healthier.  I am working tonight so for supper at work I am making my fave which is pasta (1/2 c whole wheat), veggies, salsa and a wally parr sausage (all meat no preservatives added).

Well wish me luck.  I just need to stay focused for the week and then hopefully the scale will have good results for me next saturday.

Reality Check

Yesterday was a bit of a reality check for me.  I didn't really have many options as to what to wear to the concert I was going too and I really felt like a blob.  Thinking back 2 years ago to how excited I was that I basically could go in to any store and buy whatever I wanted to and I felt great.  I am going to get back to that feeling.  I am the only one that can make it happen and I will.  I need to stop making excuses and eating all that crap.  I don't need it at all and why put it in my body.  I need to respect my body and it will respect me back.

Today I will spend it thinking about foods that I can eat, making a grocery list and at some point going to the grocery store.  I am going to stop having a big snack before bed.  My goto dessert about an hour after supper will be banana soft serve.  It is pretty tasty and if I feel like it I will add a bit of PB to it if I have the points.

I need to focus on tracking and making exercise a daily part of my life.  I need to really focus on my training for the half marathon in october.  I have printed off my go to training routine and will start it tomorrow (my tummy feels off so I may just go for a walk today). 

I need to make sure when I am working nights to have lots of healthy snack options and don't deviated from what I bring. 

I am going to get back to that happy weight I was at, I am so worth the work to accompish that goal!!!

A good first day :)

I know that I only have one day behind me but I did so well with eating yesterday and felt great when I got up this morning.  I headed out for a 5K run too but it was so hot out that I took quite a few walk breaks.  I didn't realize this but it had been 9 days since my last run.  That is terrible.  I love running so much that I am not totally sure why it happened...oh yeah it may have had to do with the fact that my quads were screaming at me from the HIT class I did last tuesday.  I am debating on doing one tomorrow after work.  I guess all I can do is try.  I would love to get a 3K run in before I go to the class.  I guess it all depends on how crazy busy we are at work.  I need to talk to A and tell her I need ideas of what to do on my other 2 days for strength training.

I need to hit up the grocery store for some snacks at work tonight.  I am thinking some veggies and hummus and a kashi bar.  I always get the munchies on my 2nd night and I am not blowing this clean eating challenge I have going on for the next 6 months :)  I was thinking about buying veggies but I will just take what I have here.  I need to watch my money that I spend.

I am so looking forward to having 5 days off.  Hopefully we can get the basement touched up so that we can put the carpet order in.  I really would like to have that done by the end of this month.  my plan was to have it done by the end of june but clearly that did not happen.  We have just been having such great summer weather that who wants to be stuck inside doing that type of work.  We just need a couple of days of rain to get the things done.

I am overall happy with all the things I got done this weekend while I was home alone.  Now the boys are almost home and we will see how quick things get messy again ;)

6 months

I am challenging myself to use the next 6 months left in 2012 to get back to my happy weight.  I will eat clean and train hard.  That is when I feel my best so that is what I will do.  I need to make this a lifestyle change and figure out what triggers me to eat crap food.  I do have a lot of goals for this month.

1.  start half marathon training

2.  Strength train 3x/week

3.  organize my house and keep it clean

4.  stop mindless spending

5.  make weekly menus and shopping lists and stick to them

6.  enjoy this month to its fullest

7.  WI weekly

I will keep you posted on the challgenge

Sugar Addiction

So sugar really is an addictive substance and for me I need to take this seriously.  I need to avoid it. Last night I got into the cookies and ate I don't know how many and ate a bunch of other foods too.  I had been doing so well until the first cookie passed my lips and then it was like I lost control of myself.  I need to grow up and take control of my own life and stop letting this addiction control it.  On a more positive note from yesterday I did a HIT class.  It was an intense workout and I loved it :)  I was so shakey after.  I am a bit sore today but not as bad as I was the first class I did.  I need to get on the runing though.  I will get out there bright and early tomorrow morning before work.

I need to make a grocery list for myself for the week.  I want to have a good OP week and then next tuesday I will head in to get weighed. 

I will beat this sugar addiction and get back to my happy weight.  Now that I have a strength training program kind of in place I know I can do this.

Back to what works

Why is that I spend so much money on different diet programs but then i come back to WW.  Cause WW'ers works.  I still have 4 months left with simply for life.  What I am going to do is use some of the concepts and recipes from simply for life and incorporate points to it.  I think why I am having a hard time sticking with simply for life is that there is such little carbs in the diet.  I need my carbs but will use healthy carbs when I want them for my supper.  Usually I have a sweet potato which I really think is ok to have.  I will have some days without if I find a recipe that I really love...garlicky chicken or beef stirfry.  I am sure over the next 4 months I will find more recipes that I love.  I won't have carbs all the time for supper and in the evening...just when I feel I need them.  While I am working days I won't have them for supper which should be fine.  I am going to make some type of yummy stirfry with the chicken I cooked yesterday for supper.

I went for a 5K run this morning.  I did have some walk breaks...it was so hot out when I went.  I should have gone early this morning.  The next 2 mornings I am going to try and get up nice and early and get a 4K run in before going to work.  I always feel so much better at work when I get some exercise in before work.  I also spoke with A about the HIT program at the gym.  I have decided that I will join.  I will go next tuesday.  The thing that I like is that she gives a strength training program for a month.  That is what I need. 

Well I need to finish up the laundry and then make my lunch and pick up a few things at the grocery store.

Starting Over

I have started a couple of blogs since this one and now I have deleted them all and will just stick to this one as it captures what I am trying to do with my diet.  I am a weight watcher who is trying to eat clean points.  I am still having a lot of issues with this but today I need to put on my big girl panties and get it right.  I need to stop feeling sorry for myself, expecting quick results and being a miserable bi*ch.  That about sums it up.

So today I had some cereal with half a banana and milk.  I am cooking 8 turkey burgers that I love and havent had them for a very long time.  I need to start becoming more creative with my meals.  I need to really stop complaining about my house being so messy and do something about it.  I want to work on this from now and then when we go away in may leave a very clean and fresh house.  I know that living in clutter makes me feel overwhelmed but just like my diet I have to work on it as things don't happen on their own.

I have a grocery list made and will go out today to get them.  I will make sure to do a run today even if I walk some it.  I need to make myself be active everyday.  I will try not to eat after supper unless I am actually hungry.  That would be an awesome habit to break.  do housework after supper instead of just sitting around watching TV.  I have a PVR so I can tape my shows.  i do not need to spend each evening watching TV.  I need to use that time to focus on my family too.  We will maybe start going for little walks or doing things outside now that the weather is nicer.

Here are my goals from now until the monday after the long weekend in may

1.  daily exercise

2.  start weight training with my book

3.  track daily food in ww food tracker

4.  weekly WI's

5.  1 pop/day...no more then that

6.  no eating after supper...unless working nights

7.  clean house and keep clean and organized

8.  spend more time doing family activities

9. eat clean

10.  enjoy life

Have a great monday