now a 6 week challenge

Wow, just 6 weeks now. I really need to get things going in the eating healthy department for many reasons but really 6 weeks until I will be practically living in a swimsuit for a week. Must get this body beach ready and fast. I won't do anything crazy but will continue to exercise pretty much every day (may do extra ab work and make sure that I do weight training too) and eat clean. I am going to go through my clean eating magazines and cut out the samples of the menus to just get an idea of the combinations of foods that I should be having for my meals and snacks. I pretty much know what I have to do but to have those samples to quickly look at will be helpful. I will make sure to always have healthy food options available to me too. I am making a double batch of chili today and making the kasha breakfast pudding too. I will try and get some clean recipe ideas today and add the items to the grocery list (must get groceries on thurs...hope to have enough food until then).

The good news to start my week 1 off is that I go back to work tomorrow. I tend to do a bit better when I am working. I won't have food to eat when i get home after my nights. I will try and just eat what is in my cooler on nights which means I will have to have lots of options. I will go to hot yoga after working my days and will get up and run before heading in on days (unless the weather is really crazy). I found bootcamp hard this morning and it made me realize that I am letting myself go and I need to reign the ropes back in quickly. It is amazing how quickly things can fall apart if you lose your focus on what is truly important which is being healthy.

I am going to go to hot yoga at noon today. I ate pretty good yesterday but I still feel like I have some crap left in my body from friday so it will be nice to sweat it out :) I told my husband yesterday that if I was going to sign up for yoga that I need to take better care of my body with the food consumption. I remember when I lived by this "I wouldn't put crap gas into my car so why do it too my body!!!" MUST REMEMBER THIS!!

Have a great monday.

getting tired

I had a snack tonight but yeah to no binging today :) i hope this is something that will continue. I know that it is expecting a lot but I am going to work really hard to be at 140 when we go away. Once I get to that point I promise myself that I will not let it slip away like I have this time. This really needs to be a lifestyle change :)

night

almost a new month

and again I failed on the getting back on the eating clean wagon. I need to smarten up. They way that I have not been taking care of my body is making me feel like crap. Today I am getting back on track and hopefully you won't hear those words from me again.



Yesterday I had a great 10 K run. I went to where I was doing my longer runs yesterday and it was quite enjoyable. I did have a little scare though. I hit a patch of black ice covered with snow and I did one of those moves where you feet fly out from under you and down I went hard on my butt. I got up quickly brushed myself off and prayed I hadn't hurt anything. That was at the 5Km mark and I was able to do 5K more. At lunch time I went to hot yoga and did the 60 min flow class, great workout. Still having such a hard time with the food but 6 weeks until we go away so I need to buckle down, now!!

Hope everyone had a great weekend.

a goal for myself

I have just over 6 weeks until we go away so I am going to make it my goal to stay OP for those 6 weeks. there is no reason why I can't do it. I need to stop the nighttime eating and find other things to do. I really don't need to fuel my body to sleep. I had great workouts yesterday. I ran 4.6K and did moksha flow. we did a lot of flows at yoga and I actually feel it in my arms and chest today :) Today is a rest day (well except for shoveling and some house work). tomorrow is my long run. why oh why did we have to have a snow storm the day before a long run is scheduled!!!!!! ;)

I sure wish I didn't have to go in to work tomorrow night but we do have to do some pickups and I scheduled mine for a sat night so that my inlaws don't have to babysit.

Again going to use these few days off that I have to try and tidy this house of ours. That is really what I need to do instead of eating!!

Have a great friday.

Running legs

I am really starting to feel like my running legs are coming back :) I ran 4.7 Km on tues and yesterday just a little over 6 Km's. Today when I get up I will aim for 4 Km but it may end up being a bit more. On sat I will be trying to run 10K. I am making it my goal to not have knee issues again and once my mileage is up there to keep it up there by doing a long run each weekend. I am going to train for this half maraton in May. I think that I need to sign up for it soon. doing a bit better with the eating but it still is not perfect. I need to make it better.

That will be all for now. I am so tired and need to go to sleep. I am going to do some hot yoga this afternoon too before picking up my little man at the inlaws. Moksha flow this afternoon - love it :)

9 and 90

9 is how many km's I ran today and 90 is how many minutes of hot yoga I did :) what an awesome day of working out and I feel great. I am sure that I will crash after supper but that is ok. Just as long as I have all my foods ready for the next 2 days. Yep I am heading back to work. My 5 days off went by way to fast.

I am making my good ol' turkey burgers again after taking some time off from them. i can't remember the last time I had them for lunch. Now I will be having them a lot. i think that something that I will start at the beginning of march is spending 1 day to make 3 or 4 things in a lg quantity for my meals. I love just being able to heat up my lunches.

For supper tonight I bought some steak but instead of bbq'ing the steak I cut them up into pieces and am cooking them in my dutch oven. I addes a bit of water and some onion powder. I am making twice baked potato's and some type of veggie for the boys and for me I will add the steak on top of my salad. My salads usually include chopped spinach and lettuce, 1/2 sweet potato, peppers, onion and mushrooms fried up in some coconut oil and of course goat cheese. These are the best salads ever and I could eat them every day and I pretty much do. It is a great way to get a lot of veggies in :)

Tomorrow is a rest day on the exercise front. I am feeling pretty good about the running thing but I don't want to jinx myself. I am going to start to follow the 1/2 marathon training plan like I did before which means more days running. I just love the way that I feel when I am running but really love the feeling I have when I am done. It makes me feel like I have really accomplished something. Now I just need to keep that motivation up on the eating front. No more excuses to not go for my weekly WI's. I weighed myself this morning at home and I will be going for sure on saturday.

Well that is all for now. Have a great sat night everyone.

90 min hot yoga

That is just what I needed this morning. I first ran 4K and was debating which yoga class to take. Since my hubby had the first part of the morning off and was able to drop off my little man I decided to go to the 90 min Moksha class. I am so glad I did. After my night last night I needed it both physically and mentally. I would like to say I have my motivation back in full swing but I will take each day at a time. I need to remember the pain I was in last night and realize how awful I have been to my body that I had worked so hard to make healthy. I will get back to that point but it will be even better now that I have yoga built into it :)

Signs of spring have been here the last couple of days. Warmer temps and melting snow. I know that it is just a teaser but I will take it. I can't wait for the warmer weather to be here. I will make the most of each day since time just flys by!!!

I have a long run planned tomorrow and I may try another 90 min hot yoga class :)

why is it so hard????

the title says it all. Not going into detail. Fresh start tomorrow with a run and then 1 1/2 hrs of hot yoga. Need to do a lot of thinking at the beginning of class.

Excited

I finally have my blog list updated on this blog and no longer have to go between blogs to stay updated. It took a long time to do but now it is done :)

It is mid afternoon and I am so very tired but I can't have a nap :(

I will be having my afternoon snack in a bit. I am holding off since I had lunch a bit later today. My snack will be apple slices and some peanut butter...yummy

After my little mans play group we will have to run to the grocery store to pick up a couple of things. I really wish that we didn't have to go but it should be a quick trip. I need some mushrooms and some shake n bake for his chicken. He has been having a lot of chicken lately. I am excited to head out an get a weeks worth of groceries tomorrow. I am not making the same mistake these 2 weeks of radomly going to the store as I spent so much money doing it that way.

It is that time of the month and I feel gross...bloated + crampy is not fun at all :(

I would love to just curl up in bed with a hot water bottle.

That's all for now. Have a great afternoon.

finding my inner "athlete"

i do believe that I found her last year but she has kind of hid away after my knee had started to bother me and the overweight, lazy girl came back. the athlete is trying so hard to make her way back and kick the "fat girl" out but it is quite the struggle right now. I know that the athlete will win so I just need to start eating and acting more like the athlete. Last night I would say I ate all my flex pts which wasn't really a smart thing to do. I know with WW'ers those pts are allowed but I never used to eat them all and don't want to start now.

I find that when I am overwhelmed with feeling like my house is a disaster (which it really is) I just tend to turn to food instead of doing something about it. I started today off right by getting my dishes done :)

Our trip is just a little over 7 weeks away so I need to promise myself to stick totally to the WW program starting today and have no slip ups what so ever. I need to try and workout every day (not going to happen today as the weather was bad when I was going to go and of course now it is so nice but I don't have anyone to watch the little man).

I need to get some things in order before taking him to his appt today.

I will rock the next 7 1/2 weeks to have a rockin' beach body :)

evening treats

so yesterday I ran 5K and then went to a Moksha flow class (60 min). I have pretty much made up my mind that I will want to continue at moksha yoga. I am loving it so much. On wed I am meeting with my bootcamp leader and seeing if we can work out a different deal then what I had signed up for. I am just not making it to enough classes to be paying for unlimited classes. I still want to stay for a year but I feel like I am paying way to much. i think that I will be able to get somwhat of a deal since we have changed locations and there are not nearly as many classes available. I will even sign on for a year if we change what I am doing now. I do love bootcamp a lot and I think that I will be able to at least make 1 class/week and sometimes the 2 early morning classes. I just hope that it doesn't cause any issues.

My run yesterday went pretty good. I am so aware of how the lt side of my body feels that any twinge or anything I get paranoid. all the stretches etc that I have been doing is helping for sure.

My food intake has been excellent since the 10th. I resisted temptations my last 2 nights at work which i am proud of. The one thing that I would like to change is my eveing snack. I tend to usually have my oatmeal snack but want to come up with other yummy options. Things that involve peanut butter :) Speaking of peanut butter I am going to have to make a trip into goodness me today and pick up a couple of jars. They do have the best natural curnchy pb and I am all out. I need to start putting the date of when I open a jar so I know how long it takes me to finish the jar. I am going to try and make it so it lasts longer. I do tend to eat it too much.

Today my workout was 45 min of bootcamp. I would love to go to the noon hour moksha class but I have a waxing appt which I really should not miss. I am going to have to schedule a wax appt, pedicure and hair appt to correspond with the timing that we are going away. Less then 8 weeks until we go. i sure hope the scale starts dropping soon. We did planks and side planks today at bootcamp...I need to work on my abs every other day. Tomorrow I am going to run 4K and then friday morning I am going to go to a spin class which I am excited about. I have never done it before but am all for trying new things. I will have to get up nice and early though to make sure that I am able to get a bike. I just hope that I will survive the class ;)

Lots of things to do today. Hope to get them accoplished.

Rest Day :)

I took a rest day today and didn't feel too guilty about it. I should have a rest day since yesterday I did run 9K and did a 60 min hot yoga class. Tomorrow will be a 5K run and another yoga class. I am becoming addicted to yoga which may not be a great thing for my pocket book but that is ok since I find it really help me physically and mentally.

This is day number 5 that I am working on of being "clean from my addiction". I feel so amazing now that my eating is under control again. I feel it physically and mentally which is awesome. I need to stay on the wagon and make this a permanent lifestyle change. I weighed myself this afternoon when I got up and I need to not do that again until Friday. I am going to try to not focus so much on what the numbers say but how I feel and how my clothes feel on me.

I have one more night shift then I am off for 5 days. I am working on a 8 day pay so I don't need to pick any shifts up which is always a bonus. I guess I could though and bank the hrs. I haven't had any calls lately so I don't know if I will get any.

Well I must be off to work. I have my cooler filled with snacks as my 2nd night I do have the munchies so I am trying to be well prepared :)

9K

Yeah me. I was going to crawl back in to bed this morning but I did my run early as planned. I did 9K and had no knee pain :) Then at noon I headed downtown and tried Moksha flow for the first time - loved it. I think that today was my most fave class so far and I loved the intructor.

We are having a bistro at work tonight for someones birthday. I need to stay focused and remember that just because I am at a "party" does not mean that I have to give in to my "addiction" . I am bringing my own supper which will be chili over a sweet potato. I just hope that people do bring a fruit and veggie tray. It is easier when that stuff is available.

Tomorrow for exercise I am planning on going to the gym when I get up but need to be back in time for my physio appt.

Well I am going to try and nap now.

3 days now...

since I came forth as being addicted to binge eating and 3 days that I have been "clean" I am having a bit of an issue tonight as I am home alone. I really should go to bed soon. I am tired and when i get over tired I tend to want to eat.

I am hoping to have a good long run tomorrow morning before heading to church. keeping my fingers crossed.

I will be doing hot yoga again tomorrow.

night.

Addiction

I did a lot of reading on binge/overeating disorders and I for sure fall into that category :( So today I am admitting that to myself and I realize that I need to fight this addiction as I would if I was addicted to drugs or alcohol.

my name is Rebekah and I am a binge eater. I will get on the wagon today and begin my journey to overcome this addiction.

There I said it and I owe it to myself and those around me to beat this addiction.

That being said, yesterday I went to Moksha yoga. This was different then the Stretch, Sweat and Unwind session I did sunday night as there were more poses to be done. I actually did ok which surprised me since this was my first time doing a lot of the poses. I am heading there again tonight to do a SSU class. I am hoping to come home, shower, do a bit of blog reading and fall asleep fast since the class is at 9pm and I have to work tomorrow.

I made 2 different things from the eat clean cookbooks. One is the kasha breakfast pudding which I love and this time I actually made it the right way (the other times i put too much apple in it) and then making a soup - maui black bean soup. I sure hope the soup turns out. That is what I am taking for my lunches the next 2 days.

I ran 4.6 K today with no knee pain - yeah. I sure hope that this is the start of being able to run without pain.

Must be going now. Need to finish my soup and start our supper.

Realizing Something

I think that I talked about this before but a big part of my problem is I keep thinking about where I was with my weight in the fall. Yes that is where I want to be again but I have 20 lbs to come off to be at that point. I need to remember the weight will not just fall off and I need to work hard at it to be at that point again. I was training for my 2nd half marathon and my foods for the most part were clean. The one issue that I did have back then too was the binge eating which is something I really need to work on. I know that yesterday it was like once I started I could not stop.

Like I have said before it is like an addiction to me and I really need to work hard to overcome this addiction. I have never beat it before, even at my smallest. I know that if I work hard to beat this addiction I will have the weightloss success. Today is my startover day on the no binge eating wagon. Join my on this life long journey as I will be working very hard to beat it!!!!

enough is enough

The title says it all. I won't go into all the details of what it means since anyone that reads this blog would probably be able to guess what it means.

I NEED TO TAKE BETTER CARE OF MYSELF. I AM WORTH IT!!!!!

Up early this morning and went to bootcamp. I almost didn't go but yeah me I did go. I was up anyways since a little person fell asleep so early last evening that he was up around 4:30 this morning and crawled into bed with us. The little monkey has fallen back to sleep though. I will probably let him sleep until almost 8, get him dressed etc for school and then he can have some breakfast and watch a show on TV and then we will be one our way to the school.

Moksha yoga is where I will be heading today. the class I will be attending is different then the first one I went too. I think that this one will have more yoga poses so we will see how I make out. I am looking forward to having a great sweat session :) I really hope that I like it. Tomorrow will be my first run outside in about a week. I am hoping that it goes ok. I will be doing 4K. I really need to get serious about my training again for a half marathon!!!!

A little less then 9 weeks until our trip so I am going to stay focused on tracking my food intake and watching what I put in my mouth. I am going to try and keep things as clean as possible. I felt so great when I was eating clean that I need to get back on track with that. I am going through different options for lunches and I think that I will stick with soups for now during the colder months. Once things warm up I may break out the good ol turkey burger recipe. I am going to make a soup that is in one of my clean eating cookbooks after dropping the little man off at school. Not quite sure what I will be having for lunch today. I may end up having a snack around 10: 15 and then lunch once I get back after hot yoga which will be later in the afternoon which means a late supper for me which is ok since M has his group here tonight.

I am hoping to get a bit of cleaning done and pick up a few grocery items once I figure out exactly what we need. I need to get better about getting weekly groceries too instead of just going every couple of days. I know that htings add up when I do it that way.

I will post more later on the soup I will be making, how the food intake was today and of course how moksha yoga was.

catch ya later.

a bit of a slip

So today I ate more then I really had planned to. I will stay more focused starting right now. Tomorrow I will go to bootcamp and then go to hot yoga at noon. I need to stay focused to get this weight off!!! Enough is enough there is no need of me failing at this. I did so well before and I know thtat I still have it in me.

all I really have to say

Moksha Yoga :)

I am now starting my 5 days off. I must say that I had an awesome set at work.

I have been hitting up the gym the last couple of days. Yesterday I did 30 min of interval training on the treadmill and some strength training. Today when I got up I ran for 55 min on the treadmill = 8.3 km. I had no knee pain at all :) This evening I went to moksha yoga where i did 60 min of the stretch, sweat and unwind class. AWESOME. It is hot yoga and the class I attended di a lot of stretching moves which is just what I needed after 2 great workouts and my 4 days of work. I don't think I have ever sweated to much in my life. I was wet everywhere.

Not quite sure what I will do for a workout tomorrow. I am going to the states with a friend. I may or may not go to WW for my weekly WI. Tuesday morning I will be going to hot yoga again.

Watching the super bowl right now and then will be ready for bed.

Feb 1st...a fresh start

Here we go with the 2nd part of my 10 week challenge...to stay OP and eat mostly clean for the entire month. Last night I had a bit of a slip in the evening after I blogged. I should have just gone to bed. I really need to go to bed earlier then I have been. My eating seems to happen a lot in the evenings when I am tired and just sitting around. Go to bed or do less sitting around in the evenings!!! My husband was so awesome this morning. I woke up being a bitch and he told me to go to the gym. I wasn't going to go but finally I did and am so happy that I did :) I did 45 min on the treadmill. 5 min warm up 30 min run (4.8KM) 5 min at 4.0 for walking and then a 5 min cool down. I need to just suck it up and go to the gym in the early mornings until the roads are better for running outside. i know that if I stick to this for a month my motivation will peak again and it really needs to so I can be one of the hot chicks on the beach in punta cana ;)

I had a nice bowl of oatmeal this morning. I have been trying to find some Kefir but I am thinking that we are having some issues getting it in to the hamilton area this week. I will just use the rest of my almond milk for the recipe I am going to make and hopefully the recipe will turn out or I will wait until friday to make it. i do have a box of go lean crunch that I can take to work the next 2 days. I am going to try and cut back a bit on my peanut butter consumption. Once I get my kasha breakfast pudding made then I will try and have it just once a day ; we will se how that goes.

I had a look at the showers at the gym this morning before I left and I think that with some flip flops I will be able to do the whole shower thing before going to work. I need to remember that it will be just 2 days/week and sometimes not even that. Gym showers kind of gross me out but sometimes you just have to suck it up. Working out is important to me right now so unless I want to go to work a sweaty, stinky mess I will do the shower thing. I will let you all know how that goes ;)

I am hoping to get the rest of the laundry done today. with being sick I did not get the house work done that I wanted to get done. I will focus on the laundry and kitchen/dinning room and maybe do the bathroom when K takes the kids to his parents tonight.

I really need to get my act together!!!!