New Blog in the New Year

I am thinking of starting a new blog for 2014.  It is going to be about my journey to becoming clean in 2014.  I need to do this for my sanity and for my family.  I am just so miserable when I don't eat healthy and when I don't exercise everyday.  I am training for 2 races in March which hopefully will help with the running part of things.  I do need to start doing the mini bootcamps again.  I need to do this at least 3x/week.  I can do it in my own house which should not be hard. 

I really need to get my shit together too when it comes to finances and my house.  We will be having a house cleaner come in 1/week to do some basic cleaning (wash floors, clean bathroom, vacuum etc).  This person is helping us out with our son as he is changing schools so this way she does that and cleans my house (will make some money from doing both).  It actually will be nice to have someone do this for me and maybe overall I will keep my house much more tidy then it has been. 

I know that we need to purge too in this house.  We need to just take a day or too and just do it.  We have so much stuff in this house that we don't use that I don't get why we are keeping it.  I am pretty sure that we will participate in the town wide yard sale this year.  We have quite a few toys that I would like to get rid of. 

I have a team dinner tonight at the Keg.  I have a dd so I will enjoy a couple of glasses of wine :)

New Year

I can't believe how quickly this year has gone.  Yesterday I did ok getting back on track.  I wasn't perfect but I did ok.  I am hoping for a better day today.  I have a couple of appts today which kind of ruined my day in a way.  The 1st apt is waxing though and I must admit I am always a happy girl when this is done :)

I need to make sure to get a couple of meals done for my 2 days at work.  Really all I need to figure out is what to have for my lunches.  Breakfast and supper are pretty easy.

not much else to report.  My hamstring is pretty sore so I am hoping my run tomorrow will be ok.  I will do my best to get up early to run.  I actually loved running yesterday morning really early.  It is nice to have it done.

ENOUGH with the excuses

once again I have not been doing very good with getting myself on track.  when I follow a healthy diet I feel amazing, when I don't I feel awful.  Why would one do something that makes them feel awful.  It does not make any sense to me at all.

I am going to do my best to stay on track for the remainder of December and start the new year off at a healthier weight then I am right now.  Plus I am going to start training for my half marathon and 30K race in March.  Can't put off the exercise and eating healthy any longer.

Today started off good with an 11K run.  Wasn't done at a time I would have liked but I am happy to say that I actually did 11K.  On Saturday I want to get 14K in.  I do have that 10 miler on boxing day and want to be somewhat prepared for it.

Restart

I am not sure exactly what happened this week but I am doing a restart of my week 1 of the SFL cleanse.  I just lost my focus.  I think it may have been because I was having some issues with a lump on the roof of my mouth.  I am pretty sure it is an abcess.  For about 4 days it was so painful.  I went to the dentist on Monday morning and he put me on antibiotics and I have another appt with him tomorrow.  I need to stop focusing on the fact that I did not do well and make up for it by getting back on track.  This means plan my weekly menu with the meal ideas on the list and preparing them in advance.

I had not run for 5 days either.  I can't remember the last time I went that long without running.  I did 4k today and it was hard.  I need to get my act together since I am doing a 10 mile race on Dec 26th.  I MUST run 10K on Saturday!!!!!!

I can't believe that Christmas is almost here.  I need to start making lists of cmas presents and do some deep house cleaning.  I actually would like to have people over during the holidays this year which might happen since I have 5 days off between cmas and new years.

well I should be going now.  I need to get that menu made and a grocery list done up.

Day 3

So today is day 3 of starting the 3 month simply for life program.  So far I am enjoying it.  I know that once I start week 2 I hope to have my lunch and supper meals prepped in advance.  Right now I am making a potato and spinach salad which should be interesting.  I hope that I like it.  If not there are other options that I can try for week 2.

On the exercise front I have done 3 runs in a row.  6K, 4K and 5K.  Tomorrow I am hoping to do a mini bootcamp workout before going to work.  I need to add something like this to my workouts.  I am so determined to get this weight off.  I want to have no issues with going to stores and buying clothes, and to be able to wear some of the things I wore when I lost all the weight before.

The scale is heading in the right direction.  I will try not to weight myself again until Monday when I have complete 1 full week of the program. 

Well I must go shower and pick up a few things at the grocery store to finish my lunch. 

Simply for Life Day #1

So last year I had bought a 6 month program from simply for life.  I followed it off and on so when I saw they were offering a 3 month program I jumped on it.  I need a jump start in my weight loss and I know when I followed the program pretty good for the first 3 weeks I had great success.  So today is day #1 of starting this program.  I did a 6K run as well since I need to be ready for my 10 mile race on boxing day :)  I have just under 40 lbs to lose and I am determined to reach this goal.  I need to stop the binge eating (so not good for me and the food I eat doing these binges are just crap...plus I need to set a better example for my son).

I just go back from a trip to LA/Vegas.  I ate not too bad on the trip but lots of drinks were consumed.  I didn't gain any weight though which is a bonus!!  Last year when I got back I had put on over 5 lbs I think.

As part of this program I do a 3 week cleanse which is supposed to help reduce any cravings that I might have.  I love that it basically tells you what to eat which will be very helpful for me.  The other thing that I will need to do is prepare my meals in advance so I just need to reheat.  I tend to nibble if I don't have my meals already made.

I will try to keep my blog updated weekly with my results.

How a bad race turn into something positive

Yesterday I did my 7th half marathon.  I actually loved the set up for this race and the atmosphere (love racing spectators) but my time really sucked.  I know why I had such a bad time for this race...my nutrition sucked and my training was maybe 60%.  I am just happy I finished this race.  a couple of weeks ago I said to my husband that I probably shouldn't run this race.  Even with a bad time I am just happy that I ran and completed it.  My goal for next year is to finish a half marathon in under 2 hrs.  Do I think that I can do this...I do.  I finished my 2nd half in 2hrs and 7 min so I know that it is possible.  train smart (log in the miles and eat clean), cross train (bootcamp exercises) and keep a positive attitude.  I have a 10 mile race in December, pobably will do the chilly half in march as well as the around the bay (30K).  I am not sure if I will do the scotia bank one next year (will all depend on what my schedule is).  It would be fun to do some new races too.  One thing for sure is that I need a new pair of sneakers and some compression socks.  I would love to have had them yesterday and for the next few days.  I am feeling ok today but yesterday was a different story.

My diet has been soso.  That is the story of my life.  If I want to get more serious with my running my nurtrition needs to improve a great deal.  Need to have the majority of my eats being clean!!!

I have just 2 shifts and then off again for 5 days. 

7 weeks

OMG i can't believe that I have let 8 weeks of time to eat healthy slip by.  Oh well, I just need to be extra diligent for the next 7 weeks. I have a goal in mind but really i know that if I eat healthy foods and exercise for these next 7 weeks I will feel good mentally and physically despite what the scale says.  Wish me luck!!!

I need to take advantage of the extra day off I have this week.  What it means is I actually have 5 full days off.  I need to clean and cook.  I plan on making 2 or 3 soups this week.  They make such an easy lunch for me at work.  I will make 1 a day.  I think for today I will make the roasted sweet potato soup and buy a chicken so I can cut it up to add protein to the soup.  It would be nice to have my fall cleaning done this week!!!

Well I need to finish my breakfast and tackle the kitchen.  That is the first thing I need to work on.

some days good, some very bad, some in between

This basically sums up how I have been doing on the healthy eating front.  LA and vegas will be here before I know it and I don't want to worry about my weight so I am recommiting today to get back to eating as clean and healthy as possible and tracking my food intake.  This means that I will have to menu plan for each week so that I have an idea of what I am going to eat during the week.  I do have 3 days that I will be having a girls getaway and I don't know if it will be rude or not but I am brining a cooler with my own food in it.  I am taking this serious and I am sure my friends will respect me for this choice (I am sure as long as I drink with them they won't care what i eat ;)  ).

Not much really planned this long weekend and I think we will just play it by ear.  I can't believe that tomorrow is Sept 1st and the kids go back to school on tues.  I found the summer went by pretty fast.  This is going to be a great fall though.  a bunch of concerts to go to, the girls getaway, trip to LA and Vegas and another half marathon (which I need to get more serious with my training).

Hope everyone has a great long weekend.

Eating healthy

So I am day 4 of getting back on track with eating and I feel so much better.  I avoided all the junk food that was at work last night and when I weighed myself this morning I am so happy that I did.
When I go away next week for boots and hearts I need to keep make smart choice with my food consumption.  I know that drinking will be involved and I want to be able to do that so I need to make those smart food choices.

I went for a 5K run when I got up today.  I had to get up early today because of an appt and going to a concert tonight.  I found my legs were so heavy which is not an uncommon feeling when I go for a run post nights.

Well I must be going now.  I need to make a smart food choice at the Keg tonight.

15 weeks til LA and Vegas

I still have 30 lbs to get off and now I have this big trip to use as a motivator and goal date.  I have a lot of events in the next few weeks so I am going to suck it up and just prepare meals for myself and not really care what others think of this.  I am doing it for myself as I am much happier when I eat healthy.

I have to get up extra early tomorrow so I can get my long run in.  I really wish I had done it today but it didn't happen so I will have to suck it up and do it tomorrow.  I will have to be out the door by 5 in order to complete it and give myself some walk time if needed.

On tuesday before my PT session I will go to WW and WI and get a new tracker.  I just need to be more diligent with counting my points as that works best for me (and eat clean points).

I hope that in 15 weeks that my post before going away will have me at my goal weight!!!!

Pep Talk

Today I am getting back on track and started the day off with a 4K run.  It was a much better run then I had the other day which I am very thankful for.  It is crazy how food intake and hydration play such an important role.  I am really hoping that me heading back to work will help out with getting my food consumption back on track.  I actually got on the scale this morning (after breakfast and a coffee so not a true weight) and was a bit disappointed but not surprised).  I know that on the 30th I will be partying but can still keep my food healthy but up until then I need to really be focused.  I really want this weight that I have put on in the last couple of weeks to come off and I know that it will if I eat clean and exercise.

I still need to work on that training schedule that I have been talking about.  I think that I will make monday my offical start date and go from there.  I am hoping I can get my butt out of bed at least 1 of my 2 days over the weekend to run.  I really would like both days but we will see how it goes.

I am going to have all my meals planned for while at work which always helps.  I made an awesome smoothie yesterday and will try to make that a snack instead of a kashi bar since they make me want to have a whole bunch of them which I know is not healthy at all. I am going to do some research into healthy smoothies.

Well must get some lunch.  Have a great weekend.

Need to take a step back

So I had all these great plans for June and I seemed to put them all on the back burner.  I am going to take today and tomorrow to try and get my focus back.  Get back into the regular exercise, tracking what I eat, try to eat as clean as possible, drink more water, get the house organized somewhat before going back to work on Saturday (clean kitchen, bathroom's and try to have the laundry done and put away).  There is no reason why I can't acheive those goals in the next 2 days.  Because my eating hasn't been the best I am really starting to feel it.  I need to get more serious with it so that I can have a great race in October.  Tomorrow will be the offical start date of my training so I need to work on a training plan today.

I had a great day yesterday with some girls from work.  I had a bit too much sun and too much to drink.  I was at A's from 1130-8pm.  what an awesome day.  I am having the next pool party so I need to keep my house somewhat presentable so I am not frantically cleaning the day before the party.

Well I must get ready to go for my PT session.  It has been almost 2 weeks so it will kill me but in a good way.

Goals for June

I can't believe that it will be June 1st tomorrow. CRAZY how fast time is going by.  Since my time off is coming to an end my 1st goal will be to have my house organized much better by the time I go in to work on thursday.

1.  Have house clean and organized.  Keep it that way as I will try and have people over on my days off to enjoy the pool.  I think that I need to have some adult company on my days off.

2.  Meal prep and weekly menus.  This will help out with the eating and to keep the daily trips to the gorocery store to a minimum.

3.  Be more mindful of my spending habits.

4.  Eat Clean

5.  Exercise Daily

6.  Weekly WI's at WW

7.  Date night with my husbansd.

8.  Exercise with my little man and get his eating under control.  Keeping him somewhat busy should help with that

I can't think of any more right now.  Have a great Friday.  I am having lunch at Chuck's Burger Bar and then heading to TO to see Brad Paisley.  Very excited for a concert night :)

Getting back on track

I ate pretty good yesterday but I think my snack in the evenings is getting a little out of hand.  I need to cut back on the nuts and the peanut butter.  I need to have one or the other mixed with my yogurt and banana.  It actually is hurting my stomach by having too much of it.

I had a pretty good workout yesterday with my PT.  He took it kind of easy on me since I had ran the half the day before.  I have another session tomorrow and I am sure he won't be as easy on me.  I was going to take today as a rest day but I ended up running 6K instead.  It was a fast for me 6K.  I actually felt pretty good through the run until my stomach starting hurting at the very end of the run.  Not quite sure what is going on with the tummy issues.  My PT session is in the afternoon so I will try and do a 4K run in the morning after dropping the little man off at school.

I am really procastinating doing house work,  what else is new.  Hope every one is having a great tuesday.

The last 20

20 lbs is how much I have left to lose to be at a healthy weight for my height.  It may take some time to get the weight off but as long as the scale does not go up I will be happy.  I will eat as clean as possible and exercise daily.  I have been doing a lot of BLTs lately so I need to be more mindful of that.  The calories consumption can really increase with this mindless snacking.

I offically signed up for my next half marathon.  I signed up for the scotiabank half in Toronto in october.  I think that will be a crazy race.  I think that 12000 people can sign up for it.  Kevin and I will have to stay over night again for this race.  I really hope to get a hotel pretty close to the start line.  I really want to PR this race which means I need to do awesome with my eating and training.

Not much more time off before I head back to work.  It feels like it has been forever since I have worked.  I took so much time off to make sure my little man is ok and for me.  His illness took so much out of me that I want to make sure that I can give 100% to my work when I am there.  it will be kind of nice to be back at it again.

Have a great monday.

Post Race

So today was my 6th half marathon.  I actually did ok.  My time was 2:22:54.  The last 3 half marathons that I did I ran in 2:30 (I think).  The race was ok but what I found is for the parking it wasn't the best and the actualy course there were parts that we pretty narrow for all the runners.  I don't think that I would run that race again.  I am thinking about my next race though.  I am going to sign up for the scotia bank half in october.  I will havle to take 2 v-days though.  I have that time so I guess I will take it for that race.  I am going to work hard on improving my time. 

I have PT session tomorrow  Not quite sure how that will feel the day after my race.  I cancelled my last session so I am going to make sure that I go tomorrow. 

Tomorrow I will be getting back on track with the eating too.

Race Week

I can't believe that my 1/2 marathon is just a few days away.  I have done quite a few races I think for the time that I have been running.  This is my 5th 1/2 Marathon...my 1st was in Aug 2010.  I am feeling ok for this race.  I know that I won't PR it but I am feeling pretty good that it won't be my worst time.  I think for my next 1/2 marathon (hopefully we have one in my community over thanksgiving again...need to look in to that or I will have to find another one for the fall) I will work more on speed.  I am hoping that I won't drop my long runs below 10K.  I don't want to have to start over each time I start training for a race.  I am hoping to be able to do the around the bay next year.  I did it 2 years ago and I was not ready for it at all.  This year I am hoping that my training goes well and that I am at a good weight for me.

Speaking of weight, to be at that happy, healthy weight I have just 20 lbs left to lose.  I really do not want to put weight back on again.  That was such a dissapointment when the weight came back on and it has taken a lot of work to start getting it off again.  I was so miserable when I was eating unhealthy.  I MUST REMEMBER THIS.  I need to be a good example for my little boy.  I see really bad eating habits in him already...eating big portions and eating out of boredom.  I am trying to work on that.  He is going to have soccer 2 eveings a week, plus swimming, plus gymmies when school is done should be good for activity level...just really work on the food consumption. 

I have a couple more weeks til I go back to work and I really want to have my house in good shape by the time I go back.  I want to live in a clean and organized house.  That will mean weekly cleanings.  with my work schedule this seriously should be no problem.  I just need to get the big cleaning done in these 2 weeks and then the weekly cleaning won't be as bad.  We so need to purge big time.  Hopefully we will get some of that done this summer.

Have a great Thursday.
 

An Update

It had been a very long time since I have made a post.  The reason for that was my son became very sick back in April, the day before we were to fly to Florida and head out on our disney cruise.  I won't go into the details of his illness but am happy to report that he is doing very well with his recovery and it is almost a blessing that he doesn't seem to remember that we were supposed to go on the cruise and has not mentioned it at all.  He may recall it if he sees a disney commercial on TV but so far that has not happened.

While he was in the hospital I made sure to take care of myself.  This included eating well and still doing my training for my half marathon.  If I had not kept this up I am sure that I would have been more of a mess then I was.  It just goes to show how exercise and eating healthy sometimes are the treatment that we need to keep us mentally strong.

My race is just 12 days away and I actually feel ready for it.  I know I won't PR this race but i will be able to run it and not feel like I am dying.  I have taken a few weeks of from personal training because of what was going on so I am heading back for a session today.  I am sure tomorrow I won't be able to move but it will feel great getting back to it.  I was starting to see some changes from just 8 sessions so hopefully now I will be able to get to 2-3 sessions/week. 

Not much else to say for today.  Need to think of some meals and do some prep work.  I am off work until June 6th which is kind of nice after the nightmare we went through.  Time to regroup and get things back to normal.

Sunny 14K

I did it.  I managed to do 14K this morning.  Just a few quick walk breaks as needed.  When I got home I stretched, went tanning (I know that this is not good but I like to have some color before going away) and then breakfast and now browsing the computer whie I drinking my coffee and watching my little man play x-box. 

when we get back from our trip I told my little man that we are going to cut back on junk food and he can only have it one day a week which will either be a friday night or saturday.  I know it will be a challenge but he needs to be careful...pretty sad saying that about a 7 year old but he loves his sweets/chips and i need to limit this consumption.

He is a pretty active kid so I need to make sure that we keep his activity level up.  Even while he is pretty active with jumping around etc. 

I have been doing pretty good with my eating.  I find though that I have been having more BLT's and I need to stop doing that.  I am pretty sure that I am tracking all my points good but I need to keep an eye on this habit.  Since I have eliminated all the crap from my diet I am not really craving it which is good.  I just need to avoid that stuff.  It will be interesting to see how I do on the cruise.  I just hope they have some healthy choices.  As long as I get my exercise in and don't over eat I should be ok.  My goal is just to not gain any weight and if I do, no more then 2 lbs!!!  Speaking of lbs I was down 1lb this week which bring my total to 15.8 lbs in 7 weeks but 19.2 lbs since november.  My next WI will be on sat before we leave.  I am hoping to get a 5 or 6k run in before we leave for the airport.  My long run will actually be on friday this week.  It will be a busy friday with the long run and then a lot of pre curise pampering for me :)  I am hoping for 16K on friday.  I am feeling pretty good with how my training is going.  I know I won't PR in my half that is coming up but I just hope to do better then how I did my last 2.

When we get back from the cruise the next big even that I need to get ready for is a coworkers wedding.  I want to be able to fit into a nice dress for this event.  It should be lots of fun with the girls. 

well going to check out more blogs while drinking my coffee.

Making Switches

So my long run for today has been postponed.  We have been having crap weather so I got on my phone and sent a text to a coworked and asked if she would work my day on sunday if I would do her night.  She agreed to it.  Now I just hope the sun will be out on that day so I don't regret making the switch.  I need to keep in mind that this is my last set before vacation (13 days off which will be awesome).  I called and changed my PT session on monday to 4pm.  Hate that time but would hate it even more if I missed one of my sessions. 

I will be doing a bit of cooking today.  I am going to make my roasted sweet potato soup.  I will get right non that as soon as I am done this post.  I should try and get to the mall to get C some shorts for our trip. 

we will be having a bit of a bday party for my wonderful husband today.  I actually made him cupcakes and have a pork shoulder in the crock pot for some pulled pork.  I just hope it turn out good.

Well must get to work on that soup and then have a quick shower and head to the mall.

Boxing Gloves

We are in the middle of having very crappy weather, rain/freezing rain which really sucks.  Thankfully the roads were not bad this morning but the weather was bad enough that I did not get out for the 5K run that I had wanted to do.  I am ok to run in the rain but this was very cold, windy rain which I am not ok with.  I just hope that things will clear up a bit for my scheduled long run tomorrow.

I headed to my PT session early and ended up doing some intervals on the treadmill for 20 min which left me a sweaty mess.  I was worked hard today and we tried something new today.  E brought out boxing gloves and I did some boxing moves.  I actually liked it.  My entire workout was awesome.  I love how in 30 min I feel like I have worked out for an hour.  I can't imagine working out for a full hour at the intensity he has me working out at.

I am baking today.  My husbands birthday is tomorrow and so I am going to make cupcakes (from a box) with buttercream icing (that I will make tomorrow).  I think that I will start making cakes/cupcakes for our bday's.  I want to get better at baking for the boys.  We are going to have pulled pork for his bday supper too which I am excited about.  I LOVE PULLED PORK!!!  I will just have mine with veggies though.

We went to see Great Big Sea last night which was a great concert.  It was great to see them again.  They are amazing singers, very entertaining.

Well I need to get ready to go soon to get my little man but a quick stop at the grocery store to get some butter and a cake decorating kit (we through out the one I had when we did the kitchen reno's...should not have done that.  Oh well. 

stretching

The last 2 days my left hip has been bothering me.  I have had this problem before and it never really amounts to anything so I am hoping that is the case this time.  What I need to do is make sure that I do lots of stretching and maybe some icing at times.  I guess I could do that right now while I am writing this post.  Ice pack now on the hip.  I know that stretching is important so I need to promise myself that I will stretch after every run.  I have a PT appt this morning too.  I am excited for that.  I know it will kill me but it will be awesome after.

I had my weekly WI yesterday and was down 2 lbs for a total of 14.8 lbs (actually more then that if I go by my weight in nov...total of 18.2 lbs since then).  I am happy with how my weight loss is going.  I really would like to have 5 lbs off my the day we leave for the cruise.  I will just have to make sure I don't have any BLT's that I don't account for.

I really need to do some meal prep this week on my days off.  I don't really have anything made right now and I am having a hard time coming up with meal ideas.  I could make a couple of different soups...sweet potato soup and maybe some chicken chili.  I think I will buy a back of chicken breasts and cook them up in the slow cooker.  Have some to put in the sweet potato soup for protein and then some for chili.  I will buy the chicken tomorrow.

I am feeling so good mentally and hope this motivation continues and that I can make this a lifestyle change.  I have been totally avoiding having sweets which I think is the best decision for me as they seem to set me off into binging.

Have a great day.

Sunny Saturday

I didn't get out as early as I had wanted to for my run this morning but I was out before 8am which is great.  My goal on weekend runs is to start them at 7.  It feels great to have it done so early.  I am actually quite happy with how my run went this morning.  It felt pretty good even though my time wasn't the best I am still happy with it.  I did 12K which is the longest i have ran in a long time!!  I called and changed my PT appts next week so that I can do my long run (14K) on friday since I will be working days on sat and sun.

I am working tonight and tomorrow night so I need to make sure that I have lots of snacks in my bag so I am not tempted to have unhealthy foods.  Tomorrow night my treat will be a skinny vanilla latte.

2 more weeks and we will be heading across the boarder and down to Florida and leaving sunday for our 1st ever cruise and a much anticipated cruise.  I need to pull out the kids summer clothes and figure out what we need to buy before we leave.  I think our youngest will be fine when it come to clothes but C might need a new summer wardrobe this year.  He is getting so tall and all his things last summber were pretty small then.  I am going to look on the american eagle website and see if they have some things that would be good for him for the trip.  I think that we all will be needing some new summer foot wear though.  I am really looking forward to getting away for a bit and having 13 days off.

Well that is all for now.  I should try and get some things done today. I am hoping for a nap at some point this afternoon.  I am thinking that since I did that long run I will get tired later.

Thankful for the day off

Even though my pay will reflect that I took today off it is nice to have today off.  I did a switch for someone back in Feb so I used today as the day that I would take off and they could work it for me.  I am happy I did it after the steady day we had yesterday.  Maybe my pay won't show it too much since I will have 7 shifts on the pay instead of 8. 

I really am having a lazy day and dont' feel like doing much.  I will call and make a tanning appt and then run out to walmart to pick up a few things and then do a couple of errands in town and I am sure it will be close to the time to get the boys from school.

I ran 4K this morning and it felt ok.  It took a little bit for my legs to warm up since I took yesterday off.  Tomorrow I need to make myself get up no later then 7 and head out for my 12K run.  I think i know what route I will take.  I am playing around some with my training schedule because of what I am working and then because we will be away.  It would be fun to do a long run when we get back from our curise down in Florida.  I will have to check things out and see how it looks for running around the hotel we are staying at.  I need to stick to the training while we are away even if it means running on a treadmill on the ship (that would be an experience to run on a treadmill on the cruise ship).

I think that i will go for a WI at weight watchers on monday after I get up and go for my run.  I haven't gone in a little bit and I do want to keep my membership there.  I need to be better about going for monthly WI's.  Plus I am going to need a new tracking book since I am almost done this one.  It is nice to see that for 5 weeks I have been doing awesome with the tracking.

I can't get over how great I feel since I have been eating healthy and exercising regularly.  I do need to keep doing this since my mood is so affected when I put crap food into my body.  I think everyone around me can tell that I feel better when I eat this way. 

well I need to get ready to go out to walmart.  Have a great friday.

A Rest Day

So tomorrow will be an offical rest day from exercise.  I think it is a much needed one since I haven't had one in a few days.  I ran 4K this morning before work and just had my 6th PT session and am still loving it.  I always feel like I am working so hard and my trainer pushes me which is great.  On friday I will go to the gym and do some strength training but I know it won't be the same without my trainer.  I just have to work as hard as I can.  I need to make up a workout to do and make sure that I stick with it.  I will pull some things from the workouts that J has given me and go with that.  At least I have the 12 week plan she gave me for back up when I am done my PT sessions.  I wish we were rich enough that I could continue with my trainer but we aren't (unless we win the lottery tonight or friday night).

I worked today but actually got to come home early which was nice.  Coming home early on a short day is awesome!!!!

I am going to have to eat supper soon I am getting pretty hungry.  The boys aren't home yet but I don't think I can wait for them.

Awesome Run

this morning after dropping my little man off at work I went for a 6K run.  It was one of my best runs that I have had in a long time.  I did it in 40:15 which is so close to what I used to run 6K in when I was at my peak.  My legs felt awesome the entire time.  I just need to work on my breathing.

Last night I had fish tacos which were pretty yummy.  I need to try and eat fish a bit more often.  I am still trying to come up with food ideas.  I have some recipes but for my 2 days at work I will have to wing it.  If I do get that shift off on friday I will try and do some cooking then.

I managed to get most of the laundry done yesterday just one more load of blankets to try and need to fold my uniforms for tomorrow.  Then I need to put all the laundry away.  I need to make myself do it.  I am happy with myself for having all the dishes in the dishwasher or washed and put away.  It was awesome to wake up this morning to a relatively clear counter.

Well that will be all for today.  I have a 4K run to do before my 8hr day tomorrow and after work I have a training session at 5 and then home.  Thursday is actually a rest day when it come to exercise.  I am hoping to make it to the gym on friday.  I will let you know how that goes.

April

Another month behind us.  I just can't believe how fast time going.  At least with this new month I can happily say I am down 12.8 lbs!!!!  It has taken a long time before I could write something like this.  I finally feel like my eating is under control again.  It has meant that I have given up a lot of foods but it is something that I have to do.  When I feel that I am a lot stronger I will have the occasional treat.  I am thinking the first place that this will happen will be the wedding I am going to in May.  I am even going to try and avoid sweets while we are on our cruise.  I still have 31.8 lbs to lose.  When I actually look back to the heaviest I had been since I lost all the weight before was in november and I have lost 16.2 lbs since then which makes me very happy.

I have so much  laundry to do that when I get back from my PT session I better get started on it.  I have a couple of recipes that I will be making so I have some food stock piled.  I already have an idea for my lunch today with left over turkey, cranberry sauce and I will be getting some goat cheese which I think will go awesome with this creation I will be making.  I found if from cleaneating.com 

well I had better start getting ready to head for my butt kicking.  Have a great monday.

10K

I did my 10K run today and I feel really good about how the run went.  I was expecting that it would take me about an hour and 10 min but i did it in 1:09min.  I felt stronger then I have in a while and it makes me think that my running legs are coming back :)

I had my WI today and am down 2.8 lbs from last week.  I have lost  12.8 lbs in 5 weeks which I am happy with.  I am really hoping to reach the 150's before we go on our cruise. I will make some tweaks with my snacks that I have and try really hard to do the no carbs for supper.  I am thinking that my snacks will be boiled eggs, fruit, vanilla greek yogurt with fruit, veggies and hummus.  I will try to limit the kashi bars to just my afternoon snack when working days.  I will avoid them on nights and on my days off.  I need to spend the day today coming up with some ideas for my meals for the next 3 weeks to cook them in bulk.  I found some ideas on pinterest that I will give a try and I have a new recipe book that I am hoping I can get a few ideas from.

I have a PT session tomorrow and am looking forward to it.  I hope I get my butt handed to me once again.

Have a great Easter sunday.

Fun with Friends

Yesterday I actually a great time socially (maybe a bit too much since I didn't do my long run this morning).  It started off with watching my husbands first hockey game after supper and then coming home for some wine, having a couple of girls stop by before heading back to the arena for the 2nd game (which my husbands team lost).  Then we watched the final game which was pretty good.  Then the party started which included food, drinks and a live band.  I was good and did not touch the food (well I had a couple of celery sticks but that was it), had a few beer and danced a bit.  There were actually quite a few people that I knew there and a lot of the people that had gone to vegas were there too so it was nice to see everyone again and talk about going again this year (very excited about this).  We stayed until it was done and then headed home.  I was not feeling so hot this morning so I won't be doing my 10K run until tomorrow.  I wish I had done my run today but there is no way I was feeling good enough to do it.

I am hoping the weather will hold out until I do get my 10K in tomorrow.  It is supposed to rain.  The last 2 days we have actually been able to crack open some of the windows which is so awesome to let the fresh air flow through the house.  I always love being able to do that after the winter months.  It will be nice when we can leave them open all day but right now it is still a bit cool out to leave them open for too long.  I need to do some spring cleaning too.  Maybe that is something I can do on mon and tues before I head back to work.

Not much planned for today.  My husband is playing some more hockey and the kids have been doing some outside which makes me happy.  I am actually the one being a slug today ;)

A weekend off

I am so glad that I did a switch to have tonight off.  I actually did not mind doing 3 days 1 night this set.  It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be.  Next week I was supposed to work 5 shifts but now it will be 2 days, one off and my 2 nights.  Not to bad.  I hopefully will get another PT session in that week.

I am really hoping to run 10K tomorrow.  I am going out tonight for my husbands end of season hockey party and I know I will have some drinks.  I just need to not go crazy so I can do the run in the morning.  I am hoping that on sunday we can go to church.  They are doing an Easter production and I am interested in seeing it.

Last night was snack night at work and again I avoided the temptation.  I actually almost had some trail mix but I stopped myself.  Yay me :)

I am going to have a taco salad for supper tonight.  I am looking forward to that and then taking the boys to see there dad play hockey.

Have a great friday!!

The Burn

This morning I almost cancelled my PT session but I didn't and am so glad I went.  It was a great workout.  The type of workout that you feel the burn in you muscles that kills while doing the exercise but feels great after.  I did take the morning off from running though.  I will run when I get up tomorrow and then depending how I feel on saturday I may do my long run or save it til sunday.  I really would rather do it on saturday(party to go to friday night so it will all depend on what my drinks make me feel like).

I got the cookbook in the mail yesterday from Allison (simply for life consultant).  I am going to try some of the recipes in it.  I don't have much left from the food that I made a few weeks ago so I need to do some bulk cooking this weekend.  I should count how many shifts I have until we go on our trip and have enough food for all those days made and in the freezer for easy access.

Tonight at work there will be a bistro going on and lots of snacks so once again I need to make sure I bring lots of healthy choices for myself. 

Well I should go and search for some recipes and make a grocery list.

Around the Bay

I can't believe that after running 9K yesterday and being up so late last night that we went downtown and I ran my 5K race.  I actually felt really good with this run.  My time was 33:35 (according to my garmin...not bad considering i was not sure I was going to run it).

Thinking of ideas for my meals is hard.  I am trying to come up with healthier choices and not having much luck.

Have a great sunday.

9K

Someone woke us up pretty early this morning which meant I was out just a little bit after 8 for my long run.  I had 9K scheduled today and I did it.  The run actually went a lot better then I had expected.  Now if I don't make my race tomorrow I won't feel too guilty about it. 

I thought my legs would be really sore today but it is my upper body that took a beating yesterday.  my chest, biceps, and triceps are pretty sore.  I am loving my PT sessions and really wish I could go more often but I know that each will will vary because of my schedule.  I still have 33 sessions until August which is awesome.

Well I had my WI today and I was 169.6 :)  10 lbs in a month.  It is one month today that we will be heading to Florida for our cruise.  I will try really hard to get 10 more lbs off  before we go.  That would be so awesome.  I am very happy that I hit the 160's this week.  I was so motivated before now I am even more so. 

What I need to do is come up with some more recipes for my melas.  I need to do that soon since I am heading back to work on monday.

Well that is all for today  Going to a party tonight.  Excited to see some of my coworkers and have some fun.

Another great PT session

I had an appt this afternoon for personal training and once again I was not disappointed with how I feel about the workout.  I was sure feeling it right from the beginning.  I really feel this one in my arms right now.  I hate to see how my arms will be feeling tomorrow. 

Not sure what my legs will be like but I really want to be able to run my 9K in the morning!!!!

Tonight I need to come up with some meal ideas for next week.  I loved how the last 2 weeks have been with just pulling out stuff from the freezer for the majority of my meals.  I did cook some suppers but for this week I hope to have a couple of things made and in bulk so I can have leftovers for suppers.  I am working 3 days next week so being able to just come home and throw things in to my lunch bag makes my life so much easier and less temptations.

That is all for today.  I think that I will have a good sleep tonight considering the exercise I got today.

TGIF

I can actually say TGIF.  I am off this weekend and so is my husband.  We both go back to work on monday.  we both get to go to a stag n doe saturday night for a coworkers son.  I may or may not be doing the 5K around the bay...all depends on how I feel sunday morning when I get up. I will be doing my long run, 9K, on saturday so I won't be really uspset if I miss the 5K.  Next year I promise myself that I will be trained and will do the 30K.  I did it last year but was not really trained for it.  I will be trained for it next year.  I will start training early so that if I miss any time it won't be that big of a deal.

I have a PT session at 1.  My hamstrings are still tight but not as bad as they were.  When I get home after the session I will make sure to do some good stretching.

I am having a hard time coming up with some meals for next week.  I am really hoping that my simply for life cookbook arrives soon.  I am sure that she has some good recipes in it that I can use.

I have some errands to run and need to finish my coffee first.  Have a great friday.  I hope to post my run results and how my WI goes tomorrow at some point.

On a Roll

I did it.  I actually avoided any of the treats that we had at bistro last night at work.  I ate what I brought and I did have some salad with minimal dressing on it.  I am feeling so awesome I need to remember this feeling.

Today was a rest day but I did go for about a 5K walk which felt great.  I got a couple of errands done to on my walk which is always good.  I think the walk was a good idea since my mucles are still a bit tight.  I probably should do a bit of stretching tonight.

Not much else to report.  Having some steak pieces and veggies for supper and probably yogurt and banana for my sanck.  It is hard to get all my points in after working nights.

I need to get the kitchen somewhat tidy too.  Not doing a good job with my goal to have it cleaned each night before going to bed/work.  will work on that.

Hamstrings

Hamstrings are the part of my body that feels so tight today and my outer thighs.  All thanks to the wonderful style of lunges that I did yesterday ;)  When I got home from work this morning I did something that I haven't done in a while.  I did my run before heading to bed.  I did a 5K that was a little tough due to the tight hamstrings and I am thinking the fact I had worked all night made it a bit tough too.  Oh well.  It was nice not to have to do it when I woke up.

Tonight we are having a bistro at work.  I am bringing my own food in so that I have the options to stay on track.  I know that if I sway tonight it could lead to some problems.  I can have salad, fruit and veggies if I want to have anything at all.  I counted 4 pts for salad so I will probably have a big serving of it.  I do love the salad that I am picking up.  What I will do is put some aside for me while I am getting it ready so that I can make sure that there is not a lot of dressing on it.  Since this is my last night I will be getting a skinny vanilla latte too.  That is going to be my treat for being good and I will only have it on my last night of work.

Tomorrow is a day off from exercise but to keep me moving I will go for a 6K walk when I get up.  I want to make sure I do some form of exercise every day.

I am so close to being in the 160's I can almost taste it. 

Shakey

That is the best way to describe how I feeling after my 2nd PT session.  What a great workout it was.  I can't believe how much of a workout we are able to do in 30 minutes.  I am loving it.  I have another session on friday.  I am a little bit sad that I can only go 1 day next week.  I am going to have to either go to the gym or do some things at home.

My eating has been ok.  After my 2 days at work I have had apple and peanut butter.  I need to STOP that habit of having that to eat after work.  I don't really need that many calories and plus it has been upsetting my stomach during the night.  Yogurt and fruit is a much better choice. 

I ran 4K this morning.  Not an easy run because of the weather and icy road conditions.  I felt ok though with the run.  It would have been a great run if better conditions I think. 

All that exercise today has made me very tired.  thankfully my wonderful husband can pick up the boys from school so I am going to go and try and have a nap right now.  I hope to get at least 2 hours.  That would be so awesome :)

I am feeling so amazing mentally right now and I know that it is because I am back on the healthy wagon and actually taking care of myself again.

Success

Yesterday I was so worried about how I would make out with eating out.  It is the first time that I have eaten out since getting back on track (almost 3 weeks).  I ended up with a stromboli (ate only 1/2) and a salad.  When I calculated the pts I actually stayed within my daily pt range...oops just remembered something I had and did not track it so I used 3 of my flext pts which isn't bad at all.  I wanted something when I got home so I had a bit of greek yogurt with cocoa and used it as a dip for my banana.

At some point during the night I woke up and my stomach was feeling a bit off.  I am sure it was due to all the cheese that was in the stromboli.  I brought the other half home with me but I know that I won't eat it.  I am going to have to get groceries either tonight or tomorrow and make sure I have 2 full days worth of meals planned.  I can't believe that my 6 days off are almost over.  Because of how crappy I have felt I sure did not accomplish much on my days off :(

I am feeling pretty sore from my workout yesterday.  I haven't felt this way in a long time.  Even though it hurts it is a good kind of hurt.  I just hope that I can make it through my 8k run tomorrow.  I am going to do my weekly WI too after my run.

Have a great friday.

Pleasantly Surprised

This morning when I got up I did a 3K run which I ran with no walk breaks.  Pretty happy with that.  I had my breakfast which was a mixture of strawberries, apple pieces and orange pieces with 2 TBSP of slivered almonds and some greek yogurt.  This is going to be such an amazing breakfast in the summer.  After breakfast I just did some computer work and then I headed to my first PT session and Lean and Fit.

I wasn't really sure what to expect for the 30 min session.  I am used to doing that type of stuff over 1hr.  I have shakey arms as I am typing this which should tell you that I had a great workout.  I can't believe how sweaty I was after those 30 minutes.  My trainer is going to be great.  It is a full body workout and they have you rotate through 3-4 different workouts 3 times and then another 3-4 workouts 3 times.  I have to make sure that I get there 2x/week and then do something at home or the gym for the 3rd ST session of the week.  I know that I will be happy with the results if my eating and exercise keep going at the rate they are now.  I am sure I will be feeling those muscles that I worked later today and for sure tomorrow.

I am going through periods where I am feeling better and then feeling like crap again.  I just hope i feel better by sunday.  I am getting enough sleep, drinking lots of fluids and eating healthy foods.

I am a little worried about eating out for supper tonight.  I just need to count the points and then get right back on track.

Have a great thrusday.

rest day turns into 4K run

So I had planned on having today as a rest day but I ended up going for a 4K run which I felt was a good run.

I tortured myself on pintrest by looking at sweets.  I know that if I eat anything like that I will cave a fall back to my old habits.  I need to give them up until I learn to have things in moderation.  I am not at that place yet.  It really is like if an alcoholic were to take just one drink...very hard.  I need to not do it unless it is something very amazing.  I can imagine what something would taste like so why would I need to have it.  I would reather be healthy, at a healthy weight and feeling good for life rather then a few minutes of something tasting good.

Well that is really all I have to say.  Have a good night.

Rest Day

I was not planning on having a rest day today but when I got up and was quite stuffy and coughing a lot and the fact that there was snow on the round I decided to have today as a rest day.  I am having a hard time not feeling guilty about it but everyone needs a rest day.  Tomorrow I will make up for it with a 4K run and plus my first PT session.  I am excited and nervous about this.  I just can't imagine what we will do in 30 min.  I am hoping it goes a bit longer but maybe I will be surprised.  I need to so some ST, it has been a while.  I am just hoping that what we do at Lean and Fit can be repicated easily at the gym.  On sunday it will be 5 weeks until my curise.  That is so crazy.

On thursday after my little mans hockey game (tournament out of town) we will all be going out for supper.  I have looked at the menu trying to decide what to get.  All the items are pretty high in points which is why I am going to save my flex points for that night.  What I want to get is 19 points.  It is a pulled pork pizza (love pulled pork).  The good thing is that I usually can't eat a full individual pizza so the points won't be as much as the 19. 

I did manage to get some work done around the house yesterday but not as much as I had wanted too.  I need to try and get a few things done today.  I am going to head to walmart soon to pick up a few things that I need.  I really need to get the bathrooms clean which is on my todo list so hopefully I will be able to do that.


Have a great wednesday.

NSV

So it has been a week since the first sign of my cold arrived (sore throat).  I am still feeling pretty bad.  A cough and runny nose and squeaky voice.  I hope I am better before I go back to work on sunday.

Despite how I am feeling I did a 5K run this morning.  It was a little tough and had a few walk breaks but overall I am happy with how it went.  I am a bit sad that I cancelled my PT session for today but I think it was for the best.  I will go on thrusday no matter how I feel.

Still rockin' it with the healthy eating and I am feeling so amazing.  My mood is so much better and I feel it in my stomach that I have lost weight.  Now for the NSV...tried on some pants that were so tight before and now they are fitting better and my black dress pants are almost a bit loose.  Yay for me.

I really hope I get all my to do list done this week.  If I am going to accomplish that I better sign off for now, finish my coffee and get to work.

week 2 WI results

I lost 2 lbs this week for a total of 8.4 lbs in 2 weeks.  I am very happy with those results.  I really wanted to see the 160's this week but maybe next.  To help me out with that I will try hard not to have apple and PB as a snack in the evenings.  Fruit or yogurt and fruit will be my evening snack of choice.

My cold is getting worse but I did manage to run 6K.  I was supposed to run 8 but I will play around some with my training schedule  to get the mileage in.  I am really excited for my PT sessions for this coming week.  I hope that I am not disappointed.

One more night shift and then I am off for 6 days.  I have plans for a productive week which I really need to follow through with.

A great day

Even though I was at work it was still a great day.  I found it was a very civilized day for a friday which is always nice.  I am hoping for the same thing tomorrow.  I am slowly getting more of a cold which sucks.  I just had one.  The one I had a couple of weeks ago was not bad but this one is in my nose which I find the worst (actually the sore throat is the worst).  I am just hoping it isn't too bad that I put off my long run on sunday.

I have been doing great with the eating.  Tomorrow I have a 3K run schedule before work.

Going to head to bed now.  Hoping for a better sleep then last night.

new accountability coming up

So I made the decision that instead of trying the bootcamp classes again that I would go for the personal training sessions instead.  They were actually so awesome about this that because of the fact I hadn't really went to classes they are making it up for me by giving me extra PT sessions!!!!  This will basically equal out to 36 PT sessions in 6 months.  That is about 6 sessions/month which means that if I am going to see the PT that often I better keep it clean :)  Now I don't feel like all the money I have spent is wasted.  6 months to get back to my happy weight and be in much better shape.  I  hope to learn a lot from these sessions so that when they are done I can take that knolwedge and use it when I work out at the gym.  That means that just 1x/week for now at the gym to do a workout.  Not bad.  I should be able to fit that in to my schedule.  I am so excited about doing this and already have 2 sessions booked next week.  There is much more flexibility for these sessions then there was for the classes.  I am going to make sure that the program I do is a full body strength training session as that will work better for me.

I baked a few things yesterday so my freezer is full of options for the next 2 weeks (maybe even longer).  I will just have to keep track of what I have and make sure I restock when I run low. Making weekly menus should help me with this.

I am feeling so happy right now.  my morning did not start off that way but I am feeling much better now.  I did a 4K run which I think helped with that.  Tomorrow I have to get up early before work and do my 3K run.  I will have to do that again on saturday before work too.  I need to make myself get up and do it because I know I won't want to do it after working a 12 hr shift. 

I am almost done with my goal of having all the laundry done and put away.  Once I do a bit more browsing on the computer I will go down and get the rest and put it away.  It has been a long time since the laundry has all been done and put away.  That is a weekly goal for me starting now.  Another thing I want to work on is having the dishes done and put away before I go to bed at night.  I had all intentions of doing that last night but did not, so that is another thing that will start today.

I made a list of things to do over the next 2 days and have alot of the little things checked off the list which is pretty good.

Well that is all for today.  Back to work tomorrow.  Hope this set goes by fast but my days off slower.  I actually get 6 days off my next set since I am starting a day early which is always nice :)

Feeling Great

I just can't get over how awesome I am feeling right now.  Exercise and diet play such a huge role in how I feel mentally as well as physically.  I am on day 10 of eating healthy and it feels great.  The only thing that I have had that is not clean at all was that muffin and I am trying to remember how it made me feel after I ate it.  I am just working 1 night this set at work so I should be ok.  Just need to remember to have lots of healthy options in my cooler.

I have a lot of cleaning to do over the next 2 days and I keep putting it off.  I need to make a to do list and try to check off as many things as possible.  Instead of watching TV tonight I should try and tackle some of those things on the list.  I have 2 things that I need to make too before tomorrow.  I will try and get them done today.  Once those 2 things are done I should have enough food for my main meals for the next 2 weeks (except for breakfast...will need some fresh berries).

I did a 4K run this morning after dropping my little man of at school.  It was a pretty good run.  My long run this week will be on sunday and it will be 9K.  I am kind of excited to see how that goes.  I know that if I stick to my eating healthy this week and run according to my training program it will be not bad.  I want to build up my endurance again since I do love running so much.  I want to get back to where I was when I was at my peak.

I sent a message to where I do my bootcamp and I think what I am going to do is personal training instead.  It shounds like I will be able to back date too for those sessions considering I have only gone to 1 bootcamp class.  kind of excited about that.  I will head in to the city tomorrow to talk to someone about that and try and get things set up.

I can't believe how fast time is going.  Before I know it we will be packing for our cruise which means i have to stay so focused on eating healthy and exercising.  Like I said before I want to look and feel awesome on this trip.

bootcamp

I loved my bootcamp classes when I was going to them regularly a couple of years ago.  I do believe that these really did help me when I lost all my weight before.  I joined a program back in august in the city and I have only gone once.  How awful is that.  I am thinking about going to 2 classes this week, tues and wed.  These are the only days that will work this week.  I want to give them another chance.  All I can do is my best and if I don't like it I will see if I can maybe use my monthly payment for some personal training instead.  I found it so crowded and the instructor reminded me of one our friends which is not necessarily what I want in an intructor ;)

Last night I was having a hard time trying to figure out what to have for supper but I ended up having a turkey burger instead.  I have now had 8 fully successful days of eating mostly healthy foods and tracking all the food I eat.  I need to stay focused and get 2 weeks under my belt.

I am going to have to go get my groceries for the week at some point this morning.  I just need to make a menu for the boys and then I will go and get them.  I just want to finsih my coffee and make sure to have a complete grocery list so I don't overspend on my groceries for the week.

Have a productive monday.

Week 1 results

I had a full week of eating healthy and getting in some exercise and it felt great.  I ended the week with a 7K run which was very tough.  Doing a longer run after my 2nd night is bound to be tough.  Thankfully the way things work out next week I will have a 9K run on sunday which means I will do it when I get up in the morning just like a regular day which hopefully will make for a better run.  Tomorrow I am hoping to get up early and go to the gym.  In order to try and do this I will head to bed at 9.  I will have to get up at 5:30 if I want to go to the gym and be back before my husband has to go to work.

So the results on the scale for week one is a loss of 6.4 lbs :)  That made me feel very happy.  I have a goal in mind for my WI next sunday but really as long as I can get through my 2nd week of eating healthy and tracking will make me feel great.  I haven't had 2 weeks of being on track for a very long time.  I am hoping the fact that I have my menu made for the week will be helpful.

Tomorrow I am going to do some house work and then get my groceries and have my meals made for the week.  This is very helpful for me to stay on track.  When your foods are all made in advance it is so much easier to avoid picking while cooking your foods because all I have to do is reheat my foods.  There is a lot of prep in doing this but if it leads to positive results it is so worth it.  I so would love to be in the 150's for when we go on our cruise.  I know that if I keep this up I will be able to do it.

Well here is to a healthy week and making smart choices and good use of my 3 days off.

TGIF

I dont' always get to say that.  I guess as a shift worker that tends to work 4 out of 6 weekends (not always full weekends but some full some partial with only 2 full weekends off) that term is not really used :(  I sent a message to my husband today telling him that I sometimes get jealous of couples that I see out and about during the week days.  We never really get to do that as he works mon-fri.  He told me that he should be able to get off at noon today.  That will work for me :)

I was debating on when to do my 3K run today and thankfully I did it as soon as I dropped my little man off at school.  glad to have it out of the way.  i just need to make sure to get my 7K run in sat or sun.  I think starting on monday I will start doing some strength training.  I may even go to lean and fit to talk to them about possibly getting PT sessions for what I am paying monthly instead of doing the bootcamp sessions.  I sure hope they go for that idea.  I probably would only get 2 sessions for what I am paying monthly.

I have been doing so good with my eating and feel great.  I always seems to do well for 1 week and then I fall off the wagon.  I am hoping to get through a 2nd week too and then we will keep going from there.  Once 3 weeks are in things are a bit easier.

8 weeks until we go on our cruise.  I did not realize that it is that soon.  I need to do an 8 week challenge to look my best on this cruise.  Basically what this challenge will include is:

eat clean
exercise
drink water

On sunday after I get up I will be doing my 1 week WI.  I will post the results on sunday or monday.  I have to remember to not be discouraged by the number on the scale but focus on how I feel.

Have a great Friday

Day 3

So I am on day 3 of eating healthy.  I feel pretty good but my stomach has been acting up because of all the veggies I am eating.  Hopefully this little side effect will end soon ;)

I have ran the last 3 days and I am not sure that I find it hard because I still have a bit of my cold lingering (especially in my chest) or if I am that out of shape.  I have been having this debate with myself about doing the gym or lean and fit.  I think that I should try to do bootcamp 2x/week and then go to the gym 1x/week until my lean and fit membership is done (which isn't til august).  I do love bootcamp so I need to give this one a chance.  I probably won't start next week but the week after.  I am not sure which class I will do but I will try a 6am class (if possible) and hope that it isn't as busy at the 930 one.  Once that membership is done I am going to stick with just a gym membership providing that I can transfer my current one to the new gym that is suppose to open in the summer.  It looks like it is coming along great so I really hope it will be sooner.  What would be so awesome would be if the gym would offer a bootcamp style class :)

I am trying to make enough meals in advance to last me a couple of weeks (for lunches).  I have turkey burgers made and I made some roasted sweet potato soup last night which I do love.  I will just add 2 oz of chicken to it for some protein.

Well I want to read some blogs and then get some work done around the house.  I am back to work tomorrow.  On sunday I will post my 1st week weigh in results.  My starting weight that I am going with is 179.6.  I need to remember I have a curise coming up and I want to look good on that cruise.

Reality

Well I can't deny it any more.  I saw pictures of me at a retirement party on wednesday night and I can't believe that I have let my weight get so out of control again.  Starting tomorrow I will get back on track with tracking and exercising.  No more excuses.  I am not happy living and looking like this and I am the only one that can do anything about it.  I will update you in a couple of weeks as to how things are going.

A Great Run

I was having that debate with myself about doing a run today and in the end I did my scheduled 7K run as part of my half marathon training program.  I was going to do it tomorrow but they are calling for a lot of snow tonight and tomorrow so I though why not get it out of the way and I am so happy I did.  I have been feeling a bit blue about how I have let myself get so out of shape again and my runs have been really hard.  I am not saying this one was not hard but I actually smiled at myself and said "that was awesome" when I was in my room after the run.  Sometimes you need to do that self affirmation.

The last 2 days I have been snacking in the evenings which I need to stop.  I had some trail mix last night.  I think that there must have been a lot of sodium in it as I was feeling really bloated this morning.  I have had 2L of water so far and I don't have that feeling any more which is great.

Well I am going to start getting things ready for supper.  I am going to be a hockey mom tonight as the husband is away.  Wish me luck.

Sticking with it

So my hubby is gone until monday so I need to stay true to myself and stick to the eating healthy while he is away.  After hearing Tim's new CD today and seeing him on Ellen will help me do just that.  I probably ate most of my flex pts today though.  I had bought a hot chocolate from McDonalds made with skim milk and no whip cream and it was still 8 pts  CRAZY  I won't do that again.

I went for a 3k run which was an awesome run.  I ran the 3K with no walk break at all.  I can't remember the last time I did that.  Tomorrow I will be heading to the gym.  I sure hope it isn't crazy busy and I am sure the workout will be awesome.  I will do my weights first and then I may just hop on the treadmill for some cardio. 

I need to make some yummy foods for the next few days and have them ready so I don't feel the temptaion of too many BLT's.

Well I am going to bed now. 

A great sleep

I had such a bad headache and neck pain last night when I went to bed.  It was keeping me from getting to sleep.  I took some tylenol, advil and maybe some gravol and I didnt' get out of bad til 11.  I did wake up a few times but I think I may have slept solid for 7 hours which is very impressive for me.  I had planned on running today but I stayed in bed instead.  I may go for a 3K run still as some point today but not until I have my coffee and my oatmeal digests some.  It is snowing out and it has been a while since I have run when it is snowing out and I really don't mind it.  I haven't run for 2 days so I should get myself out at some point.

I just finished my 2 days and I think that why I had my headache is that it was busy and then I was feeling guilty about not seeing if the girls could get an extra nurse.  I know that we had already added on nurse but the one we were waiting to see if she would call in sick did.  I need to remember though is that things really didn't pick up until after supper.  Oh well, I let my manager know and maybe she will tell me she wouldn't have replaced anyways.  I still can't help but feel bad.  I know they did have a horrible night.  I will talk to my friend and find out exactly what happened. 

I am doing great sticking to the agreement I had with my husband.  According to the scale today I am down 5 lbs from us making that agreement.  That is without any exercise either.  that is totally just food consumption :)  Now that I will be adding exercise to it starting today it will be interesting to see what will happen.  I am hoping to get to the gym every day next week.  I may even start after my last night and go mon-fri.  It will feel so awesome to go every day to strength train.  I will be starting my half marathon training too and try to be more diligent with it.  My husband is leaving on tuesday and won't be coming back until the following monday so I am going to have to run when my son is in school and go to the gym then too unless I have my step son which will make it possible to squeeze in some runs before taking them to school.  I will just have to make sure he is awake.

Well that is all I have to stay for now.  Oh yeah.  I will face a challenge at work when it comes to my eating because there will probably be a bistro as requested by one of the nurses for super bowl sunday.  I will have to make sure that I have good choices for myself and not have any junk.  I want to see Tim McGraw (and of course look aweomse when I go).

Have a great weekend.

A reward I want to have...

 

So last night after supper my husband and I were having a discussion. For whatever reason that I have been seriously lacking motivation was the topic of discussion and my wonderful husband came up with an idea that might help. Even though it may seem silly to some it is not to me as I have a serious love for country music and would love to go see this person again.

 

I love Tim McGraw.  He puts on an amazing show, he is a great singer and of course he is not to hard on the eyes either :)

So in order for me to go see him (provided we get tickets when they go on sale) I need to eat healthy and exercise a minimum of 3x/week.  I am usually pretty honest with my husband so he trusts me to be honest about this.  I am sure that if we get the tickets and I am not making healthy choices he would have no problem selling the tickets.  He even agreed to go with me.

I started out this challenge on a positive not by going for a 3K run.  Something I need to remember is that I am not at that place I was in 2010 when I was in great shape and at a healthy weight so it will take time for me to see changes both in my body and my endurance.  I just need to keep at it and then I will notice the change.  Once thing that I will notice change right away is my mood which is always a good thing.

To stay on track what I will need to do is plan weekly menus and prepare my food in advance.  This always makes things so much easier.  Last night I had leftovers from a meal I had earlier in the week.  It was so easy to heat up and get the fajitas prepared to eat. 

I am so pumped to do this and before I know it July 25th will be here and my wonderful husband and I will be on our way to see Tim :)

getting it together

I need to promise myself that I will use my days off wisely.  I have 3 full days that I should use to get things accomplished around the house and with exercise.  I am tried of living in what I see as shambles.  Life is to short for me to keep thinking about what I want and I need to actually do something about it.  Time is going by way to fast and it scares me.  I actually do have an amazing life and I need to stop feeling sorry for myself.  I need to be done with having my weight consume my life and start doing something about it!!!!!

I was feeling so irritable earlier today but then I went out for a 3K run and I felt so much better.  Exercise truly does make me feel better and being lazy and eating crap makes me feel horrible and makes the people around me suffer.  I really do need to be a better influence for my son and I know it will take time but i want him to start eating healthier.  I just hope we haven't already instilled such bad eating habits in his life that he will keep eating that way.  He is still young and I can control what he eats. 

Today will be spent making a grocery list and menu and lists etc and the next 3 days will be spent doing. 

Here is to a productive 3.5 days left of my days off.

Up on the wagon...

heading on my hopefully last journey to beat this addiction.  Being addicted to crap food is an issue that I will always have so I need to learn to beat this thing and be able to lead a healthy, happy life because right now that is not what is happening.

I need to avoid my trigger foods and learn to say no to those foods that tend to lead me to binge.  There are actually some foods out there that I can not stop at a serving size. I tend to eat the entire bag, plate etc without even really thinking about it.  If I try to stop at just a  portion size that is all I can think about.  This is such a major issue and I do need to overcome it.

I went for a 5K run before noon today and it actually went much better then I had anticipated which is always a good thing.

Wish me luck on this journey.

Food Addict

I have known this for a while but with how I felt yesterday and this morning I need to do something about this addiciton.  I have not been taking it seriously and I am afraid that if I don't something will happen to me.  It can not be a good thing to do all this binge eating.  I am sure that it will take toll on my body if I don't fix the problem now.  I just ordered to books from amazon that I will read and hopefully they will help me overcome my addiction.  I need to realize that I need to avoid my trigger foods and I am pretty sure I know what they are.  I know that in this book I am getting it suggests avoiding diet pop and coffee, 2 things that I do enjoy having.  I guess if I am going to take this seriously I will have to avoid these foods.  I am sure that I will feel horrible the first week or 2 as my body goes through withdrawl but 2 weeks of feeling like crap is better then a lifetime of feeling like crap.  It is just crazy how this has really taken over my life and has been for a very long time.  For as long as I can remember I have had weigh issues and the the constant feeling of knowing what I have to do, starting to do it but then putting the trigger foods in my body which lead to a constant battle within my mind.  I need to be done with this battle, and I am going to win this battle.  I am just tired of this constant daily struggle and need to work to ending it.

I will use my blog as a diary to document my journey to overcoming the addiction that I have.

almost didn't happen

I was telling my husband this morning that I was going to use today as a rest day.  Well guess what, that didn't happen.  I really should have gone for a run and did one of my strength training exercises but I actually ended up doing my strength training workout which is better then  no exercise at all.

Tomorrow I am going to do a long run of 9K.  I haven't run that distance in a long time.  I know that I will have walk breaks but my goal is to try to run 3K, walk break, 3 more KM's and then run the rest.  If I start early enough in the morning I should be able to do that.  I am pretty sure that I know what route I will do which helps.

Supper is going to be some steak and salad.  I am looking forward to trying the steak.  I actually bought most of my meet this week from a local farm.  I sure hope it will taste good.  I found an awesome recipe in my oxygen magazine this month for falalfel (sp).  I am going to make them tomorrow.  I will be having them with some brown rice and green onion and a little bit of greek yogurt tataziki sauce.  I will let you all know how it tastes.

Friday :)

I am actually excited that I am off this weekend.  I actually don't go back to work until monday  night.  I had a pretty good night last night and a good sleep today.  When I got up I went for a 4K run which was actually a little tough.  I had more walk breaks then I would have liked too.  Running after working nights is a bit hard so I made the decision to do my long run on sunday instead.  I will do 3K tomorrow and then 9K on sunday. 

I went to WW today and I was actually down almost 2 lbs from my last WI which was nice.  I am actually feeling pretty awesome since I started eating healthy on the 1st.  I really want to keep this up.  I was down 3.4 lbs since new years day which is pretty exciting.  I will post my offical 1 week WI on tuesday. 

Well I don't really have much else to say.  Have a great weekend.

on a roll...

Here I am on day 3 of eating well and exercising.  So far I have had a 7K run, workout at the gym and today I went for a 4K run and hope at some point (maybe before I eat my lunch) to do another strength training workout here at home.  I need to get it done before heading to work.  I want to do it today so tomorrow if I just run I will feel ok. 

Eating went ok.  I just need to stop eating in the evenings.  I have quite a big snack and then end up going to bed.  I need to remember I don't need to fuel my body for sleep. It is a habit that I have developed and I really need to break it.  The only time I really need to eat in the evenings is when I am working nights.

We had a crazy busy day at work and I am back for more fun tonight.  I am hoping to get some rest today but I don't know if the little man will allow that to happen.

Happy New Year!!!

Well I didn't ring in the new year...I could not stay up past midnight.  I was so tired and just could not do it.  I am very hopeful for an amazing 2013 and I am partially in control of making that happen.

I started off on the right foot by heading out for a 7K run that I had planned on doing but really did not want too.  Of course once I was done I was so very happy that I did it.  Tomorrow I need to make sure that I get up early enough to head to the gym or workout here at home.  It all depends on if I need a machine or not.  I have my John Savidas membership too which really was a waste of money though.  Once I complete the 12 weeks that J is doing for me I will start going again but I for sure will not renew that membership.  I can't wait until the new goodlife opens up.  The gym is clearly the way that I want to go.  I will be heading back to WW on friday when I get up after my night shift.  That works for me and stick with what works.

For breakfast I had a bowl of oatmeal and for my lunch I will have salad with 1/2 can of tuna on it and an orange for something sweet after eating the salad.  I really want to get this weight off and promise to work hard at it.  I am going back to work tomorrow for a day shift so I will make sure to have my meals done for the day before supper time tonight. 

Well that is all for today.  Happy New Year everyone. 

edit- I did not have the salad with tuna, I was not really feeling a salad.  Having a salad in the winter is not really what I call a fun lunch so I had some of my turkey chili with a few of the sweet potato cubes left over from last night.  Very happy with my choice.

I am now starting to get that feeling that I want to have more to eat but really I am not hungry.  I will just keep looking at the computer and then in a bit I will prepare the hamburgers for tonight and then I will make my supper for the next 2 nights.  Sausages with lots of veggies - brocolli, peppers, onion and mushrooms.