A Fresh Start

Sometimes we just need to start fresh to try an accomplish a goal that we have set. My goal is to get back to my happy weight. This may sound silly but I went back to WW today to face the music since I did not want to have another 10 lbs to take off in addition to the 35 (gulp) that I have put on over the past year. That is such a horrible number and so unhealthy to have gained that much in the past year. it was a perfect time to go back since they have changed the program a bit so I got some new info, a new tracker, a new point calculator. I am going to do this.

This morning I was planning on getting up early but that didnt happen so I ended up going for my run after dropping the little man off at school. I did 4K this morning. I changed the route a bit and my run felt pretty awesome. I need to get out there and run at least 5x/week. I need to get back to the point that I was at with my running. Still not sure about doing the races in march. I will train away and make that decision around the 3rd week of Feb.

I am running out of soup that I have in the freezer for my lunches so after c-mas I will have to go through my recipe books and make a whole bunch of different ones on my days off :) I love soup I think that I could always eat soup for my lunches. I will make chili too since it can come in handy for a supper too, just add a sweet potato with it.

Well I have a meeting in a few minutes so that is all for now. I hope to have a good result at my WI next week. I probably will go thurs or fri of next week :)

December Goals

Here are my goals for December

1. Do not gain wait over c-mas holiday

2. make a training schedule for big races in march

3. track food daily and go to WW weekly (starting next week since i didn't go this week)

4. clean house

5. c-mas cards and decorating done by next weekend

6. keep kitchen/dinning room more organized

7. c-mas shopping done and gifts sent for people down east by the 13th

8. mail dad's b'day card on monday

9. get more sleep

10. only have 1 thing to eat in the evenings and no later then 8pm (unless working nights)

I want to go into the new year feeling healthy and well on my way back to my feel good weight.

A new month

Wow, I can't believe it is december 1st. While I was at work last night I realized that it is only 24 days until c-mas and i have so much I need to do on my days off which aren't to many this coming week. I will be so happy when my next full set of work is done since I won't have any more then 2 days off with today being a sleep day until next thursday. It was all worth it though to have made those switches so I just have to suck it up and plug through the next week.

I had told myself that starting on the 28th I was going to kick the healthy lifestyle back into high gear which I have done. I know that it is a few days but I have been doing well with the eating even though I worked 3 nights (usually get the munchies on nights). I am kind of glad about all the working I am doing in the 2 week period as it does help with eating healthy. I have been doing good with exercise too. On mon I did the at home mini bootcamp, tues ran 5K, wed ran 4K with 1 hill, today I ran 5K and tomorrow I will do another at home bootcamp. I have no more bootcamp sessions and not sure if I will sign up again as I have 2 races in march and need to really focus on the training for that. I really don't think that I will sign up. I know the exercises and have tons of e-mails with all the examples of mini bootcamps. I do need to sit down and do a schedule for training for these 2 races coming up.

For supper tonight I am going to have chili on a sweet potato. I will probably wait until 7 for that as I had some visalus after I picked up the boys.

Well I must get started on some laundry. I have to do some cleaning tomorrow so I need to really limit my blog reading time :)

A new year

So I had a great time in vegas, celebrated my 37th b'day yesterday and now it is time to get serious about getting back into shape. I will not wait until the new year to do it. This is my new year. Back to tracking what I eat and exercising regularly. I had all intentions of going to bootcamp this morning but as I was going to tim hortons before taking the kids to school I had a feeling that I had a flat tire...I was right. I had to park the car and head back to the house to get the truck then take the kids to school. by the time that was all done I would have been quite late for bootcamp. I hope to get a mini bootcamp done here at the house. I should make a plan to do it at 12:30. I will add to this post if I actually do it.

Here is to a great year and getting healthy again!!!

almost time for Vegas

3 more sleeps and it will be time for Vegas. I am so excited about going. I am going to try and use this trip to get my focus back as it will be some me time.

I am going to have to be very organized when I come back from this trip and use my days off wisely as I am going to be working lots and will have to get ready for c-mas. I can see some to do lists in my future.

I went for a run this morning. My first run in 5 days (I did have 2 hour long bootcamps in those 5 days so I wasn't totally like a slug). It went very well. Mentally I felt great and my legs felt awesome. I am going to run in vegas. I probably will run 2 days and if possible hit up the gym one day and maybe even the day we leave if it is open early. I already told the queen that I would be doing this while we were away so I wouldn't feel as guilty about indulging ;)

Another thing that is going to get back on track 100% (or at least try) is following the WW program with the clean approach. I need to do this for me.

Well I must finish my coffee and go get my money changed for monday. Did I mention how excited I am about going to Vegas :) I LOVE VEGAS

Beautiful Saturday

What is left of it after sleeping until 1pm. I worked last night so I slept the morning away and finally got out of bed at 1. I could see that it was warm out based on the thermometer outside our kitchen window and from asking my husband. I set out to run in a tank top and capris. I can't believe that I am still able to run in those clothes on Nov 12th!!!! That is so awesome. I really, really hope that it means that we are going to have a mild winter. I was planning on doing just 3K as I am going to run hopefully 10K tomorrow but I ended up running 4K. I did have a small break at the top of a hill but stopped my garmin so I had 4K of actual running. I guess my head must have been in the right place.

Last night I really had the munchies but did ok. I was going to get a muffin but i didn't see any that would be a 10 in my mouth so I had a lara bar and a small choc milk. Both tasted so good. I did end up getting a banana nut muffin from Tims on my way home this morning. I can just feel that I had something that wasn't really a healthy choice. Tonight will be all about making healthy choices if I feel snacky. I don't think that I will though.

I could have worked an OT shift tonight but after this set I really did not feel like working.

I am going to have a chicken pizza on Naan bread. That is always a good post 2nd night supper :) I had my visalus shake after my run. Still loving the stuff and it does make me feel better.

I need to get the dishes done that accumulated after working nights. Just going to chill tonight with the kids.

my 4th day

This is day #4 of trying hard to stick to the WW program and eat clean before heading to vegas. I actually have been doing awesome. I feel great. My eating has been great and I have ran for 3 days and did an hour long bootcamp class this morning :) I need to keep remembering this especially when working tonight and tomorrow night. Putting healthy foods into my body has been making me feel so much better.

I am planning on doing a longish run on sunday. Not quite sure how long it will be. I hope to do at least a 10K. One thing I need to work on with my shorter runs is not taking walk breaks. I know I can push myself through a short run but i find mentally I have been lacking the motivation. I give up to easy and take a walk break. I used to be able to run these runs with no walk breaks at all. I used to do my longer runs this way too but I know with the weight I put on that it may not be possible. I have 2 races coming up in march and I need to start training both physically and mentally for these races and eat as healthy as possible.

Well it is almost time to get my little boy so that is about all I have to say.

starting over

As my previous post this morning I talked about how I need to just do something about my eating habits etc to get back to my healthy weight. I did just that. I was going to use today as a rest day as my plans for bootcamp had to be changed but I just got back from running 6K :) I love running but since putting on the extra weight it is a bit harder, and the fact I haven't been putting good fuel in my body doesn't help either. This run was awesome though and made me realize that I will do it. Running is so good for me both physically and mentally. I need to really show my body so much more respect as it is capable of doing such great things :)

Do something about it

Things are just feeling so out of control lately but you know what. i am the only one that can get that control back. I need to stop talking about it and actually work towards getting that control back in my life.

On saturday I ran 2 races a 5K and 10K and am happy to report that I actually ran pretty good in them considering that I haven't been taking great care of my body for almost a year now. The happiest I felt was when I was eating healthy. I know that what you eat shouldn't control your emotions but it really does. When I eat healthy I feel in control and powerful but as soon as I put junk in my body I feel so awful. Why put junk in your body if it makes you feel crappy???? IT NEEDS TO STOP

That is all I have to say. 2 weeks til vegas. Perfect incentive to get my act together.

I was doing well

and then my sons halloween candy was calling my name last night. I couldn't stop at just a couple either. Oh well, I can't dwell on what I ate but need to focus on what I will eat.

I am trying to decide if I am going to do both races tomorrow or just the 10K. I am actually feeling a lot better today so I think that I will do both. I was going to run today but really if I am going to be doing 2 runs tomorrow I better stick with rest today. My left hip is feeling a bit tight so I better take it easy today. This afternoon I am going to go and pick up my race kit. I am kind of glad the race isn't until 10 and 11. Not quite sure what I will eat in the morning but I know I will not have any peanut butter as that was awful burping that up the last time I ran ;)

I will let you know how things go tomorrow.

Visalus

So i ordered this new shake powder called visalus. I was able to get 7 free samples from someone for ordering through the person she asked me too and I have had it the last 2 days. I must say that it is really yummy. I am using it for breakfast and adding banana to it. One thing that I like about it is adding milk to my diet again. I will be honest and tell you that I wasn't really drinking milk but getting my calcium from yogurt and I didn't even have that every day. I think that I will be buying a lot more milk now ;)

I have ran the last 2 days but with my cold it has been pretty hard. i went for a walk today, plan on doing a 3 or 4K run tomorrow and then on saturday I have a 5 and 10K race. I am just hoping to feel better by then. I have to go get my race kit tomorrow. I know that it won't be very good runs as the last couple of weeks I haven't been running as much but I am planning on getting out on the roads 5x/week to run and then ST 2-3x/week. The ST will be either bootcamp or going to the gym. I need to start working on getting in awesome shape for March when I plan on doing a half marathon and then the around the bay 30K. i really need to but my clean eating in full gear now as I know that helps with my running.

Well I have so much cleaning to do tomorrow and sunday and monday on my days off. Should be fun but i need to get it done as I want my house in tip top shape before Vegas

Nov 1st

Wow time is sure flying by and the weight is still there. 3 more weeks until Vegas so I need to get myself together. Not quite sure why i keep sabatoging myself but I will keep trying. The last couple of weeks I have been slacking in both eating healthy and exercising so what better way to start the month but to go for a run and attempt to track my food intake (tonight we are having a bistro so I will make the smartest choices possible and not eat to the point of discomfort).

I just ordered some visalus. I have been hearing so much about it and I am going to give it a try. I usually am not one to try new fads but I did enjoy this shake and we will see how it goes. I know I can stop it at any time I want and it does make for a quick breakfast which will be so awesome for workdays and after a morning workout. If I am spending that kind of money on a product I need to be serious about it.

Well I should get going and read some blogs and then go get my son. This day is going by so fast.

Picking myself up

I had something upsetting happen to me the other day and I turned to food to find comfort which actually made me feel worse. I went through a couple of bad situations before and both times I turned to food and it really did not help. I want to use this to get my life back to where it was. I don't want life events to make me gain weight. I will not curl up in a ball and that life slip by.

I am going to eat clean and follow the points like I know I can do.

I am going to exercise everyday.

I will feel better mentally and physically.

Doing ok but not 100% yet

with my eating that is. I probably ate a bit too much last night after work...not sure why I do that but it needs to stop. I was supposed to run 10K this morning but because of all the extra food I ate last night I feel gross and not really up to doing it. I may go around 1 or 2 and not have anything else to eat. I will see how that goes. I really want to get a longish run in this weekend.

I need to get it together as tomorrow is 4 weeks til vegas. I know I can reach a certain weight by then if I give it 100%.

We had a interesting day at work yesterday and that is all I have to say about that.

Going to watch my baby have his hockey practice. Nothing like watching tyke hockey :)

Back to Bootcamp

So my foot started out being sore but about 10 min into the class it actually felt better. so I kept going putting in a hour long bootcamp class. I felt AMAZING after I was done. These classes always make me feel like I work my butt off and feel great both physically and mentally while doing the class and especially after :) I need to promise myself to do these classes 3x/week and then run 4x/week. If I am unable to attend a bootcamp class with J then I will take my butt to the gym where all the equipment that I need will be there. I know that having these 2 form of exercise in my life will help me get back to my feel great weight.

So I can offically say that I had a great 1st day of being "sober". I did dip into the almonds in the evening and had about 12 but considering what I usually have and the fact that this food was "clean" it counts as a perfect day. but as of today no more going over alotted points!! The next 2 days I am at work so I need to make sure that I don't eat when I get home. When I get home I will get things ready for the next day and then head to bed. I am always tired after work so I think that this is an ok plan. Saturday night I may save some pts and have a snack when I get home from work as I don't have to get up as early in the morning but I do need to get up early enough to try and get 10K in.

I am making my fave chili from the eat clean diet book at some point today. It was so yummy. I am pretty sure that I made to many so I will freeze the leftovers so that I will have them for next time :)

Well off to finish reading blogs and then get to work on my chili.

On the wagon

So far today I have done ok. Had quite a few battles with myself. The went like this
"well I could have some junk food today and start tomorrow"
"why is food all I think about"
"mad about my foot"
very unhealthy though process going through my head today. Much like a true addict would say. yeah I know I have said it before but I truly am a processed/junk food/unhealthy food etc addict. I really need to keep myself from eating it. I know that the binge eating could really hurt me physically if I dont' stop it. so here I go "My name is Rebekah and I am a "crap food" addict"
I really need to take this to heart and focus on staying sober.

I want to be able to say tomorrow that I am 1 day sober!!!

epic fail

honeslty. What is wrong with me. Why am I sabatoging myself??? overall yesterday was ok with eating until later in the evening when the munchies hit. I didn't go all crazy but I had a muffin, some almonds and some crackers. totally did not need that much fuel to go to sleep. Picking myself up, dusing myself off and getting back on the healthy eating wagon. Hope to not have another faceplant today.

Meal plan for the day

For breakfast I had steel cut oats with 1/2 banana and 1 tbsp of pb

Lunch was maui black been soup with 2 ryvita crackers and 1/2 banana

snack was an apple and almonds

supper is going to be chicken, sweet potato and quinoa with veggies and goat cheese

I am going to try and make this all I am going to eat. If I feel like I need something while watching TV I will fill up my water bottle and sip on water. I will go to bed when I feel tired. That is what PVR'S are for...to tape shows when to tired a night to watch them :)

I will let you know if this worked out for me today.

Taking Charge of my life

I have been so focused the last 10 months of getting back to my feel good weight (weight I was at in Aug and Sept of last year) that I need to stop thinking about where I was and focus on how I am going to get back there. I stress out on how much weight I have to lose and then this makes me stressed which in turn makes me binge eat or eat things I know aren't healthy choices which pulls me further away from that weight which in turn leads to a cylce that is not a healthy one at all. I am getting on the wagon today and hope to stay on it. Healthy choices can always be made no matter what situation I am in and I need to remember that.

Tomorrow I am going to try bootcamp. Not sure how it will go with the foot. I will just tell J that I may need to do some modifications when doing jumping type exercises. On thursday I will try to do 5K. I am spending today icing my foot and will do the same the next 2 days. I need my exercise but I need my foot to get better more so I won't go crazy and won't push myself if in too much pain.

I have planned my meals for today and I am closing the kitchen after supper. Something I am going to do is cut pop out in the evenings. Havin pop leads me to want to snack in the evenings and the caffeine in it leads to a not so restful sleep. I may try starting tomorrow to not have pop at home, just while at work. One day I may even get rid of the pop at work too but I don't want to cut it out completly.

Well I must go do some laundry and then ice my foot again.

just a few words

I NEED TO GET MY ACT TOGETHER!!! that is all

4 weeks tomorrow

My 2 races that I signed up for in November will be 4 weeks away tomorrow. Can I please be eating clean for the next 4 weeks ;) I will do my best to achieve this goal. If I can get the 4 weeks under my belt it will be more of a habit again.

I wasn't planning on running this morning but after i dropped my son off at school I headed out for a 5K run. What a great day for a run and I only had 2 walk breaks and they were no more then 1 minute :) I need to try tomorrow to run 5 or 6 and have no walk breaks. I just hope that it isn't raining when I get up after working nights.

Not sure what is going on tomorrow night. A girls night, a date night or just hanging out at home. Only time will tell. Working tonight, hope it isn't too crazy.

Thanksgiving does not last 3 days :)

but my food consumption would say different. I am back on track today and need to keep going strong. Vegas will be here before I know it. I am hoping for 10 lbs off by the time we leave.

I have another run in a month so I need to keep the clean eating going strong. I am pretty sure that was part of the reason for the not so great time with my run on saturday. I did a 5K recovery run this morning after dropping M off at school. I should have gotten up earlier to do it as it was already getting warm at 9. I am not going to complain about the warm weather though cause I know it will soon be gone.

I just realized that I probably should sign up for my next 2 races. I am nevrous about doing them but it gives me something to look froward to and train for. I will do that after I work my 3 shifts. I am kind of glad I only have 3 this set but that means I have a day shift in the middle of my days off. Oh well. at least I get to work with someone that it just getting back from their Mat leave :)

Have a great day everyone. I am going to try and get the laundry done today.

Clean Slate

when it comes to running. I am taking today off and then on monday I will do a recovery run just to see how I feel and how my legs/hips feel. I don't have any huge races for the rest of the year but I do plan on running 15K in november so that means that I have to keep my mileage fairly decent. I have been trying to figure out why my time was so slow yesterday. It could be because I started out so fast, the extra weight, not enough training in higher mileages...I can dwell on it though. I just to move on and run/train smarter. I will have a half and a 30K in march. I won't sign up for those until I run the 15K in november.

I am slowly cooking foods for our thanksgiving supper. I have the apple crips made, the dough in the bread maker to make rolls, pumpkin pie in the oven and cooking squash (not sure if it will turn out...I like my squash a bit dry and I don't know if this squash is dry). If the squash does not turn out I will peel and chop up the sweet potato's my FIL gave me and roast them.

I hope my hubby is home soon to put the turkey on.

well I need to do some work. Have a great sunday

3rd Half-Marathon...DONE

I am happy that I finished my 3rd half. The course was beautiful, the people that were running it were friendly and if walk breaks were taken you always had someone to talk to. There were lots of water stations and portapots along the route. We also go to do trail running too which was really nice. Now some things that I didn't enjoy were the hills (need to do more hill training), how hot it was (when I got to my car after the race it said that it was 25 degrees...I can also tell my the tan lines that I have that I did get a lot of sun...should have had sunscreen on I guess) and I found my tummy was quite sluggish from eating too much at breakfast (I should not eat peanut butter before running as I kept burping peanut butter taste) and my tummy was water logged from drinking water at every water station (i needed too though because of running in the heat). I was very disappointed in my time but really I have an extra 20 lbs on my body from last year, my eating has not been spot on like it was last year when I ran my races and I did not sleep well last night. I may have not gotten a great time but am just happy I crossed the finish line and was able to cross it with my little man. Would I do another half...OF COURSE I will :)

So speaking of eating...because of this experience I am going to start eating as clean as possible and limit my pop intake and try to get a good nights sleep. I need to stop drinking pop or coffee in the evenings!!!

Well I must go meet my husband. He was in the city and is picking me up a salad from wendy's. I am going to bring it back home, eat it and then have a nap. I am feeling a bit off and think food and sleep will make me feel better.

I have a lot to do to get ready for thanksgiving so I need to feel better.

A nice and easy 3K run

That is what I did today for my run when I got up...3K. Tomorrow is my 3rd half marathon. I am actually quite nervous about it for some reason. I just need to go out there and enjoy it. Positive mental attitude and talk will help me do this run. I am a little nervous about the heat too. I don't think I have ever done a long run let alone a race at 10am. Oh well it gives me time to have a small breakfast and some coffee. I am thinking I will get up at 7 and do this so the food has plenty of time to settle. I hate exercising with a full feeling belly.

I went for my WI today. I actually was thinking I was going to be up since I had a couple of days where I had quite a few of my flex points. I was pleasantly surprised with a .5 loss. Any amount of the scale going down makes me happy. I just want to get out of the 160's. I seem to just be stuck here. a few weeks of being OP should help me break this plateau.

I just had a Naan pizza and it was so yummy. It was about 11 pts but thankfully I am post nights and had the points for this. I had green and red pepper, onion, bbq sauce, goat cheese and chicken on it...YUMMY A very good choice for a post night shift supper. It is worth every point.

Happy Thanksgiving everyone and have a great weekend.

beautiful fall day for a run

I am skipping bootcamp this week so that I don't have any really sore muscles when I run my half marathon on saturday. I went for an 8K run this morning after I dropped my son off at school. I was so impressed with myself. I ran the entire 8K. I have been writting about how I have been taking walk breaks but I kept giving myself positive talk and was able to do it. I did have to stop at 2 stop lights and wait for the walk sign but I also stopped my garmin so I would actually run the 8K. I am not sure how many days off I am going to take but I have promised myself to keep my mileage up from now on. I really don't want along run to ever fall under 10K again!!!

Eating has been a bit of a struggle but it is better then it had been. I need to remind myself that the trip to vegas will be here before we know it and I want to enjoy myself and not be worried about feeling frumpy.

I have had the soup that I made on the weekend for supper my 2 days at work and it tasted so yummy. It is the maui black bean soup from one of the eat clean diet cookbooks. For my lunches I went to the cafeteria at work and had salads. They tasted so good too.

I need to be perfect these 2 days since I am supposed to go get weighed again on friday. I am going to make myself go even if I think it will be a gain!!

Well I am going to read some more blogs. Have a great wednesday.

Goals for October

I always try and make monthly goals but am really bad at keeping them or updating you on whether or not I was successful in these goals.

October goals

1. Perfect OP month

2. Deep clean the house on my days off

3. Run and go to bootcamp :)

4. Make meal plans and stick to it to cut down on grocery cost

5. Try to be more positive at the workplace and at home

Have a great month.

18K done...rest day today

Yesterday I pulled myself out of bed and kept telling myself that I will feel so much better to get the run done. I sure did. it was hard but I did it. On the 8th I will be running my 3rd half marathon :) Not sure how I will do time wise, just want to finish it

I will take a few days off from running. I will do bootcamp and go for walks. I need to keep the mileage up as I will be doing 2 races in november (on the same day) for a total of 15K.

I finally made the soup I meant to make last week. I just need to puree it and it will be done. I want it to cool off a bit before I take on that task.

Starting back to work tomorrow. My least fave rotation...mon-thurs. Oh well it will be nice to have another weekend off.

Another month is done

well almost done that is. September flew by. I started the day off with a great 6K run. I was thinking about the 18K that I have to do tomorrow and I may just do 3 loops of the 6K. That way I can get out early to do it since I did run in the dark this morning and felt ok about it.

I met a coworker at WW today and am happy to report that I am down 6 lbs :) If I had gone to WI after my 2 day binge I am actually down 10.2 lbs. I feel great and want to keep going like this. I know that if I get 3 weeks in things will get a bit easier.

Not much planned for the weekend. I just hope the rain will be done when I have to do my run tomorrow. Have a great weekend.

WI tomorrow

I missed my WI last week but am going tomorrow with a coworker. I need to make sure that I go weekly until I am back to my goal weight.

This morning I went to an hr long bootcamp class. Man my arms are feeling like jelly!! I am sure I will be feeling certain muscle groups tomorrow. I need to get a 6K run in tomorrow morning before my husband goes to work which means I need to get up nice and early. I signed up for the road to hope in November. I am doing the 5K and the 10K. I am pretty sure that is how I hurt my knee last year doing the half marathon so this year I will do 15K and on the flat surface instead of running down a long and steep hill!!!

Next weekend in the half marathon and if it goes well then I will be signing up for 2 races in march. The chilly half marathon and the Around the Bay :) I really hope that I am able to do both of them. It will give me something to train for during the cold winter months, brrr :)

I am making myself a stirfry for supper tonight. It will have left over bbq steak, green and red peppers, onion, mushrooms, snow peas, spaghettini and goat cheese. I have to make sure I make my soup tomorrow. I have been putting it off and I need to stop that. I also need to get groceries tomorrow too. Maybe I can work on the grocery list tonight and get them before heading back home after my WI.

I will keep you posted on the WI results.

so far so good :)

I have done well for 2 days now with eating and already I am feeling better mentally. It is amazing how much food affects my mood. So after my 6K run on monday and really tight calves I was a little worried about the 8K that I was going to do yesterday. After I got up I headed out to try and run the 8. I was actually quite impressed with how great I felt. Usually I really struggle with my runs post night. I had just a few walk breaks and no calf tightness which I was very happy about.

I had all intentions of going to bootcamp this morning but I just wasn't feeling it after working nights so it means I have to go tomorrow morning for sure. I need to make sure that I get 2-3 bootcamp style workouts in which means I need to do it at home if I am not making it to class. I already feel a bit of a difference in my body from doing 3 hr classes. I can only imagine what it will be like if I did it 3x/week. That should be included in my goal for these 8 weeks to Vegas challenge that I am doing with myself.

Well I am going to read a few more blogs then go to bed.

8 weeks to be on track

It is not really 8 weeks of being on track since I want it to be a lifestyle change but it is 8 weeks until I go to vegas with someone from work. I want to feel my best when I go so I know what I have to do. Eat healthy and exercise. Those 2 things make me happy so why oh why do I do things that I know will make me feel like crap. Is it self sabatoging or what????

I started the morning off with a 6K run. I have never had my calves feel so tight before, not really sure what that was about. Tomorrow I have an 8K schedule so hopefully my calves won't be as tight.

My FIL is picking up my little boy from school so I will be able to nap this afternoon, how awesome is that!!!!!

Well here is to 8 weeks of really focusing my all on healthy eating and looking forward to a girls trip :)

Wednesdays

I don't know what it is about Wednesdays and eating more then my allotted points :( I am sure my flex and AP's covered what I ate but it still make me feel yucky cause I ate more then what I needed. I think that is key. Eat to fuel your body and only fuel your body with good quality foods. I need to remember that when I eat. Ask myself if this is good fuel.

I went out for a 6K run this morning after dropping my little guy off and school and it was an awesome run :) I felt strong both physically and mentally. I just hope that will be my frame of mind tomorrow when I do my long run.

not much else to report. I have 2/3 things already made that I wanted to make on my days off so tooday or tomorrow I need to make my last soup.

Finding my groove...again

I am actually starting to feel like my healthy self again. I am eating healthy and running and doing bootcamp again. There is something about bootcamp that is so awesome. I sure hope that it will be able to continue. I am going to work my butt off for the 12 weeks it is running and really hope for a winter session :)

I am starting to look through my eat clean material and find some recipes that I want to try. I am going to make a breakfast pudding and then another soup and those should do me for a while. I think that is what I should do is at the beginning of each month make 2 or 3 different soups for my lunches. Nothing like a nice hot soup in the cool months :) There is a recipe in the eat clean magazine that I will probably make next week. I will do my best to take pictures and post them on here.

My long run is coming up in 2 days so I need to go easy on my night time snacking...nothing to heavy. Even peanut butter with apples is becoming a bit to heavy. i think I will get some go lean crunch and have that with greek yogurt and some berries, and have it between 7:30 and 8pm.

Friday is my WI day too. I will be interested in seeing what the scale will say. I need to make sure that I start early enough that I will be able to get to WI before my meeting at 10.

Well I am going to do some more reading and then cleaning time. The days are slipping away that I have off and the house isn't really in any better order!!!!

8K

As a recap for my workout yesterday...6K run and a 60 min bootcamp class. Needless to say when I started my run this morning (did not happen at 6 so I had do go at 9 after the boys were at school) I kept thinking there is no way that I can run 8K...well guess what...I DID IT :) I am so glad I did so that I just have to run 3K in the morning and then a 60 min bootcamp class. Once my half marathon is done I don't think that I will run on days that I do bootcamp!!!

Last night was my last day in week 1 of my ww book so I had a treat of trail mix but I must be honest and say it was so not worth the points that it was. I should have had a mini blizzard from dq or even and apple and peanut butter would have tasted much better. I hope to learn from this and not eat trail mix.

I have a chili and soup that I am going to be making today. i am hoping to get almost a month of lunches out of the 2 which will be so awesome. The chili that I am making is different then what I usually make. Hopefully this change will be a good one.

Well I should be going now. I need to shower, grab a coffee and head to the mall.

bootcamp and 6K

I actually took last night off work as saturday night I was just feeling so off...chills and a headache. I felt much better later in the day yesterday and was happy to sleep in my own bed. I really need to not get too sick that my training for my half marathon will be affected. I think my body was telling me that I needed to rest it up or it would get really sick.

This morning I woke up feeling good so I did a 6K run and then call me crazy but I went and did an hour long bootcamp. I love bootcamp and really want to try and do it 2x/week if possible. I may even get to do it 3x this week. I will do a short run on wed and then do an hr long bootcamp and then see how I feel when I wake up thurs morning and decide then if I will go or not.

I was quite hungry last night but I did ok. I need to figure out the points that I ate but I don't think it will be too bad.

I am going to use this week to be productive around the house and get some soups/chilli made that will hopefully last for about a month.

Have a great monday :)

16 K and 3 more long runs

So I ventured out around 8 am for my long run. I did ok but had quite a few walk breaks in there. I need to get more psycologically prepared for my long runs. I know I can push myself harder but haven't been doing that. I will promise myself I will do better the next 3 long runs and then really get pumped for my race. I will be honest and say that the number I saw on the scale this morning really shows me that I can get back to my healthy weight if I focus on it and make healthy choices. I have a few recipes that I want to try for suppers for work and I want to make a few soups to take to work for my lunches. I am going to buy a few things for salads for this week when I am at home as for some reason that is what I am really craving right now.

I have been doing so awesome with tracking what I have been eating and I must say after my 2 day shifts I did not come home and go crazy with snacking. I had one planned snack and that was it. I do really want to work on that and make some different chocies for those snacks. I know that I mentioned my yogurt, cereal and fruit choice but I am thinking that veggies and hummus would be a great choices too.

For my suppers at work I am going to make stirfry again. This time I will make it with chicken. I loved having it the other night and it will be perfect and easy for work. It doesn't take anytime really to make and it tastes so good.

I am excited to have mon-fri off this week and really have so much that I want to do. I need to limit my computer time and focus on organizing and cleaning my house.

Have a great saturday. Will be heading for a nap soon to prepare for my night shift. I am thinking around 1pm would be a good time and maybe stay in bed until 3:30 and then get to the grocery store to pick up a few things.

Bootcamp is Back

and I couldn't be any more excited. I went to the hour long class this morning and it felt so great to do this type of workout again. I did a few by myself during the summer but it really is not the same at all. I need to make sure that I do 2-3 of them a week. 1 or 2 will have to be by myself depending on my work schedule. it made me realize how much I love this type of workout and it is perfect for cross training. I will reach my healthy weight and get back into those clothes that I wore for a brief time.

I slept for almost 12 hours last night. For some reason I was so tired. Not really sure why. It could be because I was not eating the best. Maybe it affects me even more then I realize.

I am going to make a double batch of the baked ginger pumpkin oatmeal that I saw in this months oxygen magazine. I have to run to the bulk food store to see if i can find the crystallized ginger but if I can't I will just use regular ginger. I am really excited to try something new and it is only 4 pts for a serving.

Well I should run out and see if they have it before I have to pick the boys up from school. I will be running 5 or 6K the next 2 mornings and then my long run on saturday. I need to make sure I get up early enough to do the long run as early morning runs are my best runs :)

A rude awakening

So the last 2 days my eating has gone way to the unhealthy side and wow has it ever affected me mentally. I need to stop self sabatoging myself. I picked myself up today and went for a 5K walk/run and then went to WW to get weighed. I bought a new journal and have a new weight tracker. All positive things for a fresh start and mood wise I am doing much better.

Today I am going to make sure I am off the computer at a certain time and make sure to get some cleaning done around the house. I would like to have the basics done before heading back to work on thursday.

I know that my healthy self is in there somewhere and I am going to find her and bring her back!!!

Time is flying by

I was just saying that I couldn't believe that it is september already and we are already in the 5th day of this month. This is so crazy...time is flying by.

I have been doing so awesome with my eating and I sure hope it continues. I am going to make sure that I use my 4 days of work coming up to really get things perfected. No more eating a lot when I get home from work. I should save my apple and peanut butter treat for when I get home. I will do that. It is a 3 pt snack that I really like. There is no reason at all to eat anything more then that prior to going to bed. I don't need fuel to sleep. I will try not to eat anything later then 8:30.

I got up later then planned but still went out an rocked a 5K run. Speaking of running I have been doing some thinking about where I want to go with my running. This will all be dependent on how I feel after my half marathon in october but if I feel fine (as in my knees feel fine) I will consider doing the around the bay 30K run in March. If that goes ok then I may consider a full marathon. The thing is about the full marathon is that if I do the 30K I will keep up my mileage and do it shortly after the 30K race...it would be an additional 12KM's. I wonder if that means I would be ready for it in May. If not in may then I will look for 1 in June. it would be so nice not to have to train for a full marathon in the heat of the summer. I just need to focus on the half though for now and make sure I don't get injured!!!!

Time to tidy up the kitchen. The kids start school tomorrow and I am back to work. I am doing something fun on saturday with 2 girls from work. I will write about it on sunday.

Sept 3 and 14k

I got up realtively early but should have gone even earlier as it was quite muggy out when I ran at 7:30 My run actually started out pretty good but then my motivation started to falter and I will admit that I had quite a few walking breaks for about 9K of my run, oh well I managed to get the 14K in which ihs the main thing. I really need to work on positive thinking when I am running.

I downed some water and had my oatmeal when I got home as my tummy was telling me it was starving and my mouth was parched which said give me water!!! Now as I am readingéwritting blogs I am enjoying my coffee. We are having people over after lunch so once I am done my coffee I need to tidy the kitchen and clear off the table and then have a much needed shower.

Not quite sure all the types of food that we will have but I need to be smart with my choices. The scale was good to me today and has me at 158.6. I do not want to see the 160`s again!!!! I so want to lose 10 lbs this month and know I can do it if I make smart, healthy choices :) I will try not to weigh myself until next saturday. My long run is going to have to be sunday next week because of the way my schedule goes.

Have a great saturday everyone.

Sept 2

Up early this morning (not as early as it should have been) for a 5K run. Tomorrow morning is going to be the big run (14K) so I really need to make sure that I get up and out the door on time. We are having some people over tomorrow afternoon so I need to make sure that I have lots of time in the morning to get ready.

I bought a new book today based on suggestions from the blog http://www.pbfingers.com/2011/09/02/odd-english-muffin-habit/ I am going to try and start reading it tonight at bedtime. That is when I will try and do my reading is before bed. I will try and do 1/2 hr of reading just to get settled for the night. I went so long without reading that I am getting excited about reading again.

This is what my day looks like in the way of food
Breakfast: protein pancake with 1tbsp of peanut butter and 1/2 banana
Lunch: turkey burger with carrots and pineapple
snack: kashi bar
Supper: chicken, sweet potato and salad
snack: apple and peanut butter

I find the afternoons so hard that I need to stay focused. I really have so many things that I can do that I should not eat out of boredom at all. I just need to get off my butt and do the chores that need to be done.

On that note I will sign off and putter around the house.

Sept 1st

Wow the past month flew by and here we are into another month. Sept and October are a couple of my fave months. I love how it is still warm during the day and then cool in the evenings and in the mornings (important for those of us who do early morning runs). I did run the last 2 days after getting up from working nights and I will be honest in saying that they were difficult runs which I think partly had to do with how warm it was. I guess I will find out tomorrow for sure if that was the reason when I will get up early and run 5K. Gearing up for my saturday 14K run :)

I am really hoping to have 10 lbs off by the time I write my Oct 1st entry. This will so happen if I stick to the clean eating, keep up with my training and with the restart of bootcamp. I am really hoping that the times will work out for me and that I will be able to do it 2-3x/week. Not only will this change in exercise help but bootcamp and its principles really motivate me to eat clean :)

I have the next 5 days off which I am excited about. I am hoping to get a lot of work done around the house and some good soups made to take for work. There is a black bean one in Mama Pea's book that I am going to try. Soups make great foods to take for work for lunches so I want to make lots. I should make a different one each week.

Well I must go and shower now. I have an appt for some waxing!!!

Goals for September

I am writting this post early as I am working the next 2 nights and I am at home today while Matthew has his group in the basement.


I can't believe that september is just around the corner. I have been doing some thinking about the summer and can't believe I spent so much time talking about getting back to my healthy weight and how I did not do it :( What I am proud of though is that I am doing well in the running department again. I am pretty pumped (and nervous) about my upcoming half marathon in October. I have a love hate relationship with training but more love for it really. This morning though I so did not want to get out of bed to run and now I wish I did. If my husband gets home on time I may head out to do some hill training. So my major goals for september will be to continue with my training and of course to get the healthy eating going 100%. I know that while we were away I felt so great on the days that my eating was on track and the more days I had that were healthy the better I felt. so my little trick will be to get a calender and add stickers to each day that I eat healthy and when I have completed a week I will get a small reward and when I have a month of stickers it will be a little bigger reward and of course the biggest reward will be when I am healthy and at a healthy weight :)

I want to strive to eat clean. It made me feel so much better when I was. Putting crap into my body just does not make sense. It really does make me feel like "crap"

Other things I will work on is getting my house in order. Not having a house in order makes me feel so disorganized and I don't like feeling that way.

I am hoping to be able to attend bootcamp again. I really hope that J will be able to start 2 of her classes 15 minutes later so that I can make it out to her place :)

Well here is to a great september and not more writting about what ifs!!

Back to Reality

So early yesterday morning (or very late at night depends on how you look at it) we made it back from our trip and to be honest it is great to be home. I am not too happy about heading back to work though. That happens tomorrow :(

My exercise was great while we were away. I stuck to my training plan for my half marathon 100% and since we have been home now for 2 days I have still stuck to my plan. I did 5K yesterday which was hard after traveling all night and today I did 14K which went pretty good :)

My eating was ok as long as I wasn't at my moms. Why does my moms food always taste to extra yummy. Oh well, now that I am at home I am really getting back on track with the whole tracking points and eating as clean as possible.

I am going to WI after my nights which means as of Sept 1st I will do weekly WI's again and I think I will go for offical ones as WW'ers too and post it on my blog.

That is all for now. Going to read some more blogs while I finish my morning coffee.

Finally Arrived

On saturday we left after I got home from running 10K :), showered and got my b'fast ready and our 2 day journey to fredericton began. We camped just outside of worcester, Mass and then in Bar Harbour. I have actually been doing really good with the eating and I hope that it will continue. Considering that we haven't really stayed in one stop for very long and having to eat out I am qutie pleased. I will be going to get groceries tomorrow after I get back from my run (I just hope that it isn't raining like it is now).

I am getting so tired so I think that I will go to bed. Night

Getting 100% focused

I will attempt to stay as focused on clean eating while we are away but I know that when we come back from Vacation I am going to be 100% focused on getting back to my healthy weight. Last night I had some treats for my son's bday party. I don't feel guilty about having them but what I did do was have some things after the party and too late at night. Late night eating can make for feeling gross the next day. All I can really do is focus on eating healthy today which is what I plan on doing.

I am so happy that I only have 2 more shifts until I will have some time off. The 5 nights that I did is going to take a while to recover from, especially since there are 2 days coming up of work. Oh well, I will just suck it up and keep remembering that I will be off soon :)

I was going to do hill training today but slept in until 8 and plus it was pouring out so needless to say it did not happen. I need to make sure to get up early enough tomorrow to get the 5K portion of this weeks training done. Thursday I should get up and do some strength training.

I need to make a list of things I need to do before we go away. That is something I could do instead of reading blogs, but you know which was is more fun ;)

Done my nights

I finished 5 nights in a row...I was pretty tired last night but when I got home I was not able to sleep for whatever reason. So I pulled on my running clothes and got my 4K run in before the heat set in. It was still pretty warm but not as warm as this afternoon. I am really feeling tired now. I am just going to run out and get a bday card for my little boy and then come home and have about 1 hr nap. It probably will make me feel worse but I really need it.





My eating was so good on my nights and I know that tomorrow I won't even have time to eat since I have so much work to get done around the house. I already have the bathroom cleaned and the kitchen. I may tackle the fridge tomorrow. We really need to eat up what is left in the fridge.





I just decided to go an nap now. Have a great monday afternoon.

One more to go

Just a couple of hours and I will be starting night number 5. NEVER AGAIN will I do that many nights in a row, actually I would do 5 nights over 5 days any day but a mixture would have been much better. We actually had a decent night. I have been in charge on these nights (well it will be 4 out of the 5) and sometimes when I give report in the morning I feel like such a tool. sometimes I feel like I am letting the day staff down but then the girls that I have actually done the shift with tell me that I did a great job and to me that is what matters. I am learning from this and know areas that I need to improve on. so instead of focusing on the insecurities I have about having this responsibility I need to take it as a learning experience.

Eating has been great. Tonight though I am getting a Skinny Vanilla Lattee and a half maja salad from wendy's. I figure a treat is well deserved on my 5th night ;)

I took today off from running but went for a long walk. I don't think I could have ran in this heat.

Well I am going to have a busy week ahead. I need to spend minimal time on the computer. Way too many things to get done.

What was I thinking...

So last night I went to work for an overtime shift. I work 2 more nights which means I will once again have worked 60 hrs in 5 days, this time though all my shifts have been nights. I have so many things that I need to do in the next week before we go away.

since I worked nights last night i did not do my long run this week. It will have to wait until next sat. I found it really hard to run today so I ran 4.6Km and walked probably 1 - 1.5 Km's. I found the humidity was pretty bad this afternoon and it doesn't help when I have worked nights.

I am doing good on the eating front. The scale is showing good results. I am hoping to have 4-5 lbs off before we leave. If I keep eating this healthy and exercising everyday it may happen. I need to make sure to stay OP while we are away so I am going to bring my scale with me just to keep me in check. i think in 2 weeks after I had my huge breakdown I am down 10.6 lbs (actually a little over 2 weeks)...not too bad and i did have one binge session in that 2 week period but I feel good about having my focus back and will be so busy this week that I should be ok.

I am excited about having 16 days off. It is well deserved and I am actually looking forward to spending some time with my husband and the boys. We need some quality family time.

going to read some more blogs then get ready for work.

Binge Eating

This is something that I have struggled with my whole life. I just had one on the 2nd and it was awful...the way I felt after I mean. I wonder why I even do it. yes while I am putting the things in my mouth it may give a second of gratification but the end result is so not worth it. what is worth it is feeling healthy at the end of the day and happy with the choices that you have made. I picked myself up and moved on.

Yesterday post binge I did not get up and do my run. I felt hung over and did not get a great sleep. The good news is that my inlaws took my little man for the afternoon and after I had a nap I went for a 5K run :)

stop thinking about the past, focus on the present for a positive future.

working nights tonight. Hopefully it isn't too crazy busy.

Aug 1st

This year is slipping away and I am just now getting back on track. I just started a new WW journal and it is for 12 weeks. 12 weeks of tracking and staying OP, there really is no reason why I can't do this.

In order to do this I am making a huge batch of soup that should do me for lunches until we leave on our trip. I am really going to have to plan it out carefully my meals for when we are away. I am not going to blow it on our vacation. I think that it will help since I will be training for the half marathon.

speaking of the half marathon I had a pretty good run this morning. I actually was running faster then normal which surprised me. I need to remember when doing my long runs to start out slow and gradually build up my speed. I start hill training tomorrow which should be lots of fun ;) along with the hill training I really am going to try and get a bootcamp workout in. I may do it before supper. I am thinking 3:30 would be a great time to go out and do it. I need to really focus on getting 3 strength training workouts in a week.

Enjoy the rest of this beautiful day.

9K and WI

When I got up this morning I so did not want to go for my run. I had a few things to eat late in the evening and felt like it was still sitting in my belly when I woke up. I headed out just hoping that I could get the 9K in that I had planned. It actually seems like forever since I have done alonger run then 5K so I wasn't sure how it would work out. Well I am happy to report it went really well. I was thinking it would take me 1 hr or a bit more to do it but I did it in under 1 hr :) I feel like I am getting back on track with my training and will hope for a good training week :)

So I have only been go to WW to WI once a month and today was that day. I know that it doesn't actually tell the true tale of my weight loss struggles in the past month but I am down almost 1 lb since last month. The truth of the scale is that I am actually down 8.4 lbs in a week. With all the junk that I eat the scale goes up and down and as you know I had a bit of a break down and made myself promise to treat my food addiction like a drug/alochol addiction and clearly avoiding all those trigger foods has helped with the weight loss :) I am going to try and go weekly to WI though until I get back to my happy weight.

I have some banana choc chip bread cooking right now and I will have a piece for my dessert. Things like that aren't really trigger foods for me.

Well I need to go and enjoy this beautiful saturday!!

1st week on the wagon

at midnight tonight I will have completed my first week back on the wagon and I have had an awesome week. I will report more on this tomorrow morning along with the WI results.





I just completed 5 shifts at work and man it sure does take a lot out of me. I took an unplanned rest day today. I was going to go to the gym but never made it. Starting next week I am going to make sure that I do get 3 days of strength training in. Either at the gym or doing an at home bootcamp is how I will do this. i am actually going to research some at home bootcamp videos to see what is out there.





I will stay on the wagon for the remainder of today and have a great report to give in the morning :)

Day 4...

I am happy to report that I am working on Day 4 of being on the healthy wagon and so far so good :) The first 3 days went great and I am feeling pretty good. I did 2 5K runs the last 2 days before heading in to work. I actually ran the entire 5K. I had some difficulty doing it mentally but I pushed myself to do it. I just have to remind myself to go a bit slower since I am a bit heavier then I was when I was training for my half marathons last year. My goal is to be at my happy weight when I run my 3rd half marathon. I refuse to enter the new year not being at a happy weight!!!

I need to keep reminding myself how crap food really is my addiction and the best way to overcome those addictions is to avoid them, figure out what makes me eat this type of food etc. I want to be back to the happy place I was last summer. I have 3 weeks until we will be down east and I want to so badly be in the low 150's. I know I can if I keep doing what I have been doing the last 3 days.

Well I should do some cleaning. My next few weeks before we go away will be busy since my schedule is kind of all over the place so that I could have those extra 2 days addes to my 2 week vacation. My full time partner at work just started her 16 days off today. I know it will feel so awesome. I want my house to be in tip top shape though before we leave so that when we come home I won't have any house work to do at all.

Enjoy the rest of your monday.

stress +eating crap = feeling worse

The last couple of days have been a bit stressful. I won't get into the details but needless to say they led to eating crap. I should have known better since when I eat crap it is really just a temp fix and in the long run makes me feel worse. Just like an addiction to alcohol and drugs. I need to take my addiction to crap food more serious and I need to hop on the wagon. It is not only crap food but binging on anything reallly. I need to have following my pts spot on be one step to help me overcome this addiction. I am starting my journey to becoming clean today and I really need to do this for so many reasons.

an important appointment

This morning I did not get up to go for a run. We have a very important appt for our little boy today and I just was not feeling the run this morning. My little boy has been having seizure type activity for almost 3 months now. We are worried about this. He had a head injury 4 years ago to this date and there are just so many things going on in my mind right now that I would not have enjoyed the run even though it probably would have been good for me. I will try to get some form of activity today.

I signed a contract with my husband this morning to get back to my healthy weight. I will spare you the details though ;)

Well that will be all. Going to read some more blogs while I wait for my little man to wake up.

Crappy run but still feeling good

I knew I should have gone for my run when I got home from work last night. I went to bed though and when I got up it was so HOT out there. I love the heat but not when I need to run. I am getting up early tomorrow and going to do my best to get a 5K done. I have set out a training plan on paper to get me through until the half marathon in october. I need to do my best to stick to it.

The scale is going down which is great. I think that a lot of the weight that I had put on over a couple of days was water weight. I am almost back to the 150's again and I know that if I have a great week that I will be even lower then I was when I did the post about being happy where the scale was. I still need to get 25-30 lbs off. I made a deal with my husband to try and keep me accountable and this time I will take it seriously.

I did so well with my eating last night at work which always makes me happy. Now what I really need to work on is to not eat after I get home from working days. I really don't need to since I usually go to bed within and hour or 2 of getting home. My first 2 days of this set I have eaten in the evenings on my way home and when i got home and I felt like crap going to bed and when i got up. Why do that to myself. Another thing I need to work on is when I am at home during the day when my little boy is have his IBI at the house. I need to do something productive instead of eating. There is a lot of work that needs to be done around the house and I will work on that instead of stuffing my face.

I am off from mon-fri this week. I do enjoy this set that I have off. While everyone else is working I am off. I mananged to get rid of 2 night shifts which means that I am going to have 16 days off in August. How sweet is that. I can't wait to go home for a visit.

Have a great monday everyone.

Finding my way back...

to my healthy weight. I find that I am having such a hard time getting myself 100% in the game. why can't I get it through my head that each day that I spend worrying about getting back to that weight but still putting crap in my body is just wasting time. I need to stop focusing so much on it and really take it one day at a time and remember that each day that I eat clean/staying in my point range is one day closer to my goal, but each day that i don't do it is making it even longer to reach my goal.

Today I should have got up early like I had planned so that it would be cool when i went running. i went around 10:15 and it was already 30 degrees and who knows what it was with humidity. i ran 4K with a 3 min walk break in that time. I really would have like to have done more but I don't think it would have been safe. I really should run when i get home in the mornign after working tonight while it will be cooler. I need to do 4K again. I really need to push myself to do that.

I have things planned out for my meals and I need to stick to it. My mood has been crap and I know it is due to the food I have been putting in. I really want to enjoy my vacation so for the next 4 weeks I need to make sure I am 100% on plan. I am going to make some kind of deal witht the husband to get me accountable.

Time to take the kids outside by the pool. Enjoy this beautiful sunday.

victory on the scale :)

I finally am back in the 150's :) I am going to work hard all month and hopefully when I get on the scale Aug 1st I will see the 140's again. I am feeling really good. I know I have been up and down for quite a while now but I am really feeling the motivation again to eat as healthy as possible.

I was hoping to do a 7K run today but because it was so hot and I was so tired from working 5 shifts this week I ran 5 and walked the rest of the way home. I am still going to keep going with week 4 of my training but I know for my long run I won't do it post nights and it will be an early morning run. It is quite hot and humid here in southern ontario (I am not complaining though after all the rain we had during the spring)

I am getting hungry so right now there is chicken being bbq'ed and sweet potato rounds cooking which will be added to my salad. Can't wait to eat.

Tomorrow night is U2. Hopefully I will have some pictures to show on here.

have a great night.

one more night

Thank goodness this will be my last night. I hope it isn't too crazy busy. I am going to see if i can be in charge again. I like having the experience and it is kind of rewarding knowing that I stood up for the nurses even though it didn't work out like it should have. Becoming able to be more out going is a good thing for me.

I ran 4K when I got up this afternoon. What a hot run that was. I have my long run tomorrow but at least I know 1. I don't have to work and 2. I can get right into the pool after my run :)

Must shower and then get PT and myself lattes for our 3rd night :)

pool side bootcamp

After the agony I was in after I did my last at home bootcamp I found one that i didnt' think would be too bad. don't get me wrong it was tough but i don't think my legs will be as sore as last time. I really want to try and do this mini bootcamps at home 3x/week. thankfully I have saved all the e-mails that I got from jill and have lots of options for my workouts.

Had a great night at work last night. We had a few people but wasn't crazy busy which is always nice. I am working 2 more nights. We have to do 3-4 pickups in a year and i was so stupid and picked one for this month. who is their right mind would do one in the summer on a weekend???

Not much else to report. had a great night food wise and hope to have another one tonight.

6 K

That is what I ran today. I actually was debating with myself whether I would run or not and am so happy that I decided that I would. I always feel so great after I exercise. Tomorrow will be an at home bootcamp. I need to make sure that I pick one that does not involve as many lunges as the last one as I felt sore for about a week after ;) I want to get back in tip top shape!!!

I finally cleaned out the fridge today. What a disgusting mess. It looks so awesome now. I am going to tackle things for the next month and a bit so that when we leave for our summer vacation the house is in good order. I want to declutter too. We have so many things in this house that we really don't need. Not quite sure if we will end up having a yard sale or if we will just give stuff away. I guess we could always try to sell things and if that does not work we can give it to people. I am think that it may be time to get rid of all our thomas things. Not quite sure how my little man will feel about that. I guess if we tell him he can buy a new toy with the money he gets from selling his toys may make it better for him.

I really wish I wasn't working the next 3 nights. i am really in the cleaning mood. Hopefully it will continue for the next 6 weeks :)

Have a great evening and night.

July Challenge - revamped

Well a few things have changed which makes it so I need to change my goals for this month. the first thing was that we were away for 3 days and I didn't really have great control over what I could eat and I did indulge in a few things. So starting today:

clean eating following WW points
stick to my half marathon training
do at home bootcamp 2-3x/week (the actually bootcamp has been cancelled)
no hot yoga-decided it was to far to drive.

Back to the grind tomorrow.

June Recap

I can't beleive that tomorrow is the beginning of July. June was an up and down month for sure as far as eating went. I am happy to say that I have lost 8.6 lbs during this month :) I would have liked more but like I said an up and down month kept me from losing more.

My goals for the upcoming month are

clean eating
continue training for my half
go to yoga 2x/week
bootcamp 2-3x/week
stay OP with WW and go for weekly WI's if able too

Here is to a great month and for staying focused while away this long weekend.

Backyard Bootcamp

I didn't really feel like going to a bootcamp class today as I was working on getting my laundry done so when I was somewhat caught up and waiting for clothes to dry I went out in the back yard by the pool and did a mini boocamp class courtesy of Jill Ings-Robillard from better body bootcamp (believe fitness). This is what I did:

40 butt kicks, 40 jumping jacks, 10 burpess, 20 alternating lunges - repeat x2

10 front lunges, 10 side lunges, 10 reverse lunges with weights, 10 diving lunges, 20 shoulder press, 15 best over rows and 10 hard pushups - repeat x1

walking lunges with weights (20 steps), 10 burpess and 15 one legged stretch/leg - repeat x3

then I stretched. I was actually shakey after this workout which to me means I had a great one and will probably feel it tomorrow. I know that if I can do workouts like this 3x/week plus my running and a couple of yoga classes/week and eat healthy I will get to my feel good weight :)

well I should eat some lunch, shower, straigten hair and get all the laundry dried, folded and put away and then it will be almost time to head out for supper (I think).

16 Weeks

16 weeks until I run my 3rd half marathon. I have already started training 2 weeks ago so I have figured that I would do a couple of repeat weeks during my training provided that I don't miss any long runs.

So since I am starting this training I need to focus on clean, healthy, portion controlled eating but with one treat on the day of my long run. I need to stop having the daily treats and really focus on just having 1/week which will make it so much more exciting. I think that I will make a reciped from Oh She Glows and freeze them individually to have as my treat. They are a type of square that looks so amazing. I will have to make a trip to goodness me for some of the needed ingredients. I think I will wait until after the holiday before I make this trip. I may actually wait until after payday.

of course this journey starts with a night of eating out :( I will make the healthiest choices possible during the day and then be smart when picking my meal. We are going to an italian rest. though which means I really should have a nice glass of wine (provided they have a kind that I like). I am going to dinner and then to see Tim McGraw with a couple of girls from work. i am really looking forward to this :) Should be a great time.

Well i will try and keep you updated on how the training and eating is going and I know i have said this before but I will try and add some pictures to my blog to make it more interesting.

Getting it together...it is a must

Seriously though, I don't understand why I am having such a hard time getting my eating under control. One week today until July 1st. I am going to use this week to get it together and then really focus on July as a clean eating month with a few times of eating out. I need to do this for myself. I am no where near as heavy as I was before but the numbers on the scale are not where I want them to be so I need to work on getting back to that feel good weight.

This morning I had a bowl of oatmeal. I have some beans on the stove cooking so I can make a batch of chili and 2 pkgs of turkey thawing. 1 is for the chili and the other is for my turkey burgers which are a mush for my lunch. I really do love this burgers and I don't seem to get sick of them which is a very good thing.

Not sure what I will do for activity today. It is supposed to be a rest day but if it is not raining I may go for a walk later. I am just waiting for those beans to cook and if it isn't raining I will go for my walk. I do have a wax appt this afternoon and then I need to get groceries. I need to do this so that I don't make frequent trips to the grocery store which really adds up in the end.

The husband and I went to watch Hangover 2 last night. I have heard people say that it wasn't that great but it made me laugh out loud at many parts which is always a good thing (not as much as Bridesmaids though). Overall I liked this movie.

Well I need to get going and start on a weeks worth of laundry. That is my goal to do laundry weekly and put it all away :)

Leave the past behind

I think that is a big reason why I am at a stand still right now when it comes to healthy eating and getting back to my happy weight. I keep focusing on where I was. I need to move on and focus on eating healthy each day so that in the end I will be back to that weight. The more I think about how I let it slip away depresses me and makes it hard to stay motivated.

So with that said I am going to do a challenge for myself. 1 year of staying OP. Honestly I know I can do it if I put my mind to it. There will be rewards weekly and monthly when I have had a perfect week/month.

Here is to a WW year :) which will lead to a healthy lifestyle.

A picture speaks volumes :(

Last night I was out with a bunch of girls from work to send off a great coworker who is leaving us to go back out west. We had a picture taken and like my title says it speaks volumes. I look like I am so bloated :( It was a bit of a reality check and I have my WW 3 month meal tracker out this morning and it is time to get serious again about tracking. I need to do this for me. I want to find that happiness I had last year when I was doing so well with healthy eating and exercising. I felt so full of life back then. I want that back and I need to remember that I am the only one that can get that back!!!

I had a big bowl of oatmeal this morning. I am thinking that I need to find something as healthy but less points for my breakfast. I think that protein pancakes will have to make an appearance again. They are yummy, filling and strawberries make the perfect topping for them.

Even though I am eating out again tomorrow I am using today as my getting back on track day. I will make the smartest choice I can tomorrow when we eat out.

NKOTBSB tomorrow night, can't wait.

Bread and Honey :)

This morning we got up nice and early so that we could get to my 15K race. It was a beautiful morning when I got up at 5:30 but I knew that it meant it would most likely be quite warm for the run. That is ok though after all the cool weather I have ran in.

The course had a few more hills then I expected but overall I loved the course and would probably do this race again. I did it in 1 hr and 40 min which I am happy with that time. I even had a few walk breaks. The one things I did not like that there were no porta pots along the race route. Thankfully I did not really have to go.

Now that I have this 15K under my belt I am contemplating what to do with my long runs while training for my half marathon in October. It is a bit soon to start training but since I do have 15K done I think I will make my long runs that distance or more and just keep doing longer distances. Maybe some longer runs will be half marathon or more distances. I would love at some point get to 30K before the nice weather runs out so that i know I can do it and sign up for around the bay. if I know I can run 30K then my focus for that race in march will not be so much on the distances as more focus on hills. I will keep doing the longer distance once a week but it will be nice to keep steady with a lot of mileage.

I guess my main focus now is to keep eating as healthy as I can. I know the 2 nights at work where we had a bistro and ordered out one night was a little more indulgence then I should have had but I will just carry on. I have 2 nights that I am eating out this coming week too. I just need to make sure that I watch what I eat during the day and for the rest of the week.

Have a great day everyone.

June Challenge :)

Wow, I really can't believe that it is June 1st, CRAZY. I feel very positive that this month I will be getting my act together and am looking forward to eating healthy foods and having exercise as part of my daily life. The exercise has always been good but i want it to be even better. What would make it better is to be training for something. I know that my 16 weeks does not start until towards the end of June but I will follow somewhat of a schedule up until the half marathon training starts. I will work on strength training now and even when the training starts. I really think that working on my core and leg strength will make me a stronger runner.

What this will entail is running 4-5 x/week with bootcamp 2-3x/week. One day I will overlap the running and bootcamp which will mean a shorter run and maybe just a mini bootcamp but it will all depend on what day it falls on and what is available for bootcamp classes. I really would like to get to yoga 3-4x/week again too as this helps me in so many ways. I would have loved to go today but as soon as I am done writting this entry I will be heading for a nap. This is night 1 of 3.

My eating has been pretty good but I still have the issue of too big of a snack in the evening. I need to start freezing some bananas again to make banana softserve. This would be a much better choice then the oatmeal that I have so often.

Here are my challenges for the month of June:

Keep my house organized (really need to work on this)

Track food consuption and stay OP

Weekly WI's at weight watchers

Exercise

Drink lots of water

No mindless spending

Plan weekly menus for the family

Less TV (all reruns so no need to be glued to the TV)

Here is go a great month :) Time for a nap.

13K :)

Yeah my long run today went so much better then last weeks. Not quite sure what made it so much better but I will take it. I only did 13 this morning instead of 14 so that I would not burn myself out this week before my 15K race. I am feeling pretty good going into this race. I always find that i am pumped when running with a group of other runners. My eating got back on track yesterday and I am really hoping that with working 5 shifts this week that it will help. I am going for my WI on friday since I am working friday night and don't want to get up to soon on saturday and go for a WI. Friday will be a rest day for me in terms of exercise, well I may go for a walk, to it will be a great day for the WI. I really believe that if I am perfect in what I eat I may see teh 150's again. If not on their scale then I should on mine :)

I am hoping to go to hot yoga at noon today but I already missed church due to some stomach issues. I will see how I feel in a bit. If I still have some pain I will pass. I could go after work tomorrow night but I will see how I feel at the end of the shift.

Today I need to get some groceries for the week and make some chili. I am cooking up some beans and I have 2 chicken breasts that I will cook and use as the meat part of the chili. I do love pulled chicken in my chili the best.

Well I am going to have to go and pick up the boys from church. Just waiting for a text from my husband telling me to go get them.

1st WI

So I had been doing quite well until thurs and fri with my eating. I kind of lost a bit of control on those days and felt it in every aspect that I could. I sucked it up today and went to get weighed in and was down 3.9 lbs :) Yeah me. I know I could have done better but I slipped for 2 days. I am going to work really hard this week. It will be a challenge though since we are having a bistro for 2 out of my 3 nights. I will just watch my portions and try to make healthy choices. I want to have a rockin' week since I will be running a 15K race next sunday. I was going to do a long run today but am saving that for tomorrow. I need to make sure that I am in bed no later then 10pm. I will be getting up early (hopefully I can get out of bed by 6) and will do 13-14k. I am just going to do a loop twice and then the last 4K will be a bit different with a nice hill at the end :

I know that I am involved in a challenge for june (started already) through bootcamp and part of the challenge is not only to lose 5 lbs but to do 50 jj's, 50 mountain climbers and 50 burpies/day. I did the first 2 already today but my tummy is a bit full so i am going to wait until it is empty before attempting the burpies.

I really need to try and get to a yoga class tomorrow so I won't be too stiff.

Need to think of what to have for supper tonight...something yummy and fun should be the plan.

3 days done :)

I have been on track for 3 days and feel great about that. Today I went for a 12K run. I must admit but in the last 5 KM's of the run I did a walk/run. I am just hoping that my long run on saturday will be better.

I am doing nights tonight and tomorrow night. I honestly am hoping that because our days were busy that tonight won't be too bad. I have a cooler filled with snacks and need to promise myself that I will stay on track for my nights. I am thinking that if I get a week under my belt that I will get a lot of my motivation back.

Well nothing else to report.

Day 1 is almost over

I have had a good day being back on track. i did have some oatmeal for my evening snack since I had 9 pts left over for the day. I went to bootcamp this evening for an hour long class.

Tomorrow I really hope that i can get up and feel good about the run that I will do. I know that I will be doing a run I just hope that the getting out of bed part will be ok.

I have my food planned for tomorrow and I will make it my goal to stick to it :)

I will do this :)

Found the Wagon

I took the plunge today with WW'ers and I just hope that I can stick with it. I can't believe that I am once again talking about having a bunch of weight to get off. when I reached my goal weight I had told myself never again. clearly I have not delt with the issues that I have that make me overeat :( I will try to work through them as I work hard to get this extra weight off.

So today is day 1 of finding my way back to the healthy lifestyle that made me feel so wonderful. I am hoping to get to bootcamp tonight. That is as long as my husband gets home in time for me to go.

I am trying to figure out what to make for supper tonight. Not quite sure what that will be. maybe I will cook up a batch of turkey burgers and have one for supper. I have already made a batch of soup which will help for my lunch foods but having the burgers on had would be nice too.

I will have to get myself to bed early tonight so that I will not have such a hard time to get up and run before work.

Well here is to the journey once again that I will make it through :)

Looking for the WW wagon...

and I need to leap on to it and not look back. This weight watcher has not been doing well the last 2 days and this is how I am gaining weight and not having any success. You can't go a few days eating great and then eating everything in sight. It is not healthy in so many ways and the weight will not come off.

I started today off great. I wasn't going to go for a run but my hubby provided me told me to go and I listened to him. Now that I am home and have a 5K under my belt I feel much better then when i first woke up.

I so need to get my focus back. I have been feeling horrible and I am the only one that can fix things.

Starting to track today...have a lunch out and will try and do my best to not go overboard.

An active 2 days

I have been doing pretty good the last few days with my eating. I am going to try and stay off the scale until friday morning. I am hoping to see the 150's again or be very close. Once I reach the 150's I will reevaluate things to get the next 10 lbs off.

so back to the active thing. Yesterday morning I got myself out of bed so that I could run early enough and still go to church. Yeah me, I did 10K :) I am so happy that I was able to do this. I really want to make sure that I keep my long runs at 10K or longer. On friday I want to do 12K. I am training for a 15K race in a couple of weeks so I need to get a few long runs in before this race. After that I am going to start thinking about my next half marathon and figure out a good training program. I am thinking that I may just start at week 1 of the 16 week program that I have used for my other 2 races as it works well. The only thing is that the long runs at the beginning would be less then 10K so I many just keep them at 10K so I won't lose the endurance.

This morning I did a 1 hr bootcamp class and then did 1 hr of hot yoga. I am really liking going to bootcamp again and hope to get at least 2 classes in/week and if possible have them both be 1 hr long ones. 3 would be awesome but I don't think that will be able to happen. So if it doesn't happen I should get my butt to the gym to do some strength training.

This time of day I want to eat and I did have a granola bar but I need to keep reminding myself that my body is just trying to trick me into eating and I really don't want to fall for it. I want to get this extra weight off and giving into the tricks my mind plays on me won't help.

Tomorrow I will try to do a 6 or 7 K run. I just hope it isn't raining out.

I will not

eat anything else. I have done so well today and just had a very hearty snack and I don't need anything else. I may want more food but I really don't need it. I am going to get my grove back.

Tomorrow morning I will be getting up early and going for a 5K run. I am so happy I only have to work 2 days this set :)

Active Day

This was one of those days that I did an hour long bootcamp class and then a 1 hr moksha yoga class :) Great workout for both of them. My heart was just pounding in bootcamp and after the series of standing poses in yoga.

So last night my husband and I had a little chat. He tries to be so supportive with my trying to be healthy and I know the fact that I put on some weight and am not eating the best is probably worrisome to him so we made a deal to help me get back to my feel good weight. As soon as I reach that weight, providing it is before Sept 1st we will take a trip to Vegas. Yeah, I love vegas. I need something big to help with the motivation. I have all kinds of other reasons and motivators but looking forward to a big reward makes it even more awesome.

My little guy wants me to read him a book so I had better go.

Feeling Good

I really wish I had done my exercise this morning but I was so tired so I gave myself a break. I will get a run in tomorrow morning before I have to head to work for my anual review...gross. At least I will be doing it with a friend and then having lunch after which will be nice.

I have been hearing a lot about mantras in the blog world. I need to think of 2 a day for myself. one to be focused on exercise and the other will be on my "diet" One that I really liked when I was eating so clean was "why put crap fuel into my body...I wouldn't do that too my car". I need to stay focused like that. It is so true though why am I not showing respect to my body. I felt amazing when I was. I want to get back to that point. I know that the exercise helped me too. I need to get that back in my head. Eat clean and be active!!!!!!

I had a great bowl of oatmeal this morning. I think that I need to get some berries though so I can have those protein pancakes that are yummy and quite filling. I will be having my turkey burger and pineapple soon and for supper I will bbq some chicken and have my yummy salad with everything in it. I need to come up with some better meal ideas though and have a big bake off next week. I am only working my 2 days this week which means I will have 7 days off. Lots of time to clean and prep some meals. I would like to make a couple of soups which are so easy to pack for my lunches :)

Well I must do some cleaning now. For today I just want to get the kitchen done and the bathroom :) I sure wish I had a magic cleaning wand.

30 lbs

These 30 lbs won't come off if I don't change my diet back to the way I was eating last year. Something kind of clicked today and looking at pics just now brought some more motivation that I need. I will have those lbs off before going away in August. Wish me luck

Bootcamp and Hot Yoga

This is what I did for activity today. I did a 1 hr long bootcamp class and then at noon I went and did an hour of Hot Yoga :) Yeah for being active today but it made me quite hungry around supper time. I know that i probably ate too much but I will figure out the pts and keep on going.

Tomorrow morning I will be getting up nice and early to do a 5K run. Then I am back to work for my set of 4.

Tonight I may or may not have some popcorn which will be more flex points. I will see how I feel in an hour or so.

Off to watch the news and the electon coverage. I did vote.

May

This will be the month that I get things under control. I have spent 6 months eating whatever I want and because of that I have put on 30 lbs!!!! That is a lot of weight in a short time and I know that it is not good for my body. I really do feel it.

I decided, finally, that I am not going to do my half marathon this month. I know that my body is not in the shape it needs to be in to complete this race and I am not taking the chance of having an injury. so what I have done is signed up for a 15K June 5th. It really helps to have something to train for to keep me accountable with my running and I know that if I eat clean my runs will feel awesome.

I will keep you posted about my weight loss weekly. I will have a WI at home every sunday and post the results here. I am still going to do WI's at WW too but I like using my scale as results since I can do naked WI's :)

Well I must be off now. Need to make a grocery list for the week and then go get them. I hate getting groceries in the rain.

Another month gone

and I still haven't gotten my act together :( I have to get serious about this, the weight is creeping on and my mood is changing as my diet has changed from clean to crap.

Goals for May:

attempt my 3rd half marathon (will probably walk/run this one) - decided not to run this :(
run 4x/week
strength train 3x/week
hot yoga - everyday that I can
clean eating/stay OP
keep house tidy
1 snack in evening
1 pop, 1 coffee/day unless working nights

healthy snacks to have in the house

almonds
apples
bananas
kashi bars
grapes
oranges
natural peanut butter
veggies

plan menu for my day and stick to it!!!!!

I need to get this extra weight off and I will do it before heading down east for our summer trip :)

How am I doing

I have been doing just so-so with being back to WW. I found that I was really hungry after my day shifts or I just though I was. I really need to break the night eating habit. I should have 1 snack picked for the evenings and then when I have had it be done with the eating. That will be my goal for the remainder of the week. i guess the next 2 nights won't count since I will be at work so my goal for these 2 nights is to have healthy snacks in my cooler and not to deviate from the cooler snacks :)

I decided to take today off from running since I have ran 3 days in a row now, actually I think it is 4 and just do a yoga class. I will run wed and thurs and do something with strength training on friday and then attempt a 16 K on saturday.

That will be all for today. Excited to go to yoga. My balance is so off right now. I sure hope it does not take long to get it back.

16 K did not happen

I woke up with a sore throat and was just not feeling that great. I did almost 7K for a run. I am starting to wonder if I will be ready for this half marathon. I NEED to make sure that I run 16K next weekend and 18K the following weekend so that I know I can get some long distance running in. I will make sure that I do go down to the waterfront to do these runs.

I did go to WI this morning and was not totally shocked by the number that came up on the scale. My 12 week challenge starts today. I will rock this challenge. I will not let my body down. I will get my healthy lifestyle back.

I am back to work tomorrow. I will do 5K runs before each of my day shifts just like I used too.

Well hope everyone is having a great long weekend (unless your a shift worker like me and are working some of this weekend)

another challenge :)

So tomorrow after I do my 16K run (which I am a little nervous about) I will be dragging myself to WI. I am done with putting crap in my body. I would say for the last 5 months I have not been eating very clean at all. My meals are usually the clean type but I have been having lots of snacks that are for sure not "clean". I really have noticed a change in myself both physically and mentally and I don't like where I am heading so I am starting today to clean up my act and get back to the healthy habits that I worked to hard to achieve. I felt my best last summer and fall and I will get back to that point. I will buy myself a 3 month journal which allows me to track for 12 weeks and I know that if I eat clean and stay active that I will get back to my feel good weight. The 12 week mark will put us at July 16th and as it turn out I will be able to actually WI on that day.

My activities that I will do will be bootcamp 2-3x/week and run the other days and fit hot yoga in as many days as I can since I love it so much. I want to get back to the shape I was in. I won't be signing up for any more long runs after my half in May for the rest of the year. I will stick with 5, 10 and 15 K runs until I next March when I will attempt to do the Around the Bay 30K road race :) I want to focus more on strength training which I get from bootcamp. If I can't get a bootcamp in then I will try to get to the gym to do some form of strength training.

My diet...I know that eating clean is easy for me but I need to cut way back on the snacking. I am not sure why I fell back into the old lifestyle but I am done. if I want snacks in the evening when watching TV I will have some plain air popped popcorn. When I am at work I need to cut back on the snacking on my night shifts. There is really no need of me doing it and i need to drink water instead and if I am hungry (like on my 2nd night) I need to have my cooler filled with healthy snack options like fruit, nuts, air popped popcorn etc. I will clean up my diet...I am making this a promise to myself and my family :) I have all those awesome clothes that I bought last summer that I will fit into once again :)

My activity for today will be run 6K (while my hubby rollerblades) and then a mini bootcamp. I would love to do the hour long one but really I shouldn't since I am doing my long run tomorrow. Like I said once my half marathon is over I can maybe get 2-3 hrs of bootcamp in.

Well I should make a grocery list so that I can achieve this goal that I have. I can't believe that I will be going back to work on sunday. I do feel like I have had a lot of time off which really does make it hard to go back ;)

Where has April gone???

I can't believe the fact that April is almost over, and I am still having issues with what I am eating. I am running my 3rd half marathon May 15th so I am challenging myself to eat clean while I finish my training for this race. I truly believe that if I get this many days of clean eating under my belt that I will have my grove back.

My husband and I just got back from 8 wonderful days in punta cana. What a great trip we had. The weather was awesome, foot and drinks were just so-so and the people were fantastic. I would say the best part of our trip was the daily adventure we had seeing the DR with a tour guide.

We missed our little man so much that we could not wait to get back to see him and of course to see my step son too. Mom and Dad are arriving today to visit with us for a week :) Kind of sad that I will be working 4 out of those 7 days that they are here but I will still get to see them.

Well that will be all for now. I hope to get some groceries at some point today to have some healthy foods in the house.

April

april will be a great month for me. I will be in control of those things that are causing me stress right now. Well I guess really only 1 thing is causing me stress but I am the one that can control this and I will. I love the beginning of new months and since this is the 4th month that I have been saying this I really don't want to say it again. My eating will be getting under control. The only setback that I may have is when we go away but I can still control what I eat, I am more worried about yummy tropical drinks that I will consume ;) Must get some sleep. Had a great night at work after the night before was crazy busy.

AHHH :(

My appetite or mood is getting the better of me but at least I am not eating large amounts of unhealthy foods. I have already had so much to eat this morning but I am feeling better and will settle back into a somewhat normal routine. I did not sleep well last night, slept through my alarm which made me miss bootcamp and I really just wanted to stay in bed but had to take the kids to school. On sunday my entire running plans had changed. I was called sat afternoon after I had already ran my 11K and asked if I could be the 3rd runner in a realy as one of the team members was sick and could not run it. I was a little leary about doing it but since we were not running for a prize I said I would and had a great time. I did the middle portion of the 3 person relay (30K in total). I did my 10 K in just a little over an hour :) Very happy with that time and felt great after the run. I managed to do 21K in 2 days :) This weekend I have 16K do try and do. I am pretty sure that I will be able to do it. I just hope we have nice weather for it. i can't believe that in less then 2 weeks K and I will be on the beaches in punta cana. I am going to stop preasuring myself to be at a certain weight by then and just focus on eating healthy and exercising so that I feel good when I am there. When we get back I will get my focus back on losing the weight that I have put on over the past few months. I have a Dr's appt in a bit so i better get going.